Disclaimer: I do not own -man.

Author's Notes: Okay so a little angst. It's from Lenalee's point of view. And she's talking about Allen after he's died. And her love for him and all angst stuff. So enjoy!

Why?

You had to, didn't you? You had to bear that burden all by yourself. Keeping all your pain hidden behind a stupid smile. Why? Why couldn't you let us help? Why couldn't you let me help? You knew how much I cared for you. You knew and you still risked your life like that.

We could have fought them off together but you rushed in alone thinking it was your duty to defeat the Earl all by yourself. It's not fair. You left me all alone. You would always try your best to cheer me up. Even when I cried you'd try your best to console me. You'd hold me and wipe away my tears.

That night when I found you alone, I begged you not to sink any further into the darkness. You were my world. And now…that your gone, my world is shattered. Why? Why did you have to go?

I... I loved you!

R&R please!