There is allot of swearing in this chapter so please don't read if your against it

I own nothing to do with twilight

It has been two weeks since i had my talk with Emmett and i finally got up the nerve to talk to Edward and tell him how i felt about him. I was sitting in my car thinking of the right words to say.

Come on Bella you can do this, just walk up to him and say Edward i have loved you forever and i hope you feel the same way.

Yup i can do it, what's the worst thing that can happen. He could laugh in your face and you end up old with fifty cats.

No stop thinking like that, it will all work out we are soul mates.

With that last thought i stated walking into school when i was tackled by a very happy pixie.

" Hello Alice "

" Bella this is going to be a great day i can just feel it. Something big is going to happen."

Hope she right maybe today is the day that i will have the love of my life back. We walk into school. I said good by and headed to class. I was going to talk to Edward after lunch because i knew mega bitch wouldn't be there.

I saw Rose sitting in are normal seats and i walk over. "So Emmett told me about you and James".

FLASH BACK

I saw James walk into the coffee shop where i was waiting for him. "Hello darling whats up?" He asked "James" I started he looked right at me and held up his hand. "I know baby girl you don't even have to say it."

I had tears in my eye's i felt like such a bitch how could i be doing this to one of the nicest guy I've ever meet. "Baby doll don't cry you can't help who you love. I've always known it wasn't me that your heart held. But you listen here Bella Swan you deserve to be happy and Edward is a dam fool if he can't see how great of a girl you are." "Thanks James you are the nicest guy i have ever met. I love you very much but more as a brother. I'm so sorry". "Darling there is nothing to be sorry about. i new from the Begin that it would end like this. I might not have gained a romance but i gained a great friend that i would do anything for just remember that." He gave me a big hug." Now belly i met your cousin the other day at work and i must say she a little spit fire."

"Who Victoria?"

END OF FLASH BACK

"Ya he was so cool about every thing and it seems now he has a little crush on my cousin Vicky."

"Really they would make a cute couple." She said.

We talk though the whole class about different things. The bell rang and we went your separate ways. The rest of my classes dredged by i went to my locker after history and got my books for my classes after lunch. I walked into the lunch room an saw that Alice was crying into Rose's chest and Emmett was hold Jasper back. I walked up to them.

"What the hell is going on." I yelled.

Rose was the first won to speak. "We went to get our lunches and we were walking to the table when Tanya tripped Alice and all her lunch and Tanya landed on her." She said. "Ali baby are you OK?"

"No this is my favorite shirt, you gave it to me for my birthday." She cried

"Stop being such a baby Alice, its just a shirt good your pathetic." Tanya said to Alice.

That was it this bitch is going down. I walk right up to her and got in her face. "Listen you fake ass barbie doll want be. you can say anything you want about me. But don't you dare talk bad about anyone in my family."

"Your family you have to be fucking kidding me, there not your family. Except maybe dumb ass over there." She pointed to Em and Rose growled.

"Alice is more family to me then you Bella we are practically sister in laws. Once i marry Edward we will be." I started to laugh.

"Sister inlaws you have to be joking, Edward would never marry anyone like you bitch." She just looked back at Edward.

Edward stepped up. "Bella back off of Tanya OK, it was an accident what happen with Alice no harm was done just take Alice and get her some new clothing, ok."

"Are you fucking kidding me Edward she trips you sister on purpose and you are going to sit there and take Tanya side.

"Bella she didn't mean to do it and Alice is just blowing it out of proportion, its not a big deal." Alice started crying more.

"That's it Edward Cullen you are the most pathetic man i have ever met you are taking a skanks side over your own flesh and blood. You know what i can't believe that i'm in love with someone that is willing to through everything that made him happy away for a girl that doesn't even love him. I thought that you and i could be happy together but i was just fooling my self, you are a selfish baster and i hope you get whats coming to you. because once you realize that whore you call a girlfriend is using you and doesn't love you. We won't be there for you because you pushed us away."

"Bella you should really just stop your embarrassing you self in front of the whole school. We all know that Edward loves me and not you. Your just a plain girl that if you ask me isn't that pretty."

"You know what Tanya you talk about how much Edward loves you but do you love him?" I asked.

She looked dumb founded. Like she didn't know how to answer the question.

"Well, yeah i love him."

"You sound really convincing there Tanya, but let me ask you this."

"Whats Edward's favorite color?" I asked

"He loves pink" She said.

"Wrong his favorite color changes day from day." I said

"What his favorite book?"

"How I'm i supposed to know."

"Its Moby dick." I said

"What does Edward want to be when he finishes school?" I asked

"Oh that's easy, he wants to be a doctor like his father."

"Actually he wants to be a music teach." I said with a smile this bitch new nothing about him.

"Last but not least what is Edward biggest pet peeve?"

"I would have to say you." She said with a smile.

"That's funny i thought it was being called Eddie."

"Well i know your wrong there because i always call him that and he love it." she said. I looked over to Edward that was just shacking his head. "What does it matter anyways it just shoe's that you are a crazy stocker." She said to me.

"It shows that i know Edward better then anyone else. And it drives you crazy knowing that you will never have the connection that we have. " I look over to Edward again and said.

"You know Edward for someone that loves you so much she sure as hell doesn't know you very well." He said nothing he just looked down. Tanya looked pissed and turn to look at Edward, she smile and walk over to him she bent down and started to kiss him. She looked up at me. "It must drive you crazy that i have him and you don't." She said with this wicked smile.

She was right it did drive me crazy but i would never admit it to her or anyone, even though my family knew and know that i told Edward that i pretty much love him, he problee knows it now to.

I stared to walk over to Alice and Rose. "You are such a stupid bitch Bella and you will never be anything but dog shit on my shoe." Tanya said. She was lucky that it was near the end of the school year and i didn't want to get suspended right before graduation. Or i would have beat the bitch down.

"You can say anything you want because your are a sorry excuse for a human, that needs to put people down because she not happy with her life. but like i always say what goes around comes around and you will get whats coming to you. Oh by the way if you come near my family again i will put you six feet under."

"Is that a threat." she asked

"No darling that's a promise." I walk over to Alice and took her in my arms. "Ali baby lets skip the rest of the day and go shopping I'll even let you play Bella barbie ok."

Alice's eye's lit up. "Really belly you will let me do your hair and everything.?" "Yes baby girl hair and everything."

"God your the best sister ever. You know that Tanya will never be family to me like you are."

"I know baby girl, lets go." All five us left to go shopping, i took one last look back at Tanya's table she was talking to her minions while Edward had his head in his hands he looked up at me when I saw one single tear leave his eye. I couldn't look any longer because if i did i would have been suck back in.

How did this day turn out like this. This was the day my life was supposed to take a turn for the better, i was going to finally tell the love of my life that i loved him instead i end up yelling at him and pretty much ending any hope i had for a relationship with him.

life's a bitch