AN: PLEASE READ OR YOU WILL MOST LIKELY CLICK THE BIG RED X BUTTON IN THE CORNER OF THE SCREEN IN A RAGE! DON'T DO THIS BECAUSE YOU NEED TO TRUST ME AND KNOW I LOVE EDWARD!!!! Anyway, as I mentioned before, this story is coming to a close…finally. Sorry to everyone who likes this story, I just CAN'T write it anymore, so I'll be writing this chapter which is the end. It will probably much shorter than the others, but don't hate me for it. I'm finishing it and I PROMISE to give you a SATISFACTORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(HINT HINT SO DON'T STOP READING IN THE MIDDLE HINT HINT) ending…*smiles widely and shows non-crossed fingers* Thank you all for staying with me after all this time, :)

Chapter 6: Explanations and Realizations

BPOV

Alice's party was intense. I couldn't really expect anything else; Alice will be Alice. The boy there, Jacob Black, was really nice. He didn't try to hit on me. He didn't try to give me alcohol. He didn't try to do anything, except listen.

"I think he's cheating on me." I blurted out. We were sitting in the kitchen talking. About Edward.

"Who? Edward?" Jacob asked.

"Yeah." I whispered quietly.

"I wouldn't doubt it. It may be the first time Edward has gotten a girl pregnant - which I'm surprised about - but it isn't the first time he's pretended to be in love with someone.

Pretended? "What do you mean?"

He sighed. "Bella…boys like Edward will do anything to get into their pants -"

"But he already got into my pants -"

"Don't interrupt! I'm not finished. So anyway, boys like Edward will do anything to get into their pants and then move onto the next. But, sometimes a guy really enjoys one girl for a while. That doesn't mean he likes you, or loves you or what ever, it means he likes the sex…AND, not to mention the fact your pregnant."

"So what does that have to do with anything!?" I was angry now. Not at Jacob, but at Edward. If what he was telling me was true then…

"Calm down, Tiger, I'm getting there." He grabbed his beer and started chugging it until he dropped it to the table. It spilled out a little and I grimaced. I really, really wanted some.

"Right, so because your pregnant, he has a tie to you that he really kinda can't break. I mean, think about -" he hiccupped - "it! He stays with you, acts like a good father- to-be and screws some non-emotional, horny girl off on the side line. It's genius!"

My brain really couldn't function correctly. I knew I shouldn't believe him, and I knew I should talk to Edward about this, but it made sense. I mean, why would I of all people break into Edward's heart when no other girl could? I hung my head slowing.

"Oh relax, sweet cheeks! I got me a plan!"

I looked up at him confused.

"Oh just come on!"

I sighed.

***

And so I ended up on Edward's with Jacob sitting next to me.

"So what's the plan exactly?" I asked, feeling uncomfortable.

"Well, we wait until Edward comes in the room, I push you down on the bed and start makin' out with you. Then Edward will come in, see us, freak out and get all angry and stuff and then he'll regret everything." I giggled. I really couldn't help it. So this was what his plan was about…

"Jacob…I'm not really comfortable with -" The door clicked open and Jacob shoved me down kissing me. I gasped surprised and his tongue quickly entered my mouth. He tasted of alcohol and cigarettes and it was gross.

As he continued kissing me, I knew Edward was watching. Suddenly, anger filled through me! Hell, Edward did deserve this, even if Jacob was doing it for the wrong reasons.

I looked at Edward, who was standing in the doorway, and glared at him, making all my anger and depression that had accumulated over the past few weeks pour out at him.

He deserves this!

"Get out!" He screamed, flinging himself in the room and ripping Jacob off of me with inhuman strength.

"Both of you! Get out of my room!"

Jacob glared at Edward, before turning to wink at me and walked out of the room. Edward just looked at me as if he was waiting for an explanation.

"Pay backs a bitch, huh?"

He stared at me, not saying anything, and I stared back, crossing my arms over my chest.

He dropped his head, licking his lips slightly, "What do mean?" His voice cracked slightly, and so didn't my resolve to be angry with him.

"What, did you never hear that expression?" My voice wasn't as harsh, but it didn't loose all of its antagonizing tone.

"That's not what I'm asking! What did I do!?" He yelled, throwing his arms out, his eyes glaring at me.

"You cheated on me…" It started to seem less likely now, now that I was in his presence.

"What the hell are you talking about!?"

"You've been gone! Out with someone! All the time! You never talk to me! You always ignore my questions of what you were doing! So, if you weren't cheating, what were you doing Edward Cullen, enlighten me!" During my rant, I had gotten up off the bed and ran over to him.

