This story has Bella coming to Forks at the beginning of junior year. All the original events happen like in the book except instead of the prom, it was the Christmas dance. This chapter takes place during Christmas break in Edward's room the day after Christmas. (Edward never leaves Bella since her birthday hasn't occurred in which the Cullen's throw her a birthday party)

Chapter 1

Bella P.O.V.

"Edward, please?" I begged for the third time tonight. It was so hard convincing Edward to make love to me because of the boundaries he put up between us. I knew he wanted this just as much as I did, yet he was being stubborn. I reached up to his pale cheek and stroked his jaw gently "I love you, and I want this. You want this, I know you do" I whispered, knowing he could hear me no matter how low I spoke.

He stared into my eyes, searching for anything that might get him out of this. I knew he couldn't find any. He leaned forward and kissed my lips softly, as if this was our first kiss again. I wrapped my arms around his neck, grabbing two handfuls of hair in my grasp and pulled him closer.

He was reluctant at first but gave in none the less. I smiled against his marble hard lips and slowly licked the tip of his bottom lip. His reaction was predictable; he froze up and almost pulled away. The keyword being 'almost'.

His lips parted and I was a little surprised. This was the farthest we've gotten in the months that I've known him. My tongue slide slowly into his mouth and to my surprise again, he allowed me to keep it there…well more like he wanted it there.

A battle for dominance broke out between our tongues. Not one of us wanted to let the other win. His arms slid around my waist and pulled me in tighter then before, my chest pressed against his. As we continued to make out…well it looked more like we were trying to suck in each others' faces, we finally made it to my bed. When Edward's legs hit the edge of the bed, I began to unbutton his shirt, slowly pulling it down his arms.

Seeing as he was topless, Edward thought we should play it fair and began to pull off my navy blue tang top. Once the tang top was off, I pushed Edward on the bed and straddled him. He was smiling "And you didn't want to go along with it" I teased as I kissed him passionately on the lips. This was going to be fun.

One month later in Bella's room…

Bella P.O.V.

I tossed and turned; I couldn't find not one comfortable spot on my damn bed. I sat straight up getting Edward's attention "Bella? Love, what's wrong?" he asked. I wiped the sweat on my forehead and huffed "I don't know. I just can't sleep" I closed my eyes and rubbed them. Edward sat up as well – still in his clothes from last night that I'm sure he would change out of later – and rubbed my back. He kissed my head "Do you want a softer pillow? ...blanket?…PJ's?" he asked and I shook my head at all his suggestions.

I wiped my forehead again "Maybe I just need a…" I froze and tried to breath but I could feel something coming up. Edward looked at me concerned and waved his hand in front of my face "Bella? Are you okay, love?" my cheeks puffed up and I started choking. Edward was getting tense but before he could ask what was up, I pushed his hand out of the way and swung my legs off the side of the bed. I ran into the bathroom in less time then I expected – I swear I should have fell before I took one step out my room – and hovered over the toilet. Last night's dinner came pouring out.

Edward was by my side before I could even finish. I threw up everything that was in my system then just stood there over the toilet "No more sushi for a while" I declared and dropped to the floor and scooted over to the wall on the other side "Ow" I held my stomach. Edward sighed and sat next to be "Feel better?" he asked me as he stroked my hair. I shook my head no and pulled my knees to my chest. He snaked his arm over my shoulder and pulled me in close "Want a glass of water?" he whispered in my ear.

I nodded into the crook of his neck. He slowly got up, bent down, and kissed my forehead "I'll be back in a flash…literally" he smirked making me giggle. He smiled and disappeared in a blink of an eye. I scooted back over to the toilet and laid my head on the toilet seat without thinking. I closed my eyes but felt a slight breeze and they snapped open again. Edward was leaning against the door with a smirk on his face and glass of water in his hand "Hey" he whispered.

I let out a weak "Hey" and hugged the toilet with my head still on it. He chuckled "You know you're resting on a toilet, right? And more specifically, the one you just throw up in" he smiled. I shook my head "I'm not resting on a t…oh" I pulled away from the toilet and shook my head "Am I going crazy?" I asked myself "No" Edward answered no one in particular "Huh?" I looked up to him as he sat next to me "Oh sorry Edward…I was asking myself that question" I whispered then realized what I just said "Oh my god. I asked 'myself' that question. I am going crazy" I held my head and shook it.

