LPOV

I was broken inside; it felt like I wasn't whole, like I had been stabbed through the chest. But I couldn't have been as, if I had I would have known I would heal from that but this, this I know will never heal it will be on going, at least until she returned. I couldn't believe what I done had to her let alone me, although I know I can't speak for her. I hope she misses me. Eugh, I hated this. I hurt everyone I cared about, whoever I loved just got hurt even worse from the ones I barely knew about, those I didn't mind as everyone hurts people without knowing it, this, this though isn't just some stranger this is the girl who comforted me when I was down, helped me when I needed it and even rescued me when I didn't deserve it, all these things she done without a doubt. Was I feeling guilt or something worse, as what I felt compared to nothing else I knew. But was what I was feeling hatred or something just as close

I had tried to contact her through our link but as she had many times before just shut me out her mind. Christian. Oh Christian what had I done to him. He had stuck by me through everything but I just took him for granted thinking he would always be there but I was mistaken once more. He took my hand is his when I wanted him to but when I needed him the most he was gone. He had gone to the palace where Mia was to be with someone who appreciated him. It wasn't that I didn't appreciate him but that I had more things on my mind, it was that he clung too much.

CPOV

"I should go back to her, shouldn't I? I spoke in a desperate plea, I needed advise, guidance and I went to the only person I knew here that I could trust.

"I can't answer that" mia spoke the words I didn't want or need to hear. I think she saw that and so continued. "But I think that nobody can tell you what to do, only yourself can. I mean it's your choice, follow your heart." As she concluded my heart gave a desperate sigh. I knew it would come to this but hoped that with a miracle another option would appear, and also if I did go back would she accept me back after what I did to her?

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"Why would she do that to me? After all I done for her, I helped her become what she is, didn't I? Christian? CHRISTIAN?" she yelled I turned around to see her staring at me expectedly, waiting for an answer.
"Sorry" I mumbled back at her, she had been driving me crazy these past two weeks, always moaning about how ungrateful Rose had been, where in my opinion she was the one who had been ungrateful. I knew she missed her but she would never show it and the only emotion she showed was anger towards her used to be best friend. It wasn't just her she was angry at, the anger soon turned to me, it was my fault she left if I hadn't come along then she would still be as close. I felt like walking out on countless of times but went against it knowing that it would break her more than it already was. But I wouldn't handle it any more, I had my own reasons to be angry at her; she and Adrian never were seen apart on most of the days and the queen thought they were a perfect couple compared to the son of the parents turned strigoi.

"Don't apologize it's obvious that you don't care" she snapped at me. She turned away at that point, going of to find Adrian – as I could of guesses – and when she looked back around expectantly as if to say 'aren't you going to come with me' I gave her the answer which I knew would annoy her but still I had to do it otherwise I would lash out.

"I don't want to come with you, you're the one who doesn't want to be with me and who doesn't care. I can tell you would rather be with Adrian so just go and when you come back don't expect to see me here!" I half expected her not to go but deep down I knew that she would anyway. With one last backwards glance she left leaving only a gust of wind behind.

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I didn't like to revisit that memory remembering her anger at me but I knew I had made the right decision, maybe this was what I had needed a break, just to meet up somewhere, with someone I could trust and with that I had ended at the royal palace with mia.
I am going to go back and see her I decided, with that I told mia. I saw her face fall, crestfallen. "What's wrong?".
"Nothing ermm, it's just that you only got here a few days ago…" she mumbled of at the end with her face turning the colour of beetroot. I could feel the lie hidden beneath her words
"You can tell me the truth you know" I didn't need another person not to trust me. She sighed and knew the truth was to be told.
"I have liked you since the minute I saw you but I didn't realize them feelings till after you saved us all. Then I got moved away and when you came and visited me last year you brought back the feelings that I had dismissed long ago. And then again you left, left me feeling empty inside, but now your back I don't know whether I can stand you to leave again" with that I lent down and brushed my lips against her own…

AUTHORS NOTE: Thank you to all those who have been reading my story :) i hope you have enjoyed it soo far but i will be added another 2 chapters and then it will finish.
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