Reasons that reason cannot know
Chapter 1
"You have far too much to lose, Brooke."
"And Lucas Scott was the one boy I might have lost it for."
How could that be? How could she fell in love with him all over again just for a few hours? This couldn't be true… But now all she could think about was Lucas Scott. The guy who changed her whole life, who changed her. The first one she didn't make sex, but love with. The first guy she fell in love with. Whitey's words came to her mind. "You don't forget your first love." He said the same night she ended her relationship with Lucas for good. And she thought they really weren't meant to be. But if she really believed it in her heart, why did this night feel so good to her, so right? Why wearing this ring and pretending she's Lucas' fiancée felt so perfect? Deep in her heart she new the answer. "I love you, Lucas. And I probably always will." Always. That reminded her of something he has done in the past. He wrote on the mirror of her locker "Brooke&Lucas forever". It seemed that nothing could stay on their way. God, why was she even thinking about that? Their love story ended. It was over for good.
"You should be focusing one the company, not boys with rings."
So Victoria… Money, power, that what it was all about for her.
"But what about love, mom? Isn't that the key?"
"In case you have forgotten, it's called Clothes over bros."
Brooke looked at her mother. Cold, selfish, money obsessed. And that was probably because she had never been in love with her husband. Did she want to become like her? She already new the answer of this question and more that that – she knew what she was supposed to do right now. Even thou it wouldn't be fair to Peyton, to Lucas, even to herself, she knew she doesn't have a choice.
"But sometimes, the clothes should wait, mom. I gotta go."
"What are you doing, Brooke?"
"Something I should have done earlier."
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She was standing there, in front of his room. What was she thinking? She'd look pathetic and she knows Lucas didn't mean what he said before. She should get out of there. She knew it. But there was something that couldn't let her do it. It was her heart and she knew that. She knew that no matter how hard she tried to convince everyone, even herself that she got over it, she was still insanely in love with Lucas. And now, she decided to put her heart above everything else: pride, reason, Peyton… She knocked at the door. It seemed to her that it was forever before he opened it, even thou it was just a few seconds. And there he was, the boy of her dreams, standing in front of her and she was more sure than ever that she still loved him and that was never gonna change. He was looking at her, apparently surprised.
"Hey, Brooke. What's going on?"
"Luke, I'm sorry. I know it's late and I know what happened earlier, but can I come in? "
"Sure."
She got into his room and took a look one the bed and the memory of the kiss they shared not long ago came to her mind.
"Hey, what's going on? You seem really upset."
His voice was soft and worried. She was so insecure and afraid.
"Lucas, I'm sorry, I should go, what I thought to do was stupid, sorry for coming here."
She turned around, without looking at him, because she knew that otherwise, she wouldn't be able to leave. He touched her arm and said:
"Hey, Brooke, wait! What's going on?"
She said without turning around:
"It's nothing. Never mind. Forget I came here."
"Brooke, wait!"
He stood in front of her, but she looked down, avoiding his eyes.
"Look, if it's about the kiss and what I said before… I'm sorry of making you feel uncomfortable, after all that we've been through. I didn't have the right to do it now when everything's clear between us… "
"I wanna stay."
She was finally looking at him. He was surprised and confused, apparently he didn't expect this answer.
"What?"
Her voice was trembling as she was explaining to him.
"When you told me to stay, I ran away. But the truth is, Lucas, I wanna stay. I know you said it because you wanted to forget about Peyton and … It doesn't matter. It was stupid to come here. Goodbye, Luke."
And then she left the room, leaving him more confused that he was before.
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He didn't know what to say or do, he was just a mess. But her eyes reminded him of how he felt when he was with her. How simply happy they were. He wanted to feel that way again, without all the drama he has been through lately. He wanted to be the guy for Brooke Davis even for one night.
Brooke was walking to the elevator. She felt stupid and ashamed. She knew she looked pathetic. But there was something more. Secretly, she hoped that he wanted her to stay too, that those weren't just words, that he meant it. Yes, she knew he didn't, but she still hoped. She reached the elevator and pressed the button. She couldn't stop the tears and she didn't want to. It was a moment that made her see that Lucas really didn't feel anything for her and because of her stupid reaction, she couldn't be even his friend anymore. So that was the end of their story. Not to their love story: this happened long time ago, but the farewell to their friendship. And it was a bad ending. Ending she made bad. She wouldn't forgive herself.
The door of the elevator opened and she was just about to get inside when she heard him.
"Brooke, wait, please!"
Lucas was running, trying to reach her at time. Brooke looked at him, but felt too ashamed and turned head in another direction.
"Lucas, you don't have to say anything. I'm sorry for that. I understand if you can't be a friend of mine ever again. I'm leaving."
"No, Brooke, wait! I want you to stay."
She looked at him again. His eyes, looking at her, made her heart beat too fast, but she knew why he was doing this.
"Luke, I don't want you to pity me. I'll be ok. Just, please, leave it."
"Listen, I don't pity you! I want you to stay, I mean it. I want tonight us to be what we used to be, because no matter how our relationship ended, I was happy with you and I need to feel that way again. So, I want you to stay. More than that, I beg you to stay, Brooke!"
She couldn't believe it, this had to be a dream. There he was, looking at her eyes and asking her to stay. He touched her face softly and said:
"Please, Brooke."
He meant it. He loved Peyton, there was no doubt, and she was the girl he was in love with. But he needed to be the man he used to be around Brooke Davis. He needed to feel that calm and safe again. He wanted her to stay.
Many thoughts came to Brooke's mind. She considered why she shouldn't do this, but something inside her told her to follow her heart. And her heart leaded her to Lucas.
She kissed him and he kissed her back. It was amazing to feel him again, his lips, his sense, his body, Lucas. In the moment they kissed, Brooke Davis forgot the world outside.
When his lips touched Brooke's, he enjoyed that moment. He wanted to be with her and forget about everything else.
They went to his room. She unbuttoned his shirt while he was kissing her neck. A second after, they looked at each other.
"Hey, Pretty girl."
"Hey, Broody."
For a few seconds, the just looked at each other, and then the drowned into the moment.