Summary: "Three words...eight letters." Realization washed across his expression as he figured it out. "Say it...and I'm yours."
Set at the end of 2x01 (Summer, Kind of Wonderful)
Would Chuck say the very words Blair wanted so much to hear...the very ones that he feared?

Disclaimer: Ok I do not own Gossip Girl in any way. If I did, I would be rubbing it in your face :P But I don't...so, yeah. Curse me for not coming up with a better disclaimer!

Chapter 5: Queen B

I stared at my pitiful reflection in the mirror. My eyes were red and my cheeks were soaked with tears. After crying for the past half hour, all I had left were hiccups. Marcus left as soon as he came. No need for an explanation; he had figured it all out. It was obvious by Chuck's reaction to his entrance and my screaming pleas that I lost my appetite for breakfast. I think he said that he had to go somewhere, but I wasn't sure where, for my waterworks blocked out the noise.

How could I screw this up?! I can't believe I even tried getting revenge on Chuck...all that he did for me made up for everything else. I didn't even care about the rest; I just wanted to be with him, once and for all.

I was about to say it right before Gossip Girl sent out that stupid blast. He probably would've said it too...sure, the only times he's told me was in my dreams, but still! Wasn't that a sign?

Right now, I wanted nothing more than to be with him. To see his handsome face, to feel his warm embrace, to kiss his loving lips...

I took a deep breath and turned on the water to as cold as it would get. I splashed it on my face over and over and over until the tears froze.

I heard a voice and turned to the toilet.

Come to me, Blair. I'm your comfort...I'm your best friend, it called.

Get the hell out of my head!

You know you love me..., it persisted.

"No," and this time I spoke aloud, "I love Chuck. With him around, I don't need you. I'm sick and tired of you screwing everything up. I'm beautiful just the way I am."

And I flushed that all away, watching the water drain down the white bowl.

The silence that surrounded me afterwards made me realize that the water was still running.

I turned it off and looked once more in the mirror. I stood up straight and tall and ran my hand through my hair only to notice the sorry-I-screwed-up gift that now adorned my hand. I grabbed the charm and stared at it, reminding myself that I was Queen B, ruler of Constance Billard. Nothing stands in my way.

Except for Chuck Bass.

Little did I know that outside the bathroom door, I had a guest waiting for me. He had probably been standing there for a while, but I didn't even care how much he heard.

I just leaned into him and held the new wave of tears back, not wanting to ruin the moment. His arms wrapped around me and held on tight.

Feeling unusually tired, I fell asleep.

"How did you know where I was?" was the only question that popped in my mind as he entered the bar and walked up to me.

"Lucky guess," he said.

"What do you want, my lord?" I asked in a clipped sarcastic tone.

"I'm here to talk to you about Blair." he replied calmly.

"She loves anything expensive and shiny. But whatever you do, skip the flowers."

"I'm not looking for gift advice."

"Then what?"

"I'm here to tell you that nothing happened at all between me and Blair."

"Trying to defend your title?"

"No. I'm telling you the absolute truth."

"I don't believe you," I said with narrowed eyes.

"I suppose it was my fault. I was the one to kiss her first," he paused, as if choosing his words carefully then continued, "Turns out, there was never anything there."

I didn't know what to say.

"Look, Chuck, I'm not as stupid as you think I am. I know you want her and that she wants you."

Ignoring his last comment, I interrogated him once more.

"Then why did you stop by her house today?"

"I asked her if she wanted to have breakfast with me, and she agreed. I should've called and asked if she still wanted to go."

I took a deep breath, letting it all sink in.

"Are you positive?"

"100 percent. I came over here to talk to some sense into you before you lost her for good. Even though it never worked out for us, I know that she's a great girl...she deserves to be loved. And she is."

Without saying another word, he left, leaving me there to coordinate my jumbled thoughts.

Everything was a mess and nothing made sense.

Except for one thing.

I needed to see Blair...now. I needed her more than ever. I needed her to explain to me that everything was going to work out, because she was the only one who could ever convince me of anything.

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After I arrived at her house, out of breath, I asked Dorota where Blair was and she pointed to the bathroom.

"Not again..." I muttered.

Standing by the door, all I could hear was the toilet flushing and the water running. I was too late. And it was all my fault. Because of me, her breakfast was swimming through a sewer.

I hadn't noticed her come out until she ran into me. I didn't bother to say anything, and gladly, neither did she. I realized that I didn't want anything now: no explanations, no tears, no apologies...just her presence and the calming silence.

After I heard her light snores, I knew that she was asleep for sure. It must've been her stressful day that knocked her out.

Careful as not to wake her, I carried her up the stairs and set her down on the bed. She stirred for a bit, but finally settled, resting her head on my shoulder, just like after she fainted. I pulled her into me tighter and kissed her forehead.

"I love you, Blair Waldorf; always have, always will." I whispered in her ear.

Maybe she heard me...maybe she didn't. It just felt good to say it to her, even if she was halfway in Dreamland.

I closed my eyes, seeing only her face behind my eyelids.

"I love you, too." I mumbled with a smile.

The words that even my subconscious mind could utter to him...

A/N: Sorry...I know this one is very short. I just didn't know how else to end it well. No worries; I will update tomorrow. I am currently working on that one-shot, as well as another fanfic (CB, of course!)
In the next chapter, there'll be lots of fluff (whenever I hear that word, I swear I imagine cotton candy and kitty cats) and any confusion should be cleared up, as well as another surprise (however, I'm not 100% sure about the surprise; I always change my mind while writing).

Oh, and you can find B's charm bracelet at : search "crown bracelet" & click the gold one.

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