Love & Pain

Bumblebee's POV.

Some Cybertronains always said that if you go offline, you see all the happy things of your life. Well, it wasn't for me.

I'm Bumblebee. A Transformer, a Autobot. Me and my crew crash landed on the planet called earth. Thanks to Megatron and the Allspark we had to. It was 50 human years before we all woke up from our static sleep.

When we had woken up, we sure had some adventures together.

And that's how a friendship with a human started. Sari Sumdec. I had saved her from a monster her dad had made. The day I've met the eight year old, we became best friends. We did almost everything.

Heck, she learned me the cool stuff on this planet. Music, dancing and…Video games ! I really like Ninja Gladiator.

We had some great adventures…. Fighting creepy Prowl in the forest, while it was cold. She even held a 'cold' from it.

Or the time when she attached those booster on me. I never would forget how hard we screamed while driving over Prime. He was sure pissed at me back then.

But I'm only a kid. And so was Sari.

After a few months, something happened and we discovered that she wasn't fully human. That she was a robot. Like us.

She first had it difficult with it, but with me and Bulkhead's help, she came back up. While we helped her, I felt something. Something strange.

Something I never felt. I went to Ratchet and asked him what I've felt, he said that I was in love. Sure I didn't tell him it's how I felt, but I claimed it was Bulkhead who asked me to ask him. I knew the Doc bot didn't believe me. Thank primus that he didn't ask who I was in love with.

After a few weeks Sari started to like going to parties and stuff. It was all good, when one night, I had to get her. I saw her standing waiting for me with a boy. Kissing.

My spark fell apart when I saw that. I never felt that much pain. Not even when she had stabbed me. Sari saw me and just got in. I let her and drove her back to Sumdec Tower without saying a word.

A few days had gone over. I didn't talk to Sari anymore. The others saw that I was acting strange and started to ask questions. I just snapped at them. In those few days, I saw Sari hanging around with the same guy, kissing. Every time I saw her doing that, my spark fell into pieces, pieces that cannot be repaired.

It has been a few weeks ago and Sari has called me, mailed me and came to the base to ask why I was acting like that. I snapped at her like I did with the others.

One night, when I was alone on patrol, Sari called me again, asking if I could give her a ride. After thinking twice, I went to pick her up.

When I gotten there, I saw him. Her boyfriend as she called him now. I wanted to drive away from them, but I didn't.

Sari asked me if I wanted to give her and her boyfriend a ride back home. I was furious. Why couldn't she see that I didn't like this guy ? That she had to be my girl ! That I had feelings for her. That I love her ! Yes, I do love her !

Is she blind or something ?! I've told her that I would bring her home, but that her so called boyfriend wasn't riding with us.

Sari didn't understand. So at the end we had a fight. A hard fight. Her last words ran into my processor. 'I can't believe you say those things about him and me ! You don't know him even !! I thought you were my friend, Bumblebee. But you're not. You're just a car who I use to be friends ! I hate you !!'

I hate you. Those where the words that were burned on my processor. She doesn't love me. She hates me. If I could I would started to cry in vehicle mode. But I couldn't. So I drove like a maniac away.

I drove back to base as fast I could. I didn't care if my team saw my oil tears running from my opticals. I ran to my room and locked it. Prime and Bulkhead had followed me and asked me to open the door.

I didn't answerer, I just wanted to be left with my sorrow an pain. With the words Sari had told me. After a while, Optimus and Bulkhead went away.

I cried my spark silently out. 'I hate you, I hate you…' the words that replayed in my head.

I can't take it anymore ! Why did she do that to me ?! Why did she say those stuff ?! Does she really hate me ? Am I really a pain in the aft ? Then I should go…Vanish from this world and from this life…

I started my computer and typed a letter to her and the others. Sari's letter was longer than the others. I've explained her that I loved her and that she just crushed my spark just like that today. And that I can't life with the pain. That I'm saying goodbye to her and the others.

I waited until everyone went to recharge, before going to the park. When I had gotten there I looked at the water of the pond that was there. I changed my hands into my stingers and looked at them before looking back at the pond.

I moved closer to the water and activated my stingers.

"Bumblebee !!" a voice yelled. "No !!"

I looked up. 'Sari…I'm sorry….I love you.'I thought. I let myself fall in the pond and I felt electricity running through me.

Sweet pain.

This is the end for me.

I can't return back.

I won't return back.

Because of you.

Because you ripped my spark out like it was nothing,

Because of you, Sari Sumdec.

But after this life,

After you did this all to me,

Sari, I still love you.

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Creepy. I never thought I would write this. And hey it's a BB X Sari fic ! A creepy oen too O.o Well, if you guys want a next chapter, tell me ! I'm thinking of doing a POV on Sari and the rest of the team, but I want to know what you all think of it first.

R&R people !!

Note: This fic can have some misspells and grammars. Please don't kill me for it. I still need to get the Van Dahl word book program on the computer. TDW will be updates ASP.

Disclaimer : don't own TF