Edward held my head in place before I could brake my neck "You are not crazy" he kissed my forehead "You're just being Bella" he kissed my nose "You're my Bella and I love you the way you are" he handed me the glass of water "Now drink this and let's get you back in bed before Charlie wakes up" I chugged the water down and stood up, swaying in the process "Um…Edward?" he turned to see me falling then, darkness.

A few hours later (Charlie went to work and Edward went home to change his clothes. He went back to check on Bella and assured her he'd be back from hunting before she woke up again and then left her to rest. Bella has just woken up)…

Bella P.O.V.

My eyes fluttered open to the light shining through my window. The light coming through my window was blinding – sun in the winter, in Forks, no way – and that meant Edward wouldn't be coming as soon as he planned. I sat up and yawned, stretching out my arms in the process…I heard something crack "Owwwwwwwww" I whined and tried to fix my back. After much cracking, I got up from bed and went down for breakfast. Putting a pop tart in the toaster, I walked over to the living room and sat down to watch some TV.

There was barely anything on and to tell the truth…I actually wished that it could be Monday again already. It was getting too boring at home in the mornings during this winter break, especially when Edward wasn't around. The only show that was at least a little bit interesting was 'Family Guy'. Whoo hoo…cartoon people acting like idiots…my favorite. Sense the sarcasm.

*Ding* Yay…my pop tart's ready…wait…I'm excited because my pop tart is ready. Something's seriously wrong with me today. I lifted myself off the sofa to grab my pop tart from the toaster. It tasted so good…the fudge in it melted on my tongue…the crunchy feel…the – oh…oh god. I covered my mouth and threw the rest of the pop tart away. I ran over to the sink – having no time to run up to the bathroom – and threw up the rest of my pop tart.

Oh crap I feel so sick. I picked up the phone on the counter and dialed Edward's cell. Two rings…

*Hello? Bella?*

"Edward?"

*Bella, love, what's wrong. You don't sound so good*

"I just threw up again, Edward. I really don't feel so good…and I'm hungry"

*Ok…I'll just bring Carlisle and he can come with me to check on you*

"No, no, no; let Carlisle hunt. Can you just bring me to the local doctor's office?"

*Sure, I'll be right there*

I sat down on the floor, curled up in a ball. My stomach was killing me right now. I'm not going to be able to deal with this much longer. I clutched my stomach tighter, the pain worsening every second. I finally got up and threw up in the sink…just as the front door opened and I felt a slight breeze "Bella…oh god Bella" I felt two arms wrap around my waist and Edward kiss the top of my head "You okay?" he asked.

I pushed away from the sink and grabbed a paper towel from the roll on the counter – Edward still holding me from behind – and wiped my mouth clean. I reached over to the sink, turned the faucet, and took a handful of water. I brought it to my mouth and washed it out "Ok…I'm done" I turned around in Edward's arms and hugged him back "Can we go now?" I whispered against his shirt. I could feel him nodding, then we were off.

Waiting room at doctor's office…

Bella P.O.V.

I was sitting with Edward beside me waiting for my name to be called. The nurse at the desk immediately put me on the top of the list once we got here – whether it was from the look on my face that displayed my pain or the fact that Edward was next to me and she noticed he didn't have a ring on his left ring finger yet…I don't know – and now I only have to wait a short while before the doctor can see me. I scooted as much as I could possible closer to Edward. I really didn't like going to the doctor's office but this pain is killing me.

Edward pulled me closer to him but not as close as he wanted thanks to the stupid armrest between. He kissed the top of my head and rubbed my shoulder softly "It'll be okay Bella" he reassured me. Just then I women came walking through the waiting room entrance. She looked about my height but with blonde hair and she was pregnant…well from what I could tell. She looked about passed four months…I guess.

I watched her as she held onto the armrest on one of the chairs across from me to help with her balance as she sat down. Even though she was obviously having trouble, she was still glowing. She looked happy and gleeful, even though she was the size of a whale – or at least that what I hear women call themselves in movies when they're pregnant.

I wonder what it would feel like to be pregnant, to have a child, to be a mother. I never actually saw myself as one but, thinking about it isn't the law or something…right? I mean every woman has the right to suggest getting pregnant. Every woman has the right to think about it, right? What if it were possible for Edward and I to reproduce…oh what am I saying, that's not possible. He's a vampire for crying out l – "Isabella Swan?"

