Hello every one!

Since you all seemed so totally devastated by the fact that last chapter was supposed to be the last one (and the fact that I ended it with a real mean cliffy (yes I do apologize sincerely for that) and that so many of you came with the question "is kira alive or dead?!") I decided to write another one, just for you!

This chapter is a follow up on what happened right after last chapter ended ^^ so please enjoy now you guys!

This however will be the last chapter I post of "childhood friends" :( I know it's sad... but if you like the way I write then why don't you subscribe to me and you'll soon know if I post another interesting GSD fanfiction :D:D cause I actually have my plans for another one :D

have a pleasant Christmas now!

Disclaimer: i don NOT own GS or GSD... and I don't know how many times I've been forced to say that now... but no matter how many times I say it it always hurts! T^T -being over dramatic-

Warning!!!!!: yaoi coming up! guyxguy! so if you seriously are so weird that you have read this story and still haven't gotten that then I suggest you leave 8D if you don't like it ofc! hohoho

ps. I want to thank my friend Sousuke for tipping me about Super Junior! if it had not been for that band, I would not have finished this chapter :O thanks hun!

When Cagalli had entered the room with tears streaming down her face, they all had thought she was just so upset she couldn't speak, and they all understood that. Of course she was upset, her little brother was on his way of becoming brain dead and was practically gone already, even though they were all sad and upset because of that fact, they all understood how much harder it had to be to loose your own brother. The blond girl had been shaking so hard though, it had worried them all but when she had tried to speak and it didn't work, she had started bulling on Miriellia's sleeve... Miriellia had looked so sad and she had not had the strength to resist as the crying woman had led her down the corridor, and the rest had followed as well, just to make sure there wasn't something going on.

The sight that had met them as they looked inside from the doorway was a sight they never thought they would see. Deakka had almost wanted to close his eyes and tell himself this had all been a bad dream, Yzak had told another man to pinch him hard and Miriellia sat down on the chair by the bed with knees like spaghetti.

Kira's deep purple eyes were opened and his tanned hands holding Cagalli's cellphone against his chest. As everyone stared down at him he looked back up at them, his lips so dry they cracked a little when he tried to smile but that didn't stop him.

"How long was I out for...?" He asked, his voice sounding as if though his throat was completely dry, his gentle smiling eyes meeting each and everyone of their's. "...you look like you've all seen a ghost... hehe"

When the doctor had checked on the boy he came to the gathering room where they all were waiting anxiously for his verdict. Cagalli was still shaking but her cheeks were regaining their color and even the rest of the crew looked hopeful. After all, they had all seen the same thing. Kira could not possibility be dead now, right? They had all seen him meet their eyes, heard him speak... there was no way.

"Well..." the doctor sighed and sat down on the couch right next to Cagalli, all eyes on him. "...I cannot find anything wrong with him at all..." Everyone looked at each other with big smiles, relief filling the room but Deakka could see in those eyes there was something bothering the doctor deeply.

"Then why do you look so worried doctor..?" He asked and met the older man's eyes as he looked up.

"Well, let's just say this..." the man sighed and rubbed his temples. "Only an hour ago, his heart was failing and he could hardly breath on his own, his mind was out of reach and his pulse far below average... Technically, he should be dead or at least brain damaged by now..."

"Technically, yes..." Yzak said, since he had been listening from behind Deakka. "..but as you see, he is breathing and talking, he remembers everything doesn't he? There is nothing wrong with him..."

"Yes well..." the doctor said but Marrue interrupted before he could say anything else.

"If you find it odd, that Kira pulled through... then may I ask you, wasn't it more odd that he suddenly had a heart attack when all his other values were fine?"

"Yes it was strange..." the doctor agreed and removed his glasses to clean them. "...and the fact that he went into a coma right after was even more strange, but that sometimes happen in these cases... after all, we don't know everything a coordinator can go through without suffering from serious brain damage..."

"A coordinator doesn't get a heart attack unless he has been eating such unhealthy food, a normal person would already have died... right Deakka?" Miriellia asked with weak voice and Deakka nodded to confirm it. "And Kira has been in coma before... or... something like it..." She continued. "Remember when he had fallen though the atmosphere? He didn't wake up for days and a normal person would have died even before reaching earth..."

"I was in a coma too after that..." Yzak said slowly and once again, Deakka nodded to confirm that too. "Both me and Deakka were in a coma for days after falling though the atmosphere, everyone thought he would die..." he then added, pointing at Deakka who scratched his neck.

