A/N: Seriously, this is the last story I'm updating before graduation -.-

Sorry to all of you 15 (or so?) for reviewing to this story! I hope this makes up for the wait? Probably not because it's not really happy yet...

Chapter 2

Crap! What was he going to do? Derek sighed, closing his eyes. How could everything end up like this? He knew that he had screwed up big time but maybe this was a good thing... But if it was a good thing then why did his heart feel like it was about to stop beating all together. His eyes were still fixed firmly on her rings, the rings he had given to her so many years ago. His throat tightened and tears started forming in his eyes. What the heck was going on with him?

Derek knew he had to get out, now. And that he did, without telling anyone, someone else could take over his surgeries, someone would notice that he was gone. Once outside he still didn't feel better, he started walking just to get away from everything, wondering when it all had gotten so complicated.

Meanwhile Addison was sitting on a bench at the boat bridge. She had her eyes closed, willing her tears to stop running down her cheeks. She didn't know how long she had been sitting there or why she couldn't cease crying because whenever she thought about her now officially failed marriage. Maybe she did deserve this, she had slept with her husband's best friend after all and this was karma's payback. Addison drew in a shaky breath, opening her eyes only to close them again a second later.

When Derek arrived at the trailer he saw that most of the clothes she had brought to Seattle with her were already gone, a note saying she would pick up the rest of her things as soon as possible. This made him angry, or maybe just sad, honestly, Derek had no idea what he was supposed to feel anymore. All he knew was that he should probably be glad his marriage had ended so he could be with the one he loved but suddenly he wasn't so sure of who it was he loved. He was sure he had made of the most terrible mistakes in his entire life. Even with Addison sleeping with Mark he should have ended his marriage in a way appropriate to how he had once felt about his wife. Thinking back to about ten years earlier Derek couldn't believe he had been so cruel to her. She was the love of his life, he had thought they would grow old together. But instead he was behaving like a child, trying to get revenge again and again, regardless of her feelings. There had to be a way for him to make things right again. Or was it already too late?

'Derek Christopher Shepherd!' Derek held the phone far away from his ear after his mother had yelled at him the way she only did when something involved him either eating cookies before dinner or treating Addison in a way that she didn't find appropriate.

"Hi mom..." He sighed, Derek knew he had screwed up, he was reminded of that every time he looked at her wedding ring, he surely didn't need his mother to remind him as well.

'What did you do to that poor girl?'

"Did you ever think about the fact that this poor, poor girl might deserve it?" He was pissed, why would his mother always take Addison's side in everything and how did she even know what had happened? He knew Addison well enough to know she hadn't called his mother. Yes, right after he had said it, Derek already regretted it, knowing his mother would not be happy.

'Derek,' She sighed exasperated, 'I don't know what you did this time, all I know is that she quit her job and wants to leave Seattle, without a plan where to. So it must have been something terrible and no matter what she ever did to you, you said you would try to make things work again.' Carolyn had tried not to get involved into her son's marriage when he had been absent, leaving his wife alone on Christmas and various other holidays and when she had then slept with Mark, who was like a son to her, Carolyn had still tried to stay out of things. What Addison had done was wrong but it didn't justify her son moving halfway across the country, ignoring calls, emails, letters.

"How do you even know all of this?"

'Richard called.' Derek couldn't believe it, now Richard had called his mother to inform her of what was happening in her son's life? It wasn't like Derek was in his twenties, no he was in his forties.

"I'm not talking to you about this, mother." He grumbled, debating whether he should just hang up on her.

'You used to be so convinced she was the love of your life.' And with this Carolyn ended the conversation, she knew that she couldn't tell him what to do but she liked Addison and remembered how happy she had always made her only son.

Later that day Derek had had more than enough of pondering his stupid decisions when he realized he didn't want to let her go without at least talking things through. It was already dark outside and he sighed to himself. No, there was no way he would find her now.

There had always been a place Derek went whenever he needed to be reminded of happier times and this was exactly where he was headed now, the only place that made him feel like home again. When he had arrived at the boat bridge it dawned on him that it wasn't only his favorite place in Seattle.

"Hey..." He said softly, approaching her from behind. Addison didn't turn her head to look at him, she simply sighed, right now Derek was the last person on earth she wanted to see, even after Stalin and her mother. Had she just put Stalin on a level with her mother?

"Go away." She said, her voice hoarse from crying almost 24 hours straight. Of course he didn't listen, instead he sat down right next to her, looking at her face. His heart cringed when he saw her eyes, which were now red and puffy. She looked absolutely miserable and it was all his fault. "Please, just leave." Addison whispered desperately, she was actually pleading him to leave.

"I'm sorry." Derek only stated, causing her to snort in pure disgust.

"Great, that helps so much now." She shook her head, her eyes now flaming with anger. "You have been punishing me for a mistake I made, once Derek, ONCE! And then you go ahead and do the exact same thing! Yeah, this is making this work." Addison ran her fingers through her hair and he knew this meant that it was either that or her slapping him across the face. Right now Derek wasn't so sure if he wouldn't have preferred her to do the latter.

"Addison..." He started again, taking her hand in his.

"How dare you?" She snatched her hand back, her jaw clenching in anger. "I moved here, for you. I gave up my life, for you. I've been crying more than any soap opera character and that just in one fucking day, Derek! All this because of you!" Addison got up, walking up the the rail which was seperating boating bridge and water. She couldn't believe him! And worst of all was that her body was still reacting to his the same way it had always done. When he had taken her hand tingles had been running through her stomach and her heart had began to beat faster. Someone up there truly hated her.

"Listen to me, please." Again he tried to move closer to her, soon realizing that had not been a good idea for she had slapped him harder than he would have imagined within seconds before she stormed off, leaving him rather confused. Derek knew that he deserved her reaction, he had messed things up and had to try to make it right again.

But how?

Damdammmm this is chapter 2, anyone have any thoughts? Review please (: