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Reno and Zack: A love with no boundaries

Chapter 1 Past the life stream

Everything was dark, the last thing he remembered was standing next to Rude when something had shot through his chest. Reno sat up and held his head as everything went from dark to light. Reno looks around confused. "The hell?" No matter what direction he looked in everything was a solid white.

"All this time and you're still alone?" A seemingly bodiless voice spoke to Reno.

Reno pulled his eyebrows together in thought. Who said that? He thought to himself, Reno stares at the ground trying to figure out who, or what was speaking to him.

"So you're not going to speak to me?" said the familiar voice again. "I thought we were friends Reno."

"Zack?" He looks up his wide green eyes searching for the familiar form.

"Who else would it be? Aeris feels sad that you're still alone after all these years..." Zack reaches out and touches Renos shoulder.

Reno jumps from being startled and falls over, he quickly stands up and turns around.

Zack smiles at him. "You know Angeal is worried about you too." Zack chuckles, "Even Director Lazzard is curious. Some people think that you're acting a lot like Vincent, you're not pining over someone who's died are you?"

"You've just got the social hook up don't you." Reno pauses before laughing. "You're turning into Kunsel, Zack. Do I need to go get Angeal?"

"Why?" The whiteness faded away into an alley way.

"To have him talk some sense into ya. What else would your mentor do? ...." he looks at Zack suspiciously. "What else do you two do?"

"Nothing really," he shrugs. "What about Cloud, has he shown interest in you?"

"Psh no, he's still mourning over Aeris and very slowly coming to terms with the fact that he never really loved her in that way. That his feelings were being confused by your memories. Poor bastard. And to make things better he's realizing that he has always loved Tifa." Reno blushes, "I can see why you were into him though. But don't suggest Rude. He's not like that and Rufus isn't really my type for a relationship either so."

"Hmm, well, there was this one other operative …, he had cute red hair, he was smart, witty, charming…"

"How dare you!" Reno chuckles, "You forgot debonair, dead sexy, and #2 Turk." He laughs, "Not to mention a good dancer. Jeez it's like you don't know me at all Zack." Reno raises his hands up to ward Zack off, "I'm joking I'm joking. I can't date myself, plus I've already tapped that as far as Cloud goes." Reno shakes his head "Only for Sephiroth to come in and get us both. We tried fending him off, but it's hard when he's got a huge ass sword on you." Reno teases Zack, then he thinks for a moment. "Haven't I had you before too?"

"No" Zack crosses his arms and looks away. "I was with Aeris," Zack pauses and tries to change the subject, "she's so innocent and sweet. Except when she's mad jeez…. " He pauses "I thought you were the number one Turk."

"Right right you keep playing coy. I distinctly remember you hitting on me." Reno grins, "Yeah Aeris... How kind of you. Thinking I'm number one. You know it's Tseng who calls the shots." He pokes Zack with his EMR. "Silly puppy"

Zack blushes, "Okay so maybe I did flirt with you a little."

Reno grins his smug smile, "Yeah so you're fessing up a little bit." Reno laughs and starts grinning again. "Would ya like to hug me?"

"Yeah!" he hugs Reno tight then mumbles something about something not being fair.

Reno lets Zack hug him, "What are you talking about? You are fair...Zack Fair. Your just missing being alive, really you're not missing much. Hey what ever happened to your body? Did Cloud eat you or something? When we went to the cliff there wasn't anything there. The only sign that you were here at all is the buster blade which is nothing but a mere grave marker for a body that disappeared"

"Well when you die your body joins the life stream, it's kinda hard to explain." Zack scratches the back of his head.

"No no I get it." Reno rubs his own head, "why did you have to be so happy about leaving all of us?"

"Well I was free of all burdens and I'd finally become a hero… but I was sad about leaving Aeris."

Reno frowns, "So Aeris was the only one you were sad about leaving. Figures you would be so forgetful in your last moments. How are we even having this conversation?" Reno shakes his head, "Oh well guess I might as well enjoy it. You did finally become a hero...unlike some of us."

"You are a hero," Zack grabs Reno by the arms, "And, I was sad about not seeing you again anymore." Zack leans in his lips mere inches away from Reno's face.

Reno looks away, "You don't have to pretend for me Zack." He tries to pull away but Zack maintains his grip. Reno looks up and blushes quickly looking away again. "I understand, you're not gay, neither am I. So quit trying to make me happy."

Zack lifts Reno's head up and kisses him. "Shut up...you talk too much."