"Maybe we can never fully understand how far coordinators will be able to go, beyond what naturals can..." Marrue sighed and smiled a little, stroking Cagalli's blond locks softly with her hand. "...but as far as we know, maybe this coma was the only thing keeping that boy alive... and in that case, he might be okay now... no matter how unbelievable it is to us."

"C-can I see him?" Cagalli half whispered and the doctor nodded even though his worry wrinkle did not disappear. When the girl had rushed away, tightly followed by Miriellia, he sighed again and looked up at Marrue, then over to Deakka and Yzak.

"I just hope this won't backfire..." he sighed and shook his head slowly. "That he will grow so weak he will actually die just because he managed to cling to life... I can see it in that girl's eyes, that she will be crushed into bits if she looses her brother again... once is enough..."

Deakka smiled, feeling Yzak grip his sleeve softly when no one was looking. "I think, or I know... Kira is stronger than that..." He said and saw in Marrue's eyes that she was thinking the same. "..if he didn't give up the first time, the will never give up..."

-

"Kira..?" Cagalli whispered as she opened the door to the dark room, her voice telling everyone who heard it how scared she was of not getting an answer. Miriellia looked down at their joined hands and felt the fear as well. What if Kira really was dead now all of a sudden, what if it had only been an illusion, how could she possibly comfort her friend again..? The seconds following after the blond woman's question seemed longer than any decade, making them both shiver.

"Cagalli?" came the soft voice from the shadows and both girls breathed out deeply. "Miriellia too..? Hi..."

The girls walked inside on soft feet, Miriellia lightening and dimming the lamp before sitting down o the chair, Cagalli sitting in the side of the bed, holding Kira's now warm hand with a smile. The boy looked so tired he could have fallen asleep right at that very moment, yet he met their eyes, smiling as well, blinking slowly.

"How are you feeling?" Cagalli said softly and his smile grew gently.

"Tired..." he answered. "But other than that, fine..."

"Good..." Miriellia smiled and he met her eyes, making her calmer than she had been in weeks. "Really, Kira... you scared us shitless... you know that?"

"heh..." the brown haired one smiled and nodded softly, his soft skin flushing a little over his cheeks. "Yeah, the doctor told me you were angry with me for making you wait so long.."

"We would never be angrys..!" Cagalli started but Kira just smiled and pressed her hand gently to show her he was only joking. "Oh.."

"I saw Deakka and Yzak right..?" Kira then asked and looked back at Miriellia, since she was the calmest of the girls at the moment, Cagalli on her way into tears again.

"Yeah, I called them when you had the heart attack..." she answered and he nodded as if though he understood. "...but my phone has been acting weird and since they only understood something bad had happened to you, they came here to check on you..."

"They did that for me..?" Kira asked, sounding slightly surprised. "And Athrun...?"

"We tried to contact him but..." Miriellia sighed and shook her head. "Someone else picked up and then the call was broken again, he doesn't know..."

"It's okay.." the boy smiled and looked back at Cagalli who was crying silently with relief. "I called him the first thing I did... he is on his way here..."

"So he knows..?" Miriellia sighed in relief, almost about to cry herself now that all the angst was letting go of her but Kira shook his head slowly.

"I just said I wanted to see him... and he said immediately he was on his way, as if he had already thought of going here..." There was a soft smile playing over Kira's broken lips and as he smiled Miriellia was certain he would never give up, ever. "He'll be here in about twelve hours..."

"Then we'll let you rest until it's time..." Cagalli nodded and softly kissed the younger one's forehead, making the boy draw a deep breath of relief. "Call for us if there is anything, ne Kira?"

"I promise" he nodded and as she straightened her back, he had already closed his eyes and his breath had slowed down. Miriellia could not help but sigh once more and gently reach out for him, stroking his cheek as Cagalli stood up.

"Don't wanna leave him..." the blond woman whispered but then took Miriellia's hand again. "But let's go fix some food and make ourselves useful until Athrun reaches here..."

Miriellia nodded in agreement and both girls left the room silently, trying to make the sliding door close only once to ensure they boy's sleep. Yzak and Deakka met them in the corridor and Miriellia hugged the tanned blonde hard, whispering thankful words into his ear. At first she did not notice the death glares she received from the silver haired man behind her ex boyfriend, but as she opened her eyes and looked over the strong shoulder belonging to Deakka, she immediately saw how Yzak turned his head away, looking just as pissed of as only Yzak Jule could.

