"Ziva how do you know him?" an angry Gibbs yelled to the Mossad Officer. They were caught in a case about a murder and a victim who both looked familiar to Ziva. She just, couldn't place it.

"I don't know Gibbs," she said frustrated. And just then a scared man gave her a packet. Tony couldn't help but smirk by the man's fear. Oh, Ziva could be very terminating.

"Who is it from?" she asked suspicious.

"I… I don't know" he answered and quickly disappeared.

Ziva opened the bow and took five DVD's up.

"Can the king of the DVD's help you?" he smirked and looked at the title. The smirk disappeared. The title read.

Ziva David 0-5 years

Ziva David 6-10

Ziva David 11-15

Ziva David 16-20

Ziva David 21-25

Ziva David 26-30

Under the DVD's there lay a note.

Hallo Ziva.

Those movies are showing whole your life. Every dream and fantasy, to every nightmare and secrets. Some of the material I got from your father other I just got myself. My next target is hiding in the movies so Ziva, Will you let the team see your secrets or do you want to see other people die?

Ziva stood speechless for a moment. There was no way she could show the team her life. They would hate her forever! For the first time in long time, Ziva was scared.

"Ziva, you know we need to see them," Gibbs said

"No Gibbs… You can't. I won't let you," Ziva meant what she said, that was her life. Life! Not a reality show!

"Ziva if we don't, the murder will kill more innocent people!" Gibbs tried to reach her. However, he understood her.

"And Ducky and Abby have to see them too. Ducky can profile and Abby is the master of the symbols. And I, Tony and McGee are your team, so we have to see them. We will run them in MTAC ASAP".

Ziva nodded. What could see say or do? NOTHING! She hated herself for it and she knew they would hate her too. Ziva was more pissed than she ever remembered she had been.

The team had thrown everyone ells out of MTAC ten minutes later. Ziva starred at the screen. This wasn't real. Please say this is a dream, a nightmare.

"Ziva, if there is anything we need to know before we get started then say it now," Gibbs really felt sorry for Ziva, but they didn't had a choice.

Ziva thought for a moment before she spoke.

"Tali.. My little sister. And Ari…" she whispered. She felt the glares and closed her eyes. Ducky spoke first "was he your lover, my dear?"

Ziva shook her head "no. He was my brother. My half brother, but blood is blood and I loved him more than anything" she didn't care about their reaction. They could thing what they wanted. And they did. All of them with bad memories.

"You can also forget everything about feeling sorry for me. I came though it without your and I don't need you support now" her voice was strong and resolute.

McGee pushed the first DVD in…

Well I have the next chapter ready and if I get enough reviews, I will post it :) Tell me what you thing! Is it bad? Good? Ok? Review and tell me what you think! Come with ideas!

And of cause, I DON'T own any of this.