I looked up to see the nurse with a clipboard in her hand "Isabella Swan? It's your turn" I smiled and got up, Edward right beside me. As we walked toward the back I looked behind Edward's back to the soon-to-be mother. She noticed my glance and looked up at me. I blushed at the fact I got caught and she smiled sweetly. I hesitantly smiled back I gave a small wave. I turned back to the direction we were headed and leaned into Edward, the feel of his cold skin was very comforting at the moment.

We continued to walk towards the room the nurse was leading us to and slowly entered. It seemed pretty homey but it looked way too pale. All the walls were completely white and made me feel like I was at a hospital…and I hate hospitals more than I hate doctor's offices. The nurse told me to wait for the doctor in this room, so I sat on the check out table…preparing for my torture.

Edward sat on the chair beside the table I was sitting on and took hold of my hand. I smiled softly and looked down at my feet. Swinging my legs back and forth, I started to think about the smiling pregnant woman outside in the waiting room. I wonder what it would be like to actually get pregnant and have a beautiful little child. To have one with Edward if he were a human would be my dream, but vampires can't have children.

"Hello Miss Swan" I looked up to a very young and beautiful woman. She didn't have pale skin and her eyes were brown, so she wasn't a vampire…but I still envied her beauty. She sat on the chair that was provided for the doctor to sit in "I'm Dr. Anderson and I'll be your doctor for today. So first I want to know the reason for you're…oh. How rude of me. And you are?" I looked over to see Edward smiling "I'm Edward, her boyfriend"

Dr. Anderson immediately froze up. She probably didn't see that boyfriend comment coming. I smiled on the inside. That's just like Edward to dazzle someone just to make them lose hope by saying he's taken. What's wrong with just saying "Hi, I'm Edward"? Even though I have to admit, it's better for them to know then to have to see them try to make a move on him.

Dr. Anderson turned back to me "Ok…back to business. The reason for your visit?" I frowned "I've been throwing up a lot lately and I've been getting killer abdominal pains. My guess is I have food poisoning because of that damn shrimp I had last night. I gotta remind myself to get home early next time or my dad's cooking is going to be the death of me" I cringed as the abdominal pain I was feeling earlier in my kitchen came back "Oh God, there it goes again" I doubled over, my arms wrapped around my stomach.

Edward got up and wrapped his arms around me and turned to the doctor "Do you think you can figure out the source of the problem?" he asked her using his velvet voice. The doctor froze but snapped out of it in the next second "O-O-Of c-c-course. I-I-I just need t-to take a f-few tests" she walked out of the room for a few seconds before returning with a cart; on top were needles, plastic containers, and a whole bunch of other medicals things I hate. But the needles did it…the rest of last night's and this morning's meals were coming up.

I brought one hand up to my throat – the other still at my stomach – and choked out "I need a bucket" Edward let go to grab the garbage bin, but his human speed façade wasn't fast enough. I ran out the door and into the bathroom. I swear, after the ten minutes I spent in there…my stomach was desert dry and empty. I wiped off my mouth and washed it out at the sink. Taking a deep breath, I opened the door to see the doctor and Edward right outside "Bella -" "Miss Swan -" "- are you okay?" they both asked at the same time.

I smiled slightly as I walked back into the room "I'm okay" I sat back down on the check up table "Let's start" I demanded. Dr. Anderson picked up a needle and walked towards me. I closed my eyes – the last thing I saw was Edward sitting at the far end with a hand over his mouth and nose – awaiting the damn needle. After taking some blood successfully without Edward losing control, she asked me and I quote 'Would you mind taking this *hands out bottle* bottle to the bathroom and urinating in it'. I swear I heard Edward silently chuckling at the look on my face; but can you blame me, she was pretty damn straightforward and not in a good way.