"Oh Yzak..." she smiled and let Deakka go, totally misunderstanding the situation thinking that Yzak wanted her attention as well since he was the commanding officer of their ship. "Thank you so much..!" In the matter of seconds she had her arms around his neck as well and the young man stared in shock over hes shoulder, not knowing if to hug her back or push her away.

Deakka only laughed, his anxiety also letting go slowly now, feeling the strength return to his body. "Yzak... you're supposed to put her your arms around her waist..." He chuckled and softly grabbed Yzak's stiff hands, showing them softly how to hold around her, smirking as the younger one made the cutest face, blushing.

"I know how to hug girls!" he protested and Cagalli giggled a little too, before suddenly realizing the way Deakka was touching those hands, the way their eyes met... that was the cause of Yzak's blush, not the fact that there was a girl hugging him, but the way Deakka was treating him.

Cagalli leaned back against the wall, watching the three of them play around, making fun of Yzak and then of Deakka, Miriellia laughing with them since she knew them better from back when she was dating Deakka. It was amazing to see how much these boys reminded her of Athrun and Kira really, they were just alike, though these two seemed to be a bit more used to be together and joke around. Deakka wrapped his strong arms around the silver haired one and Yzak protested loudly to Miri's delight, making Yzak blush even more than seemed possible, all the way to his ears.

"Come on let's just go back to the others..!" Yzak then protested and Miriellia turned to laugh while nodding and starting to walk through the corridor in front of the boys. It was not that Cagalli felt forgotten, but somehow she felt that at least the two boys had forgotten she was there, because as they too started walking, Deakka reached out.... gently touching Yzak's slender fingers where they rested against the slimmed man's side. Cagalli felt her eyes widen as she saw it but she didn't make a sound, only watched how Yzak blushed with irritation and embarrassment, then gently gripped Deakka's fingers back, causing the blond to smile gently.

Cagalli felt a suction at the pit of her stomach and she almost stopped in her step. They loved each other, she could see it in the way they touched, the way Deakka held his friend tightly against his chest just moments ago... She had been so preoccupied with thinking how much like Athrun and Kira they were, that she had not noticed the obvious connection between them. As she started walking faster again, to catch up to them, she thought silently if Miriellia had already noticed, and if she would be sad of happy for their sake when she found out... Then it hit her... Athrun and Kira... were they... like this..?

***

"Athrun, this is madness..!" Lunamaria tried but no matter what she said, he would not see reason and before she knew it, he was on his way up into his Gundam, blipping at the buttons. "Ahtrun! Where exactly are you going?! You know we are taking of soon! Please come back down here and talk to me..!"

"Haha... there is no way to make him see reason now..." Heine chuckled as he joined her down at the floor. "He is a man in love, desperate to set things right... so actually, we have no right to stop him, as long as he follows his orders to be back her by the decided time limit..."

"But where is he going..?" the girl almost sobbed out in frustration and the older man smiled gently, hugging her shoulders softly.

"The Archangel..." he sighed. "Really... he is stupid..."

Athrun smiled as he heard those words up in his mobile armor, closing the hatch and seeing how Heine waved with two fingers to send him of. He had to do this and he knew Heine at least understood, he would leave it all to his sempai, his older brother, but he knew Heine didn't mind. He smiled a little as Shinn and Rey stepped out on the floor as well, nodding at him to go. Really, they worked good together those two...

"Athrun Zala, taking of...!"

Rey and Shinn looked up at the large Gundam before looking over at their sempai and the still confused girl. The black haired young man sighed and leaned a little against Rey's shoulder while a soft smirk was growing at the side of his lips.

"You didn't know Luna?" He said and as the girl turned to him, she blushed furiously when seeing how Rey had put his arm around the dark haired one who had just spoken.

"Know what?!"

"About that pilot..." Shinn chuckled and then met Heine's eyes, seeing in those green orbs the answer to the question he had just asked Lunamaria. "The pilot of Freedom, who is Athrun's childhood friend.."

"What about him...?" She asked in even more confusion and looked back up at their green eyed sempai who had now started to walk down the path towards the door again. "Heine-sempai? What about him..? Shinn..?"

But the younger men chuckled and started to follow their sempai, Rey mentioning something about food and Heine smiling to confirm that he had nothing against the proposal of eating, all of them totally ignoring the girl calling for them.

"Not fair!" She whined and hurried after them, earning a soft chuckle from Heine as he turned to her.

"Hurry up or you'll be without food Lunamaria-chan!"

***

"Cagalli? Where have you been?" Miriellia asked in surprise as Cagalli entered the kitchen almost an hour after the others. "We thought you walked right behind us but when we came here you were gone, what..?" Her voice broke as she saw the red, swollen skin around the blond woman's eyes as if she had been crying even more than before, but still she was smiling, which made them all confused.

