Save Me from Myself

Chapter 21

It wasn't quiet anymore. Before, I liked quiet. It meant that Saber wasn't around to hurt me. Now, I love noise. It meant that someone was around to love me.

"Jordan! You're getting crumbs all over Mommy."

I rolled onto my back, sighing. "Fang, shut up."

"He is though," he complained.

"What are you guys doing?"

"Makin' you breakfast!" Jordan exclaimed. Yes, exclaimed. He had this annoying thing about being really loud at all times. "B'inged it to you and ever'thin'."

Jordan wasn't my real son. No. Hadn't even been eight months since…Saber died. Jordan was one of those experiments we let lose. He was with us now. He had had a boy he called his brother but he died during the escape. Nudge found him and decided we were keeping him. I wasn't too fond of him at first and the annoying brat picked up on it. To annoy me further, he started calling me mommy. After awhile, it just stuck.

He was eating my toast, hence the crumbs thing. I rolled my eyes before sitting up. Jordan was mixed, with what we weren't sure. Black, I think but something else too. Mexican or white, probably. As far as powers go, we hadn't figured it out yet and talking about it just made him upset.

"Thank you," I said, taking the plate from Fang. "Is my toast good, Jordan?"

He smiled. "Yes."

"Good."

We didn't live with the flock anymore. We moved into a small apartment in town. We visit a lot though. Jordan likes to play in the snow up there. True, there's none right now, as its June, but he liked it during the winter.

Fang walked out of the room, leaving me and Jordan alone. As I began to eat, he finished his toast and started to play with his hair.

"Stop it."

He giggled, laying his head in Fang's spot.

It was weird now. A year ago, I wished ill of Fang and now I was trying to raise a child with him. I mean, it's not like I never think about Saber and how things used to be but…I don't know. Life's just different now. So different that sometimes, looking back on things, it's like watching a movie. Thinking of how I treated Fang before makes me sick and confused but that's just the part of the movie I skip over. I don't skip over what Saber did it me. Not ever. I have to remember that. It makes me stronger. And where I'm weak, Fang's right there to fill in for me.

"Alright," Fang said, coming back into the room. "Are you done eating?"

"No."

"Well, hurry up. We're going to see the others, remember?"

I sighed. "Do we have to?"

Fang got back into bed, pulling Jordan closer to him. "Yes."

Jordan patted Fang's cheek. "Bed no good."

'That's because you got crumbs all over it, silly."

Jordan giggled, leaning against Fang. Jordan was good for me. He made me…think. He had gone through shit, just like me. Different shit but no one's shit is the same as another's shit right? Metaphorically and literally.

Suddenly, the three year old jumped up, running out of the room.

"Where are you going?" Fang called to him.

"Potty!"

Sighing, Fang gave me a kiss on the head. "Hurry and eat so that we can leave."

"Don't rush me, Fang."

He smiled. "Never."

"Did you get the baby ready?"

Yes, baby. Another thing that Nudge just couldn't give to someone else. We almost had another experiment that would have gladly taken her but no. And did Nudge get to raise her? Nope. I'm freaking trying to get over hell and Nudge dumps kids on me. But what are you gonna do? Well, give them up for adoption, I guess but where's the fun in that?

"Yeah," Fang said. "She's in her crib, dressed and with a new diaper."

"Good."

"Done!" Jordan yelled from the bathroom, presumably.

"Wash your hands," Fang called back.

"I gets Cam for you," Jordan offered.

Fang groaned, going to get him. "Leave Camille alone, Jordan. I mean it!"

I sighed, done eating. Walking out of the room, I went into the kitchen to put my plate in the sink. I almost washed it but then I realized I would also have to wash the pan Fang used to make me eggs and the spatula so I decided just to leave it for him later.

"But I wanna hold her!" Jordan complained as Fang walked into the living room.

"Well, too bad. You know that you're not allowed to."

"No fair."

"Go get Rex so we can leave," Fang told him. Rex was this stuffed dog that Jordan refused to go anywhere with out. He even had the damn thing when Nudge found him. He was dirty, bloody, and all alone except for that stupid dog. If it wasn't for some experiment that took the boy with him, Jordan would have died in the explosion Gasman had caused. The guy that took him found him cuddled against his dead brother's body, holding Rex, and crying.

"Okay!" Jordan ran into the bedroom that he shared with Camille. I sighed, going to go shower and change before we could leave. I took Cam from Fang, carrying her out to the car.

Camille was about one and a half. She was blonde and cute so she reminded me of Angel when she was baby. Except for the fact that Cam doesn't have wings, she's just what Angel was at this age. Camille was mixed with some form of wolf, but not the kind that Erasers were mixed with. I'm not a hundred percent sure what though. She did posses the ability to morph but she rarely did it and clearly didn't enjoy the pain that went along with it. I was perfectly fine with that.

"Rex says he loves you," Jordan told me, climbing into the car.

"Tell Rex that he's okay."

Jordan giggled as I began to put Cam in. She giggled too, just because he was. Whenever we go places, we get looks because of Jordan. It must be weird to people, seeing us together. Fang and I are appear white and have a white child but then there's that darker boy that's always in one of our arms. Scream people though. What purpose do they serve besides to make food at McDonalds?

Jordan had readily accepted the idea of Camille as his sister and she accepted him too. He liked have someone to play with and she liked having someone that would cry with her until they got their way.

"I want ice cream," Jordan said the second we got to the Flock's house. I rolled my eyes, getting Cam out.

"Yeah, whatever."

"I do." He looked to Fang. "Please?"

"Not now, bud. It's still early, like only ten or something."

Jordan glared at him all the way to the house. When we got inside, Jordan stomped into the kitchen. Nudge was at the table, doing her nails.

"I want ice cream."

"It's too early for that," she told him.

Jordan banged his hands down on the table, making her look at him, her eyes locking with hers. In a tone that I can't even describe, he calmly stated, "I want ice cream."

It was weird. She just got right up, and got it for him. I leaned against the doorframe, watching this. Fang's the one that told him no so I was just going to let him have it. It wasn't what I was concerned with. All along, I had thought Camille was most like Angel but it looked like Jordan had his similarities too. Shaking my head, I went to go see what Fang was doing. Talking to Iggy.

"Hey," I said, sitting down on the couch next to Iggy. He smiled at me. Ever since that day he had carried me back to the hospital to stop me from bleeding to death, I had found a new love for him. Sure, the rapist comments were fun and amusing, but now, they rarely crossed my mind. Iggy was a good guy.

"Hey-"

"Ah, so you are here," Total said, walking into the room. "I assume that you have brought the brats?"

I sighed. "Yeah, Total. So what?"

"I want to lay some ground rules for this visit."

I needed a good laugh. "Go ahead."

"No yelling, no jumping on me, no pulling my tail-"

"Total!" Jordan yelled, running into the room. He sat his bowl of ice cream on the floor before running over and tackling the dog. Total made a noise of displeasure and tried to get away. Jordan grabbed his tail, pulling the dog back to him.

"Ow, you runt! I got shot there once, you know."

Sure, I should have stopped the dog abuse but…okay, so I have no excuse. It's just plain funny. Like I said, I needed a good laugh.

Saber was gone and I had a whole new family to replace him. Some people I had known before, two I hadn't,, but either way, they were still new to me and I them. And having a big family is always better than just one, evil guy. Fang had saved me from spending the rest of my life with an abusive guy. He didn't just save me from Saber either, Fang had saved me from myself and for that, I'm eternally grateful.

And…Done. Finally. Over a year but I finally finished it. Now I have to go work on finishing other crap I left undone. Either Taken 2 or Save one. Not sure. Neither is a great as this story though.