Reno lets Zack kiss him for a while then pulls away his eyes watering. Fighting back the urge to cry Reno chokes out. "So you wait!.....until your dead, to let me know how you feel." Reno balls his hands into fists before relaxing and letting his spiky head fall against Zack's shoulder. "Why? Why hide all this time?"

"Because watching you was all I could do....Aeris was unsure about letting you join us....she was scared of what Tseng might say."

Reno pulls his head up and looks at Zack a slight frown on his face. "Aeris knew the whole time." Reno chuckles, "It figures. Why didn't she tell Tseng? It woulda taken me outta the picture pretty quick. Tseng doesn't like sharing his toys." Reno shudders, "You've no idea how many spy cams I've found, and Rude thinks it's Rufus of course."

Zack suddenly puts Reno's' back against a wall and kisses his neck. "Those weren't Tseng's....."

Reno pounds his fist against the wall, "That bastard. I'm gunna kill Rufus." Reno was trying desperately to keep his emotions in check and ignore the feeling growing in the pit of his stomach.

"Wasn't Rufus....they were mine...." Zack kisses the other side of Reno's neck sucking on his ear. "...you are so frisky......" He slowly undoes Reno's shirt midway then stops and looks into his eyes.

Reno meets Zack's intense stare. Two sides of him were fighting for control. There was the side that just wanted to bend Zack over and show him who's the man. Then there was the side that knew that whenever he woke up from this coma or whatever it was that the pain of having lost Zack would be worse than it ever was if he let Zack continue. Reno reaches out a pale slender hand and touches Zack's cheek. He then pushes the hand into Zack's hair. "...Oh what the hell. But you have to tell me why you never told me, or expressed it with more than the skimpy flirtation you threw my way."

"...I...I was scared of what you would say Reno...you know ShinRa's policy...plus I didn't want Cissinei finding out...." Zack slides his hand in Reno's pants pocket and pulls out a time materia and grins. "I wondered where this went to...." He casts stop around them. "...there....."

"I really have no idea how that got there." Reno gets nervous as he feels his blood flow redirecting itself towards other parts of his body. He chuckles nervously. "You were afraid of what I would say? You're the intimidating one." Reno lets his hand slide down from Zacks' hair to undo the strap holding on his shoulder pad. "With your huge muscles, and lightening speed." Reno squints his eyes shut tight as he mentally smacks himself in the head. Somehow thinking about Zacks physique didn't really help. He calms himself down and thinks of a reply that has nothing to do with how Zack looks. "What could Cissinei have done to stop us?"

"Ravaged my body while you were watching...and the whole time I would be thinking of you." Zack removes Reno's goggles and licks his nose, "...she was mad enough that Aeris got me....losing me to you as well....."

Reno laughs, "Yeah, she would have tried killing me. Would have served her right for getting us together in the first place..." Reno shrugs thinking about how Zack said she would have stopped them. "We both know that we're straight enough that a threesome would have been entirely possible in the situation." Reno winces, "Well that's what we know now...what 'cha gunna do with that?" Reno looks at his goggles.

Zack drops the goggles and rips Reno's' shirt and jacket off, drops to his knees and kisses Reno's tight, stomach.

Reno bites his lip and looks down at Zack, thinking dirty thoughts. He would have backed away out of nervousness but Lt. Fair had him pinned between a rock and a hard place so to speak. He wanted Zack, but was afraid he would be found lacking. Not in size Reno had been with enough women to know he was more than adequate in that department. "Zack...I.." Reno shuts his eyes, hating how he was the one who sounded like a girl.

Zack looks up at Reno with his Mako infused eyes. "Do you want me to stop?" He stuck his tongue in Reno's belly button.

"No it's.." Reno giggled when Zack stuck his tongue in his belly button, "I just, you know, I've never been with a guy before and I..." Reno turns as red as his hair. "It's not fair that Cloud had a go at you first. That leaves me the inexperienced one." Reno undoes the other shoulder strap and the pair of shoulder pads fall off with a faint metal clink on the ground.

"To tell you the truth.....Cloud and I...we...never....you know.....so....um..." He flips Reno so his hands are on the wall. "This might hurt," he drops both of their pants. "Wow you're as big as me.....nice.....it will hurt for both of us then....."

Reno blushes at the compliment. His voice gets high pitched with nervousness. "Wouldn't it be easier if I was bent over? Why's it going to hurt for you?"

"When you stick it in me" Zack says in a matter of fact tone of voice, Reno smiles at the idea, and Zack bends him over slightly and starts to penetrate him.