"I'm sorry" she said as her smile grew and she scratched her neck softly, almost as if she was embarrassed. "I just remembered something I wanted to talk to Kira about, I've been with him now for a while but he is sleeping finally so..."

Not that Miriellia believed the girl, since her eyes were so swollen but of course, she could have been crying with relief so Miri and the others couldn't really object to what she had told them. They all smiled and involved her in the conversation and soon the red color disappeared from the blond woman's cheeks and she smiled for real again. Miriellia first had some trouble getting over her worry but the more time passed, the more she, too, smiled and joked around with her friends.

Both Deakka and Yzak were the best at being funny in a comforting way and the entire crew kept repeating to them how thankful they were for the boys coming there, even though they hadn't really done anything to help Kira, like they had set out to do. Yzak had started telling stories about his bravery, making Deakka laugh and mock him for the fact that the silver haired one had been shot down AGAIN and just days ago had been in terrible need of rescue.

"I was NOT in need of rescue!" Yzak protested and glared in irritation at his friend, which only made Deakka laugh even more.

"Oh don't be so shy Yzak.." Cagalli spoke up and Yzak blushed terribly, since he understood now that something unpleasant would come over her lips. "we all know how easily you get shot down..."

"Hey!"

But there was nothing Yzak could say or do to prove to the laughing crew that they were wrong, and he spent the nearest hour glaring at Deakka as soon as he got the chance, which of course was even funnier than seeing his usual mood.

"Athrun-san is calling!" Miriellia suddenly called on speaker and Marrue hurried of to the bridge, making everyone's stomachs tingle with anticipation for some reason. They all looked towards the screen on the wall and saw how it sparkled to life, showing the inside of Athrun's Gundam and the young man made salute.

"Athrun Zala here" he said and somehow everyone felt at es when they saw his smiling, green eyes. "Requesting to dock"

The sliding doors to the kitchen aria opened and they all looked over there as Kira stepped inside, holding the door post for support but smiling gently as he saw the screen, then met their eyes. Cagalli hurried over to her brother and gently pulled him close, one arm around his slimmed waist and the other pulling the boy's arm over her shoulders.

"Come on" she smiled and the others nodded. "Let's go down to meet up with him shall we?"

Kira's steps were slow at first, his knees shaking and his body weak from being still in a come for so long but he didn't give up, not even when he was about to fall to the floor, he only gripped harder around his sister and Deakka, who had also offered a helping hand. The others looked at the young man with worry but he only smiled that soft smile of his and kept walking, making them all sure of what Deakka had said before. "I know Kira is stronger than that... f he didn't give up the first time, the will never give up..."

The docking aria was filled with people, who obviously had no idea why Athrun would be docking at a time like this. People were whispering here and there about why and about the fact that Athrun would have been in space by now, right? Kira smiled and could feel his stomach grow all warm when he thought about the fact that Athrun only had come because of him, and nothing else. The Gundam had already docked and the hatch had opened, the young man, dressed almost entirely in purple, coming down slowly buy the usual rope.

"Athrun..." Kira heard himself sigh and Deakka smiled, walking slower with his arm around Kira, leaving Cagalli with the others, they way she wanted it to be.

"Athrun!" Deakka then called as the dark haired one removed his helmet, making Athrun look up in surprise too see his old friend almost carrying Kira over the floor, the brown haired one panting with exhaustion but smiling a little with blush on his cheeks.

"Kira...? what happened..?!"

But Athrun stopped in his longing to move over to the brown haired one as Kira stood up more by himself and nodded at Deakka, who let him go gently until he could stand on his own. Athrun understood that something serious had happened but he couldn't move, nor speak. He had hurt Kira so deeply and he had no idea of where to begin to apologize. He hadn't even had time to think of why Kira had wanted to see him... why had he been so stupid not to come up with something to say?!

"You stupid bastard..." Kira almost whispered, apparently fully aware that everyone was watching them, but taking some shaky steps closer to him. "How could you just leave like that...?"

"I'm..." Athrun begun but there was nothing he could say to make up for what he had done and he knew that. He looked down at his feet and didn't know what to do other than that either. What on earth had he done such a stupid thing as to kiss Kira's sister for? He just went around hurting people over and over..! He had probably hurt Lunamaria too, making her think that there might be something between them when all he wanted was to be with the tanned boy now standing so close, yet unreachable.