He looked at me incredulously, his green eyes burning into my brown ones. "I would never cheat on you, Bella." His eyes, which had been a vibrant green turned into a piercing gold before my eyes, "I would never hurt you." He whispered the last part, and I blinked a few times staring at his eyes. They were green again…

What?

"I was at therapy, Bella!" He yelled, angry again.

"Therapy!?"

"Yeah! Because I'm suicidal! It was that or I had to be committed to the fucking funny farm! So no! I wasn't cheating on you Bella! I was 'healing.' Though it wasn't doing shit."

"But…why wouldn't you just tell me that then?" I was completely confused.

"I was embarrassed that's why. So, yeah, I'm sorry I didn't tell you! I'm sorry! It was my fault! I totally deserved this!" He yelled, his voice bitingly sarcastic. I flinched.

"I…I'm so -"

"Don't Bella! Just go!"

I walked out of the room, my head hanging. "Can we talk about this?" I whispered turning around. He stood in the doorway, his sad, angry eyes burning away at my flesh.

"No."

He slammed the door.

***

It was two days later when I got the call. I should have expected it. But I didn't. Couldn't have.

Edward was dead.

At his funeral, I was hysterical. It was all my fault. He had killed himself. Successfully this time. I stood by his casket, staring at his face. It was a strange yellow color, even with all the make up they put on him. His eyes were closed, and even though he was…dead, I cringed and more tears slipped out, it still didn't look like he was peaceful. My eyes trailed over his seventeen year old body, moving down to his hands, his fingers, his wrists. The backs of them were hidden, but if I were to turn them over, then I would find the scares that marred his perfect flesh and the veins that drained his life away. I collapsed, sobbing, gripping the sides of the coffin for dear life.

"No! No! Edward, no!" I sobbed, over and over. I could hear other people sobbing behind me, and then I felt arms on my back, lifting me taking me away from him.

"Come on, Bella, let's go home." Charlie, started to lead me away from my love…my life.

I began to panic, and then found my sobs turned to screams of agony, "Edward!"

"Bella, sh, it's okay!" A voice that was too familiar echoed around my head somewhere in the distance.

"No!" I screamed. It wasn't okay! Edward was dead!

"Bella, please…you'll wake up Charlie!"

Now, the voice began to make no sense.

"NO…no…Edward!"

"Shh, love, open your eyes. Wake up!" Something shook me lightly and my eyes flew open.

It was dark. I realized quickly, even through my lack of light that I was in my room…and that I wasn't alone.

"Bella?" My head swiveled meeting his eyes.

"Edward!" I sobbed, throwing myself into his arms.

"Shh, Bella, it's okay. It was just a dream."

"It felt so real…" My voice was muffled by his chest.

"Tell me about it." I took comfort from his velvety voice and melted into his cold, strong embrace. I pulled back slightly so I could meet his golden eyes.

"Well, it was really weird. It when I first moved to Forks, and I met you…but you were a human."

He nodded, "Go on."

"I guess you were like this major 'playa' and had been with every girl in the school."

He grimaced, "That's not very pleasant…"

"Do want to hear the rest or not?"

"Sorry," his lips twitched, fighting a smile.

"Anyway…well you got me a detention and then we started flirting and stuff. Then Mr. Banner made you tutor me and then stuff happened, and then -"

"What do you mean 'stuff?'" He sounded confused, "I just wish I could read your mind already…"

"I mean…you know…stuff…please don't make me say it…"

"Oh…" Pause, "Go on."

I proceeded to tell him about the rest of my dream, skipping over the "gory" details and explained how he had died at the end, which is what had made me so upset.

"It had to be Jacob…" He muttered to himself quietly, before looking back at me again, "Frankly I'd rather that you with that awful Mike Newton then a werewolf, Bella. Honestly, I don't understand what you see in him."

I blushed, "That's the only part you're upset about…naturally."

He chuckled, kissing my forehead. "Go back to sleep, Bella, you only have a little longer before you can't anymore.

I sighed happily, "Three more weeks till the wedding."

He gasped. "Was that excitement I heard? Over the wedding, really?" He mocked.

I rolled my eyes, "Shh, I'm sleeping."

He chuckled, "Goodnight, Bella. Try not to have anymore odd dreams, please. I don't think I could handle another one."

"You not being able to handle it!?"

He laughed again, "I'm just kidding. Now, sleep." With that he began humming my lullaby and I quickly succumbed into a deep, and luckily, dreamless sleep.

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