A/N: Hello fellow xxxHolic fandom readers!! So yeah, this story kinda came about from just brainstorming and free writing. I wanted to branch out of my comfortable 'romance' genre and into sorta adventure/gore/horror/suspense....yeah. XD I hope you like it, it'll be confusing and twisty and not really coherent but I still hope you will enjoy it!

Disclaimer: I own nothing, CLAMP beat me to the punch!

Warning: Non-discriptive gore. But don't worry, there will be lots and lots later. (insert evil laughter here)

Ambiguity & Ambrosia: First Slice: Death

--

Death.

It's something I've thought of plenty of times.

How it would feel, how it would happen.

Would I die from something simple? Something unexpected?

Would it be peaceful? Painful? Agonizingly so?

A fire, a car crash, poisoning?

And then, after I have a set scenario in my head, I would move on to after that.

Would I go to Heaven, if there really is such a place. I really doubted that I would go to Hell, but....what if? This is hypothetically speaking after all.

What about reincarnation? Would I end up as another me, living through another life, thinking once again about the ambiguities of death?

Then, finally, once I was content with my ponderings my mind would shift onto another train of thought.

Would my death effect the lives of those I've left behind?

Would anyone miss me? Would anyone notice? And if they did, would they mourn the occasion or would it be a rejoicing matter?

"Oh God! Please no!"

Would they cry? Would my death really matter?

A glint of light reflected off the shinning surface, the first plunge.

I screamed and screamed, my eyes shutting tightly to block everything out.

My hands were groping at my thigh, hot, steaming liquid smearing along the skin.

Then the fingers hit a hard surface, and my eyes shot open.

I saw his face, covered in blood and with a twisted grin.

"Die, please just die." He pleaded, tears streaming down from those golden eyes.

I never thought that dying by his hands could be so horrendous, but so necessary.

That my death would be vital to his life.

--

A/N: So what did you think? Please review! Off to the next chapter we go!!

A-n-B