"Really..." Kira sighed and suddenly grabbed Athrun by the collar, making the dark one tumble forward, straight into Kira's chest. "...you're so stupid Athrun..."

"I'm so sorry Kira..." he half sobbed and gripped around the slimmed boy's slender waist with trembling fingers, breathing in deeply to get intoxicated with that sweet smell. "I... please forgive me..."

"Stupid..."

Athrun didn't care what people said at that moment, they just stood there and he wrapped his arms tighter around the now trembling brown haired one. What had happened to him? Why was he so weak? Was there any way he could make up for all he had done? Was there anything he could do to make Kira realize he was the only one Athrun had ever loved..?

Suddenly a memory hit his mind and he blushed as soon as he remembered it clearly. It felt like ages since he and Lunamaria had been sitting by that table at the Minerva... but he could still remember exactly what she had said. "Because after telling you what an idiot you are, you will kiss him!!"

"So stupid..." Kira repeated and Athrun looked up to meet his eyes. It was hard, but he had to admit to himself that Lunamaria for once had been right, even though she had not believed so her self when she had told him. He nodded soflt at Kira's words, knowing deep inside that he was right, also fully aware of the fact that the only think he could do to make up for it all was this.

"You-.." Kira started but Athrun gently placed his slender finger over the other one's curved lips and smiled softly while shaking his head.

"Don't say anything else..." he whispered and gently, ever so slowly, pressed his lips against Kira's while removing his finger. Now, if Athrun had been more aware of his surroundings he had known that there was a hissing sound going through the entire room as everyone drew a deep breath with surprise. Or no, not everyone, Deakka and Yzak only smiled and so did Cagalli, because she had freaked so much over what relationship her brother had with Athrun and earlier she had even gone to ask Kira straight out.

"I'm sorry Cagalli... I know you like him..." Kira had answered with that soft worry wrinkle on his forehead. "But I can't be without him... I love him... more than ever..."

Kira's fingers were still weak but he didn't care as he gripper what he could of Athrun's warm body, or if it was his shirt. He could feel his heart beating harder than it had ever done before, making him realize just how alive he was when that burning hot tongue gently parted his lips and met his own. There was no doubt in his mind, Athrun was insane, but the man he loved. There would be no other, not like this. The warmth filling him, the comfort surging through his body and the sensation building up somewhere below his stomach... he never wanted to part from it, never wanted to let go... this was where he belonged, in life and in death...

-

"ng... Athrun..."

The pleasure was burning through his body as the intense pain drove him partly mad with longing for relief. Athrun gripped tighter around Kira's hipbones and panted with longing too, cheeks flushed with pleasure and excitement as the brown haired one's back jerked in a desperate attempt for more pleasure.

"Kira..." The dark one half whispered and bent down over the trembling youth, leaving a pattern of sweet kisses along the tanned one's sweaty neck and chest, sending him into moaning soft, trembling words that were almost inaudible to the dark one. "..What... what did you say..?" he had to ask as his beating heart skipped a beat painfully. Had he heard him right, or was it all the sweetest illusion to his ears?

"I..." Kira moaned as answer as his body almost threatened to explode with pleasure any second now, back jerking closer to Athrun's pounding heart, lips parting to moan deeply as the slightly older man hit his most sensitive spots and weak points. "...ng!"

"you..?" Athrun moaned as well and lets his hands and fingers wrap themselves around Kira's trembling didgets, his body close to exploding as well when the brown haired one tensed underneath him, meeting Athrun's deep green eyes with his own miraculously purple one's.

"I love you...!" he panted and widened his eyes, mouth opening in a silent scream as he came, so suddenly his body jolted uncontrollably against Athrun's, throwing him over the edge and into the world of bliss as he too came without warning into the pounding hot body underneath him. Athrun knew he couldn't keep his weight up on his arms and he thought for a second of falling down beside the panting man but Kira shook his head, as if he had seen those thoughts in his lovers eyes, gripping the dark one by the arms and pulling him down on top of himself.

"I won't ever let you go anymore..." he sighed and there were tears in his voice, making Athrun's entire body tremble with fear of loosing him, pain from hurting him and longing to hold him like this forever. "...no one else than me can ever have you..."

"I don't mind at all.." he sighed and pilled Kira's trembling body and sole closer to his chest and heart. "As long as I'm with you, as long as you hold my heart Kira Yamato..."

"...I will be able to survive..."

let me hear you say "awwww..."?

I hope you loked it guys ^^

thank you so much for staying with me all this time -bows to show respect-

you have all made my day over and over again! and for that I am truly thankful!

chu ~~~~