I took the bottle and walked into the bathroom. Sitting on the toilet seat cover, I stared at the bottle; do I really have to pee in that. All well…might as well get it over with. After I was done with my business, I walked out of the restroom and back into the other room "Here you go" I handed her the bottle and sat back on the check out table, tucking my hands between my legs. Dr. Anderson smiled as she took all the samples out to be tested. I looked over at Edward "Don't read her mind. Whatever she has to say, I want it to be a surprise"

He raised an eyebrow "You want to be surprised. Wow…I'm surprised" we both chuckled "I know, I know. It just doesn't feel right to know before being told" he opened his mouth to respond but I cut him off with a glare "Birthday parties and gifts, not included. I must be told about those" he frowned but I could still see a hint of a smile in his expression. I bit my lip "Edward?" he looked up "I know that you probably haven't thought about this, being a vampire and all but…have you ever thought about having a family?" he looked shocked, it really wasn't something he expected so I tried to explain my curiosity "I just began to think about it when I saw that lady outside. She looked pregnant and it just got me thinking is all"

I bit my bottom lip again and turned my head away. He probably feels bad now; thinking that me being with him is not letting me experience motherhood – something every mortal female should experience. One thing I didn't expect was for him to sit next to me on the check out table and try to comfort me "It's going to be okay, Bella. But to answer your question…yes" I stared up at him in shock "Really?" I asked and starting crying for no reason but I couldn't control my damn emotions "Bella?" I continued to cry "Bella? Why are you crying? Whether I do think about having a family with you or not, it's not your fault we can't. It's mine"

I choked on my tears and tried to calm down. Once my sobbing was under control, I turned to Edward "It's not your fault. You didn't even want to be a vampire" he pulled me into a tight embrace "I know but to tell you the truth, I'm finally happy that I turned into a vampire. If I wasn't turned into a vampire, I wouldn't have got the chance to be with you" then he kissed me. I kissed him back; it wasn't one of those hot kisses we shared when were having intimate moments together when Charlie wasn't around, but it still took my breath away.

"I got the results" Dr. Anderson announced once she walked in through the door, making Edward pull away and stand up – getting off the check out table in the process – and stood right next to me. I tucked one of my hands – the other in Edward's hand at the moment – between my legs "So what is it? Really bad flu? Food poisoning? Organ damage?" she stopped my little rant with a hand to my lap "Calm down Isabella" I took in a deep breath. I looked over to Edward to see he didn't know yet – awww…he's blocking her thoughts for me "So what is it?" I asked.

Dr. Anderson smiled "You're about four weeks pregnant" I gasped. Pregnant? How did this happen? I started blushing…of course I know how it happened. It. But the only man I did IT with is Edward. He's a vampire. I looked up at Dr. Anderson "Dr. Anderson, there must be a mistake. A problem with whatever machine you used to get the results because…the only man I've ever been with is Edward…" I loked at him when I said his name to see him utterly shocked…what a shocker! "…and technically, he shouldn't be able to have children. I mean his father is a well trained doctor and even he said Edward was incapable of having children"

She smiled "Then it's a miracle because little Miss Swan…you're pregnant. No doubt about it" although I should have been panicking, I smiled. I was having a baby…and not just any baby, Edward's baby. I glanced at him to see he was smiling, too "Edward. We're having a baby" I choked through my news tears. He smiled even wider "I know, and I can't believe it. But yeah…we're having a baby" he hugged me and I hugged back…then it hit me. The unusual pain I was feeling this morning wasn't a good sign.

I've heard about uncontrollable pains like that when pregnant in a random book I was reading for no reason one day. Usually it meant miscarriage. Does that mean that our baby died before we even got the chance to find out about me being pregnant? I gasped and Edward noticed. He pulled away and wiped away a tear on my cheek I didn't know even escaped "Bella? What's wrong?" Dr. Anderson was by my side in a heartbeat "Miss Swan? Is there something wrong? Do you not want the baby?" I sniffed "No…it's not that. It's that the pain I felt this morning. Not that I've experienced being pregnant before but I know that that pain wasn't something you usually experience in a pregnancy…unless *sniff* you're having a miscarriage" she smiled. Why was she smiling? I lost my baby.

She rubbed my back "It's okay Miss Swan. Nothing's wrong with the baby. In fact the result also showed something else" I waited for the news, shaking in place "As predicted…by you, might I add…you do have a slight food poisoning. To explain the unbearable pain, my guess is that the pregnancy is just making it worse than it should be. A teaspoon of Pepto-Bismol twice a day for a whole week so as not to take any other drugs because of the baby, should cure that right up"

I smiled then started crying again "Bella? What now?" Edward asked "Nothing, just tears of anger" I whispered but they both caught it "Anger? Why are you angry?" the doctor and Edward both asked. I choked back a sob "The shrimp…stupid shrimp. Making me cry" they both laughed and I couldn't help but laugh along. Shrimp making me cry…how ridiculous.