Another new one. Actually, I think this one is going to be the best one I've written so far. So, I'm just going to move on-rather than waste your time with my seemingly endless speech:

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, because, if I did, my name would be replacing Bella's and therefore Bella and Edward wouldn't exist; sorry, Bella :P

Why could I only hurt my precious Bella? It wasn't just that I had endangered her life because of what I was-though that was surely, reason enough-but because I couldn't keep my promises either.

"It will be as if I never existed." What a lie that had been. Coming back to her seemed the only way that I would be able to live; without her I was left wandering in a black whole known as my personal hell.

My weakness had finally caught up with me but I was far past caring. Alice had already seen my decision; I was sure that this hadn't escaped her peering eyes.

Surely she was already creating plans around the ones that I had already built. I could only begin to envision her bubbly enthusiasm as she ran around the house; fortunately, I wasn't there to witness first hand-poor Jasper.

I was smiling as my fingers tapped my armrest with the familiar rhythm of Bella's heartbeat. Only two more hours and I would see my love again and finally reclaim my heart-for I had left it behind with her.

But what if Bella didn't want me anymore? What if she really had moved on as I had intended her to? I wouldn't be able to accept seeing my Bella in the arms of someone else; the pain would be intoxicating and inescapable though I no longer deserved someone as breathtaking as Bella.

Even so, I wouldn't leave without a fight for what I loved and cherished. I would grovel at her feet for the rest of eternity if her blessed forgiveness ensued.

I couldn't take this waiting anymore and breathed a sigh of relief as the pilot announced our immediate landing.

How lucky I was to be a vampire then; only seconds could separate me from my only love; from where I wanted-needed- to be.

"Edward!" Alice's gasp was all it took to gain my concentration as my feet were met with concrete.

Bella standing on the edge of a cliff. Her shoulders braced against the surging wind. A scream breaking through the air as she jumped to the icy water beneath; and then nothing.

How could this be happening? Why would Bella do that? I ran towards my family at the greatest pace allowable for a human only to find Jasper soothing a sobbing Alice.

"Edward, tell us what's going on!" Esme's voice was meant to sound demanding but it came out sounding like a half-strangled, broken, plea.

"Bella…she….cliff…drowning…" Words seemed few and far as I watched Alice's shaking figure regretfully. Why had I left in the first place? This was Bella. She couldn't live without attracting danger. Of course it would be worse if I left!

I could only faintly hear the hushed gasps of my family as I stood remembering my fragile Bella and how it felt to hold her in my arms.

"Hurry, hurry!" Alice sprang lightly to her feet and gestured wildly for us to follow after her. "We might still have time!" She called over her shoulder.

I wasn't worthy of a heaven-the soulless creature I had become-but that didn't stop me from praying that we would make it; me had to make it. Alice's words had to be true; Bella couldn't seize to exist. There wasn't a world without her in it.

Running at a human pace was grueling and nearly unbearable and took all of my concentration to maintain it. Had I have been running at my own speed, I would make it there, that much faster. I couldn't stand running this slow, anymore.

"Alice! We need to get into the forest! I'll be able to get to her faster!" I was shouting at the wind as Alice's pace increased and her directions faltered before suddenly veering off to the left.

I ran faster now, passing Alice by and forcing myself to increase my speed. There was nothing that could hold me back anymore; I was going to get there.

"What's going on?" 'Edward, what's wrong?' How could Emmett not understand? How could he not already know?

I didn't bother to answer-sensing this, Rose chirped in, "Emmett, really, keep up! Bella's going to jump off a cliff and kill herself!" It was harder for me to focus as Rosalie spoke the truth. Somehow, when the words weren't spoken, it seemed that the reality of it all had never reached its' full impact.

"What? NO! We just came back!" His anger and determinate were palpable-but nowhere near comparable to the extent of my own.

"Come on, faster!" Urgency was evident in Alice's command as we neared our destination; there hadn't been a change in her vision.

I raced forward to the one place that I wasn't allowed but I didn't care anymore; I was already gone. I didn't care about the treaty; there was nothing that mattered to me anymore than the love of my existence and I was going to lose her.

But how could she do this to me? How could she lose her faith in me? Had I not told her I loved her time and time again? Why was she doing this?

What reason would she have to permanently remove herself from my life? Maybe, the same reason you had to remove yourself from her life? No, she's not doing this for my protection; it's different. My mind fought itself as I thought of what she was doing, but still-how could she do this to my family? How could she hurt them in this way?

It wouldn't surprise me if I meant nothing to her now, but she had to know what this would do to Alice! We hadn't seen visions of her in months and finally this one of suicide! This wasn't how it was supposed to be!

I could clearly see the cliff now and a familiar figure standing on the edge. There was something different about my Bella but I didn't have the chance to consider this as she leaned forward and readied herself to jump.

"Bella, I'm here! Bella, stop! No, don't!" My shouts were useless; I was too late as I watched her frail form launching itself into the stormy waters beneath.

Familiar pain ambushed me as I fell to the ground; how could I be too late? How could my Bella kill herself?

"No, Bella, no!" Alice appeared at my side only seconds later but her screams ended as she realized the absence and began to weep into Jasper's shoulder. Looking at her only made it that much harder to know that this was my fault.

I was only dimly aware of Emmett running to the edge and Rosalie's restraining hold. "Emmett, we're too late." Her whisper trailed back to me and I noticed the sadness interlaced. 'Why did you ever leave her?'

Rosalie's thoughts were too much for me as I turned my attention onto Esme and Carlisle.

'My daughter! How could this have happened?' Esme's thoughts were full of dread and sorrow and I hated myself for it.

'I'm sorry, son.' Carlisle nodded in my direction and placed a reassuring hand on my shoulder but it didn't matter anymore.

"Edward, I'm so sorry." Esme blubbered before the real sobs racked her body. But it was only my fault that Bella had taken her life. What about Charlie? Did his feelings mean nothing to her, then? No…Bella was too selfless for that.

Charlie. I had to go back and see him; there were too many questions that remained unanswered.

I stood and began to walk in the direction I knew Bella should have been. But Alice was faster as she stood blocking my path.

"How could you do that? How could you make my best friend believe that we didn't love her? How could you leave her like that? How could you do that to her? To us?" Alice's uncharacteristic fury brought me to a stand still. Unexpected as her outburst was; she was right.

"Edward, what did you tell her?" Esme's question broke through Alice's anger and I turned to face her.

"I'm sorry, Esme." Apologizing seemed to be the only thing I could manage.

"Edward, what.did.you.tell.her?" She repeated, more heated than the first time, enunciating each word. I couldn't find it in me to answer her.

"He told her that she was no good for him and that he didn't love her anymore!" Alice answered for me, pinching the bridge of her nose as I did when I was frustrated; she was mocking me.

Esme was almost never cross but I didn't miss the infuriated glares that she shot at me.

I didn't have time to react as Emmett tackled me to the ground. "How could you do that to my little sis? How could you hurt her like that?"

I welcomed his anger as a way to escape my pain. "I don't know, Emmett. How could Jasper attempt to kill her?"

"Edward! Stop this, now!" I hated that I had disappointed Carlisle but I knew I had to leave.

"No problem." I muttered, pulling out of Emmett's grasp and I began running again.

"Edward!" Esme shrieked from the distance I had placed between us.

"Don't worry, Esme. He's only going to see Charlie."