This is an Author's Note... but also an Epilogue of sorts.

I know you are all most likely going to kill me for this... but this story is finished. I know I said there'd still be one or two chapters left, and honestly I even had them all but planned out in my head, and just didn't have the motivation to write them down due to several hundred and one things that happened in my life during the last year. And I swear to you... I intended to to make everything right between them. Maybe not in the sappy romantic way you were all probably expecting from me, judging by how all my other stories have ended so far... but I did intend to give them a new start, WITH each other; I did intend to make Remy change her mind, and decide to try it. I did intend to make it all be alright; that's what I had in mind ever since I started writing this story in July, 2009. But it can't be.

This story has always been my fic baby. It is by far the longest thing I have ever written. It has always been my favorite to write, the one whose words flowed more easily out of me. It has always been my favorite out of everything that I've written so far. Most likely because there was so much of me here; there were so many of my feelings and so much of my heart and so much of my fights here. Especially, there was so much of me in the way I wrote Cameron here. And it's funny how life sometimes mimics art... because when I started writing this, hell, when I STOPPED writing this in June last year, I had never fought this much for a relationship. I had never fought as much as Cameron did here for someone, for someone's love. But after I stopped writing it, I did. And only later, rereading this story after months and trying to figure out what to do with it, I realized that... I actually reacted almost the same way. I fought almost the same way as Cameron did. I did all I could as well... but there was no happy ending for me. In fact... my ending was pretty similar to this one, to this last chapter and to the feelings portrayed in it, which I just today realized, because I just today reached the point of being so overwhelmed that all I could do was attack... which I thoroughly regret. So... that's how this is going to be. That's how this is going to stay. Maybe later I'll come back and "fix" it and put them back together? Yeah, maybe... Maybe reality will become too hard to accept and I'll resort to fairy tales in a while. We'll have to see. But for now... I really like the idea of leaving it as realistic as it can be. This story has my name written all over it; it doesn't feel right to change the ending.

I am very sorry to all of you who were expecting a happy ending. I am very sorry to all of you who are probably disappointed with me and with this ending. I am very sorry.

But when it feels like all is falling apart and you're losing everything, it helps to take hold of something that's yours, that's uniquely yours, and make it even more yours than it already is by admitting it's yours. This is literally MY story. And this is how it ends.

And now I'm going to sound like an 80 year old lady, but if I may leave you with a message to think about, here it is: Sometimes, when you're afraid of hurting someone and thus decide to not be completely honest with them to protect them from being hurt... THAT'S when you hurt them the most. That's when you make them feel like they not only deserve that hurt, but do NOT deserve your honesty or your respect. So learn from it, dear readers.

Last but not least... this story is for you. Yes, you. I'm not sure if you even read these stories anymore, and I'm even less sure if you'll read mine after all this time, and after everything. But this story is for you. My Remy. My little coward... that I want to hate SO much, but can't help but love. But worry not... my love is my own, and as such I'll keep it to myself. I wish you all the very best in this world.

To all of you who read, reviewed, commented on it, gave me suggestions, encouraged me along the way, asked for updates, gave me motivation to write, etc., a big THANK YOU. Especially for those of you who'll read this even after 10 months without updates. You guys get special cookies.

And thank YOU as well. For everything. I'm sorry.