Reno stiffens as he feels Zack's skin make contact with his, causing his heart to jump erratically as desire and lust consume his mind. Then Reno suddenly remembers that if he relaxes it'll lessen the pain of the experience for him. Reno ground his teeth together as Zack pushed in. Stopping himself from crying out in pain. He'd been through worse. After the pain of initial penetration wore off the ecstasy kicked in. Apparently Zack was formed so that he was hitting what Reno assumed was the male equivalent of a G-spot. A low moan escaped his lips, and he was actually having to use the wall to support himself. Reno did his best to keep his arms and legs from trembling as the pleasure shot through him, his pony tail was sticking to his back from where he had begun to sweat. "Zack," he groaned in pleasure. Reno turned his head so that he could see Zack and smiled as green eyes met the brilliant blue.

Zack started to pump Reno slowly from behind kissing his shoulders. His hands firmly on the Turks' hips. As their eyes locked Zack leaned forward to try to grab Reno's hands, "Reno...." he whispered.

Reno smiled sadly, Zacks one whispered word touched him so deeply. It was heart rending to know that he would only have the pleasure of hearing his own name whispered so lovingly to him by Zack for just this one time. The pain of the sad thought didn't last long though as it was obliterated by the pleasure. Reno brought one hand away from the wall for Zack to grasp. He wasn't moving the other one though because he wouldn't be able to hold himself up if he did that. He chuckles, "Missed me that much Zack?"

Zack took his hand in his, "You have no idea..." he started to go even slower.

Reno sighs, "I know what it's like to feel alone though, well emotionally ya know. I just haven't found anyone. You died and" Reno frowns, "Cloud.. " he shakes his head. "Forget it." Reno gives Zack a crooked grin, "Getting tired?"

"not really" About forty minutes later Reno felt something warm inside. Zack turned him around so his back was against the wall. Zack rubbed his nose against his check, took Reno's hands in his and kisses his lips gently, "I wish this could never end....."

Reno sighed after Zack kissed him. He wraps his arms around Zacks neck, leaving enough room so that he could rest his head on his collar bone. "When did your shirt come off?" Reno shook his head it didn't really matter. "There's no way Aeris would let you come back. I wouldn't mind sharing my head with you if that's what it took...There's a lot to say and who knows how long I can stay. Since I'm here I am assuming that I am either dead or near death. Which if it's the second choice you know rude wouldn't let me die." He looks up at Zack, "How did you find me?"

"......um....well once in a while Aerith allows me to take somewhat of a physical form....though usually I take the shape of a wolf...." when Reno looked at Zack's chest he cloud see the scars of the bullet wounds left by the ShinRa army. "But I was able to get my body back and I have a bit like this....though next time I may look like someone else...."

Reno looks confused, then reaches down to touch where the bullets had hit Zack. He pulls his hands to his sides and balls them up into fists, Reno was now looking away from him with his eyes closed. "If I hadn't of failed that mission you would still be here, Aeris too...." he takes some deep breaths and looks up at Zack again. "Who do you look like?"

"I usually take the form of those who just lost their life....older people...though one time I had the body of a kid and followed you for a month....It's alright...you, Cissinei, Rude, and Tseng tried your best"

Reno thought for a minute, "...So if I killed Cloud..."

"....." Zack shakes his head and smiles, "who should I possess, Rude or...Tseng....." Zack kisses Reno passionately.

"Yeah I should have guessed you wouldn't want Cloud dead." A look of shock comes over Reno's face, "Rude?!?! Are you crazy?" He shudders, "That'd be like fucking my brother. You've had fantasies though haven't you? You sick puppy." Reno pulls Zack down and pins him to the ground. "Well?"

"....." Zack just smiles, "SO you like being on top....I figured that....."

Reno tuts at him, "You didn't answer my question." He puts his mouth on Zacks collar bone and kisses him, he continues up Zack's neck. After he places a kiss on Zacks mouth he asks him again. "Did you ever have fantasies about me while you were alive?"

Zack flips him over putting himself on top, "If I didn't why would I stalk..watch over you in death?...."

Reno's instinct was to head butt his attacker but luckily he remembered in time that it was Zack. "You've been stalking me? Why didn't you approach me? Wait...what kind of fantasies?"

"If I had joined the Turks and had become your..." cough, "partner."

