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The thin silver band slid over my finger and came to rest right below my tattoo and I felt my life slide into place after it. This was all I needed now. I had Jake, I had my family. We were pronounced man and wife and Jake leaned in to kiss me. I wrapped my arms around him and wrapped my legs around his waist as he picked me up to spin me around.

There were some hoots and hollers from the wolves and I blushed. Jake put me down and held my hand as we walked out of the church.

What had started as a super simple ceremony had morphed into more once my mom had arrived and taken over. Her pregnancy didn't seem to slow her down at all and before I knew it we had a limo, flowers and a cake. I'd held adamant to the fact I wanted to have the reception on the cliffs with bonfires though and she'd acquiesced. I think Charlie may have told her more about my illness than I had, she was being especially cheery around me.

I slid into the limo with Jake and the wedding party, which consisted of Angela, Emily, Leah, Quil, Embry and Sam along with my parents, Phil and Billy. Neither of Jake's sisters could come on such short notice but it didn't seem to dampen his spirits any. Before I knew it we were dancing under a sheer canopy of gauze underneath the stars.

Jakes gracefulness never failed to amaze me. He was so large that you expected him to lumber around looking uncomfortable in his own skin. Instead he seemed to move without conscious effort or thought. Even I seemed more graceful when I was with him.

The night passed quickly and soon Jake was leading me through the thick woods at the edge of the cliffs. We wound our way through until we came to a stop in front of a small stone cottage. I didn't say anything as Jake picked me up bridal style and carried me over the threshold. There was a living room with a couch and chair, a small flat screen TV and bookshelves, which seemed to be filled with all my books. We moved to the kitchen and I couldn't help but grin, it was small but perfect, solid wood cabinets and stainless steel appliance and a natural stone counter top. There was a small dining room table and chairs that were gorgeous. We moved back to a bedroom and I grinned, there was a huge bed that would just about fit Jake and a large armoire in one corner. A door led to a bathroom with a huge stand up shower and soaking tub. I turned to Jake, "So…you rented this?" I asked.

He sat me on the edge of the bed and stood in between my legs. "Nope. I built it. Well, the guys helped me. We did most everything, built the furniture, the shelves, cabinets…" Jake said, he took a breath and continued, "I've been working for some guys to save money for the appliances and stuff, your dad helped me after I told him I wanted to finish it for you. It was just for me to start off with…I'm sorry if it's not very…plush…"

I stared at Jake in astonishment, "You did this? Jake…this place…it's amazing…" I was crying suddenly and then Jake was kissing my tears away.

"Don't cry Bells! I'm glad you like it." I stared into Jake's eyes through my own teary ones and couldn't help but smile. He made everything better. He stepped back and pulled me off the bed, I was turned around and he laid a kiss on my neck while unbuttoning the long row of buttons on my dress. It fell to the floor once it was unbuttoned and I turned to face Jake in my lacy underwear and bra. I felt my whole body flush as Jake's eyes wondered over me. His eyes held mine as he shrugged out of his jacket and unbuttoned his shirt. I stepped out of my dress and he picked me up and set me on the edge of the bed again. I scooted back until I was against the headboard and watched him crawl on the bed. He moved towards me like a wolf stalking his prey, which is exactly what I was.

I had three great months after that. Three months of roller coasters, boat rides, skydiving, rock climb, and traveling. Three months of Jake. And then I got a cold. The cold turned in to bronchitis and strep throat and a double ear infection. Things changed after that. I was usually tired and often sick. But I was alive.

The sun was almost up, the sky wasn't tinged pink anymore. I put in my earbuds and turned on my iPod as it started to rain.

I close both locks below the window

I close both blinds and turn away

Sometimes solutions aren't so simple

Sometimes goodbye's the only way

And the sun will set for you

The sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day

Will embrace the world in grey

And the sun will set for you

Pink cards and flowers on your window

Your friends all plead for you to stay

Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple

Sometimes goodbye's the only way

And the sun will set for you

The sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day

Will embrace the world in grey

And the sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day

Will embrace the world in grey

And the sun will set for you

Jake is suddenly next to me and he takes my iPod out of my jacket and fiddles with it. The sun is up but it's cloudy now and darker than when I came out but I won't leave. Jake will need to go run now and I'd rather be out here in the rain then inside. It can't do much harm now. Jake kisses me softly and he's off in a heartbeat.

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I won't give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice

Its drowning in a whisper

It's just skin and bones

There's nothing left to take

And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better

If only I could find the answer

To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I won't give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down

I'll pick you up off the ground

If you lose faith in you

I'll give you strength to pull through

Tell me you won't give up

'cause I'll be waiting if you fall

Oh you know I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer

To take it all away

It's odd, how even after all this time I know he's here. I don't turn to look or take out my earbuds. "It's too late," I say and fold my arms over my knees. I lay down my head and I don't bother looking to see if I'm right. I know I am. And it only confirms it when my earbuds are ripped out, my iPod jerked off and thrown over the edge.

His voice is like a melody in my ear and my body jerks unconsciously towards him. Why now? "It's not too late Bella."

I look towards him and smile, "Edward. You weren't supposed to come back." I'd rather he didn't remember me like this. So pale and hollow with dark circles under my blood shot eyes. So lifeless.

"Alice had a vision," He states simply. I nod. Of course she did. God forbid I die in relative peace.

"It doesn't matter. I'm going to die. You aren't going to save me. I don't want to be saved. I don't want to be a burden on your family. I don't want my husband to hate me." I see Edward's eye dart down but his face doesn't change when he sees the tattoo and silver band. He only nods, as if he accepts my decision. I know he doesn't. Nobody really does. I should fight. I should live. Because the alternative? Well no one likes that idea.

But it's creeping ever closer and I find myself okay with death. Okay with dying. I've had a good life. I've lived, I've loved, I've lost and I've loved again.

Edward suddenly thrusts a letter in my hands and I recognize Jacob's scrawl.

I love you. No matter what. Choose life.

I didn't know if he meant to choose to stay alive until I died, or to die in order to stay alive. I looked at Edward, "I don't want to die tonight. One way or the other." He nodded and suddenly I was in his arms. And we were flying. I knew it would be the meadow before we got there.

I opened my eyes as Edward sat me on a bench. His piano was in the middle of the meadow. He sat beside me and ran his fingers over the keys and I sighed. I knew this song.

And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I knew it was coming and I didn't turn towards him, "I won't forgive you," I said.

"I won't forgive myself." And before I could blink his teeth tore open my skin and hot blood ran down my neck. I felt the delicious pull of Edwards' mouth for a few seconds. And then the burning started.