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Chapter II
Yesterdays Feelings
A/N: This may be a major filler chapter, a bit of insight on how Axel and Demyx's relationship fucked him up. We have a very angst Demyx in this chapter, oh yes.
Soundtrack:Thats Not My name - The Ting Tings
That Green Gentlemen (Things Have Changed) - Panic at the Disco
Defying Gravity - Wicked [Original Broadway Cast]
All We Know - ParamoreTrainwreck - Demi Lovato
All I Know - Pathway To Providence
You're Not Alone - Saosin
Yesterdays Feelings - The Used
Mad as Rabbits - Panic At The Disco
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Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like the sun spots or raindrops
Now all those feelings,
those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
x.X.x
It's been 5 months.
Five months since the funeral. Five months since he made the stupidest mistake of my life, sleeping with him again, for the sake of pity. But God, did it feel good. At the party, he hated the fact that he was doing all these drugs again. Drinking all these drinks again. At the time though, it was the only thing that mattered to him. The only thing that felt good.
Five months after he realized, he really hated Axel.
"nnnn …. Roxas." Axel called out in passion.
"What the fuck Axel?" Demyx growled. "Huh?" Axel had a confused look on his face.
Demyx started gathering all his clothes. "You are such an asshole. Ugh."
"Will you calm the fuck down and tell me what I did?" Axel yelled at Demyx.
"….You fucking called me Roxas!" He threw a lighter at Axels head and went back to his car, driving home.
Five months, 4 days since he sat in his car, crying, talking to the guy he barely knew. The one he almost had a one-night-stand with. Five months, 4 days since he talked to him.
Demyx walked into the classroom of his college algebra class. He was back in town, living with his sister temporarily, until he could get a job and move out.
He was getting himself situated when someone familiar walks in. Xigbar. He was his professor. It was then he remembered why Xigbar knew who he was before. Xigbar was his teacher in high school. His AP statistics teacher. The one who called him a dumbass for leaving when he was well on his way to getting a full scholarship to Destiny Islands University. Xigbar was right too. Now he was sitting in the cramped classroom at Twilight Town Community College.
"Well well, now I remember where I knew you from." Xigbar smirked. "Well well, what did I tell you?"
"Shut up. I'm fine going to community college."
"Because it's so much better than the best university around and all."
"Whatever." Demyx huffed as Xigbar started addressing the class, and passing out the syllabus.
After class Demyx was standing in the smoking area, smoking a cigarette. When Xigbar walked up to him. "You shouldn't smoke" He said before lighting his own.
"You're a bit of a hypocrite" Demyx said.
"Do as I say, not as I do. It's a hard habit to quit."
"I've been smoking since I was 14. I think I know, are you stalking me."
He snorted. "As If. You are my student."
"That didn't stop you from trying to sleep with me."
"You weren't my student then, you were my former, stupid student who ruined his life leaving with that redhead kid. You could've defied gravity, kid."
Demyx rolled my eyes and put his cigarette out "Doing what? Math? I hate math. The only thing I like, I wouldn't excel at anyway."
"Then why do you take advanced math courses?"
"I'm good at it. Doesn't mean I like it."
Dem put my cigarette out and looked at him. "See you later, professor"
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Demyx POV
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Left the only worries I had in my hands Cause feelings mean nothing now
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel'
All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
(yeah today is on my mind)
Why do grocery stores insist on changing every other month? I swear the bread was on aisle 4.….apparently it's 10. Damn it Namine.
I sighed and walked through the store. Then I stopped dead in the tracks. I wasn't humming. I used to always hum while grocery shopping. Hell, I hummed while doing anything. I guess this Axel is getting to me more than I thought. Maybe I'll go visit my brothers shrink or something. He seemed pretty cool.
Fuck. I can't believe I'm actually depressed. I'm Demyx, I don't get depressed. Zexion pointed this out to me when my cat died and I went out for ice cream after crying for like, 10 minutes.
I needed a drink…….Great I'm becoming an alcoholic too. God, what the fuck did you do to me Axel?
I got the rest of my groceries and checked out. When I got outside I immediately lit up a cigarette and started putting the bags in the car. The next two hours went by slightly, boring, why should I waste your time telling you. I shouldn't exactly.
I decided to meet up with some old friends and go out for drinks at about 9. It was nice, but I couldn't help but feel something was missing. As much as I hated the bastard.
I needed Axel there with me.
For the longest time, even before we were dating, he was all I knew. He was my best friend, the leader of our group, and basically my everything and the reason I was like a ghost for five months is was cause I fucking needed him.
I took a couple more shots, a couple being an understatement, having to hand my friend Zexion the keys to drive me home.
The next morning I woke up feeling like shit. Physically and emotionally. I can't remember the last time I was that hungover. Emotionally, I feel like shit because I kept trailing back to him. And everything we had together.
I had the strangest feeling to pay a certain proffesor a visit.
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where feelings mean nothing now
Fin.
A/N: I'm so sorry for this complete piece of shit chapter. and the shortness of it
On a lighter note.
I'm revising all my old stories, and hopefully pulling out some new chapters soon.
BTW. Chapter Title name, and lyrics in the chapter are "Yesterdays Feelings" by The Used
-xcassedega