"Aha! So you wanted to go on missions with me?" Reno thought for a minute, "You would look weird in a Turk uniform. It just isn't you." Reno looked into Zack's eyes and ran a hand through his jet black hair. "We don't ever get to be the Hero. And that was your dream remember? It's part of who you are, and why I liked...like you so much." He laughs, "you made me want to join SOLIDER. You were too good to be my partner."

"Really....well....I should have requested you go on missions with me then...." Zack closed his eyes when Reno ran his hand though his hair. "I still could have been a Hero....yours....in either your or my bed.....but...I think I would have looked good in a suit....."

"So what does Angeal think about us?" Reno was changing the subject. He didn't want to think about what could have been, it was too bitter. And he still felt that it was his fault.

"Angeal...is....Angeal.....HE wishes I had at least knocked Aerith up before I died....." Zack didn't want to talk about Angeal, he just wanted to enjoy his time with Reno.

"It would have been nice. The kid would have been well taken care of. And I would have killed anyone in shinra who dared to mess with the kid." Reno was referring to the fucked up shit that sephiroth had been put through. "The world is poorer for not having a genetic clone of your face walking around." Reno puts his hands on both sides of Zacks face, his right hand rubbing against the scar that was there "So what if I do like being on top. I'm used to being the dominate one when it comes to sex. I've never been the girl. You tell anyone I let you make me your bitch and.." Reno stops what the hell would he do about it? But he had to redeem himself. Zack had never been this forceful with him in life, and Reno had always been the macho man. He now wondered if that was because he had wanted a certain Soldiers attention secretly. "Zack...I would have taken your place for you." He shakes his head, "There's no way you haven't seen the direction my life's been going in."

Zack rolls back over letting Reno be on top. "Well at least I know someone would have been there....Reno...if Hojo had gotten you...I don't think you would have survived.....I was lucky...so was Cloud....I still can't figure out how he defeated Sephy the first time round......." Zack closed his eyes, he'd seen how Reno had been acting.

Reno looks away, "So you didn't see everything then." He sits up on top of Zack and looks away, "They uhh thought it would help us take care of the copies if we had some Mako in us. There wasn't a whole lot left after Midgar was destroyed but..." Reno thought for a moment then reached up and took some lenses out of his eyes. He chuckled "How in the hell their in my eyes in this place I have no idea." He looked down at Zack. His eyes were now Aquamarine, the change in color was obvious. "I volunteered because I ...Rude is gunna be a daddy if you can picture it." Reno had a huge grin on his face, but then got serious again as he continued with what he was saying. "I didn't want Rude to do it because he was finally going to have the family he had always wanted. He would make me so jealous sometimes. It wasn't fair that I was the only one who was still alone. My life meant little to me, so I jumped on it before the others had the chance."

Zack saw the look in his eyes. "really...." From no where there was a katana in his hand and he griped Reno's other hand tight.

Reno was confused and it showed in his face, "What are you doing?" he tried to wrench himself free, "Dammit weren't you listening! I said there wasn't much left. I'm still not as strong as you!" Reno growled as he tried to pull away again he even dropped the contacts and tried using his other hand, but he failed yet again, "Cloud's stronger than I am for crying out loud!" Reno leaned away from the hand with the katana, "When did you start using one of those?" He was trying to change the subject, but a look of confusion was still plastered on his face.

Zack cut his other wrist and since he held Reno so tight it bled a lot. "Go ahead Reno....I have more then enough Mako and Jenova in my cells.....It might help you"

Reno sighs, "You still don't get it. I WANTED to die. But I am vain enough that I won't take my own life. Plus there's Rude...he wouldn't know what to do without me." The image of how Zack looked when he died flashed across his mind suddenly but disappeared just as quickly, "This place is so fucking weird." Reno shook his head, he didn't want to see Zack like that. He suddenly felt sorry for Cloud. "What am I supposed to do suck your blood?" Reno was trying to lighten up the situation.

"look carefully....does it look like blood...." it had a faint glow to it. "It's not much but I can try to help...I can't do a real transfusion like in a hospital or a lab...I know it's crude.....but...wait...Rude.....who is the lucky lady?"

Reno bursts out laughing, had that really just clicked in the late Soldiers mind, "still easily distracted I see. You won't believe it, actually you might. Elena. Really I thought her and Tseng were an Item. But I've always had this weird feeling that something was going on between Tseng and Rufus, anyways when Cloud almost ended up with you and Aeris she was about two months along. She's lucky she didn't lose the baby, the beating those remnants gave her. Rude didn't know at the time. She told me because she said she wanted the best friends' perspective first. So she would know sorta how he would react."

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