No, I don't think J.K. Rowling would write fanfics either...

The stairs creaked silently as I made my way down to the depressing kitchen in this even more depressing house. Careful not to wake anyone I tiptoed my way down and through the hall, I was surprised when I saw that there was light streaming through the spring under the door. I heard muffled voices and realized that it was Remus and Sirius, the only one who thought that he had a higher claim on Harry than me. I didn't normally eavesdrop on people but I was curious about what the two men discussed in the middle of the night. I sneaked closer to the door but abruptly stopped when I heard my name.

"She is not his mother, Moony!" Sirius hissed. "She could never take Lily's place."

"Of course not Padfoot, no one could ever replace Lily," Remus soothed. "But…" He paused before speaking again. "Harry has practically lived with them since he began Hogwarts. I think she has kind of adopted him."

"But she has not." Sirius voice sounded harsh. "And does that give her the right to act as if no one else has ever seen Harry before her? I'm his godfather for God's sake! I was there when he was born! I was the first one to hold him besides James and Lily! I babysat him and changed his nappies and soothed him when he cried. He called me Paddy, Remus. He would always laugh at me and Lily would say that nobody could resist laughing when they saw my deformed face. And I loved it Remus, they were my family. James, Lily, you, Harry and even their cat and that stupid rat we called friend. James was always like a brother to me, even before I ran away from here. And that did not change because we graduated, you know that Moony." I felt a small stab in my heart as I heard his voice, which sounded almost desperate.

"I know that Sirius. But I do not think Molly does. I do not think she realize that Harry already got a mother and a father and a godfather and other people who cares about him, no matter how unavailable they are. I think she feels so good about being there for Harry that she does not realize that there is people who would lay down their lives in a heartbeat if that meant that he could be happy. And she does not realize that there are people who already have."

"She probably thinks I was completely selfish when I went after Wormtail, but how could I stand living with myself if I didn't even try to get rid of the traitor? What if he had gone after Harry? And does she think that I am proud of the fact that I spent twelve years in a prison with soulsucking monsters? Does she think that I would not have been with Harry even if I could have?"

"I do not know Sirius." Remus sighed. I suddenly realized that tears were running down my face and I silently went back towards the staircase, unable to hear anymore.

It was true, what they had said was true. I had never known Harry's parents, James and Lily. Mainly Lily took up my thoughts right now. She had said hello to me sometime and I had seen her on pictures from the original Order of Phoenix. But I had never thought about her as Harry's mother. And there I was, saying that he is as good as my son, as though I could just march in and fill the space Lily had left, when so many knew that she had offered her life to save Harry. And I had never paid any attention to the fact that Sirius is Harry's godfather and for a reason too. Sirius had known so much about Harry's early childhood and parents and probably grandparents too. He could probably tell from whom Harry had gotten the shape of his ears and knees. All I knew was that he looked like James, except the eyes which were like Lily's. But that's common knowledge. Sirius knew so much more. I climbed down in mine and Arthur's bed, deciding to tell Sirius I was sorry.

Little did I know that by the time that I had worked up the guts to actually do it, it would be too late.