AN: I do not own Twilight or its many wonderful characters, they all belong to the awesome Stephenie Meyer.

This is the first chapter of the first story and fanfic that I've decided to publish. I have a few more chapters done already, but they are going to be edited and fixed up before I post them.

Love, Ottilia

CHAPTER ONE

BELLA POV 20 November 2027

It's been twenty years, two months and seven days since Edward made love to me after my horrible birthday party at his house.

It's been twenty years, two months and five days since he left me with a broken heart.

It's been twenty years and two months since I found out that I was pregnant, I don't know how I could be, because the only one I've ever been with was a heartbreaking vampire for heaven's sake.

It's been twenty years, one month and twenty five days since I left for Italy.

It's been twenty years and three days since my daughter Renesmee was born in the city of Volterra.

It's been exactly twenty years since I woke up as one of the cold ones.

Not that I'm counting or anything. It's just fun to know. Right this second I'm high up in the mountains of Switzerland on a combined vacation and hunting trip, I left right after my daughters birthday and I'm not planning on going back until next week. Whatever. I'm having the time of my life. The air in the mountains is clear and there's no human in a range of fifteen miles so it's time to let loose and bring out the predator in me.

As I crouched down to the snowy ground I couldn't help but think back to the time when I loathed snow and the cold. At that time I was a silly seventeen year old girl who was desperately in love with a vampire. A vampire that later knocked me up and left me a few days later with a note that said:

Bella

I can't do this anymore, I've found someone else. I'm sorry for what I did. I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry for ruining your life.

Be safe.

Edward

Well I'm not sorry. Not anymore. He might not know it, but when he left I was broken. Broken beyond repair, or so I thought. That didn't last long. Just a few weeks later I started to feel weird. I felt sick and threw up every other minute. I got some kind of strange craving, ice-cream, just plain old vanilla ice-cream. I guess it's better than pickles and ice-cream. When I woke up the day after I had a bump on my stomach. But the strangest thing is yet to come.

My mother sent me a letter, when I ripped it open I accidentally gave myself a paper cut. It's kind of ironic that a paper cut was the reason for my almost being killed on my birthday only a few weeks prior. When it was a paper cut that opened my eyes to the strange thing that was happening to me. I tried to stop the bleeding by putting my finger in my mouth. The smell of blood usually give me the creeps and I black out, but this time it made my mouth water. I Isabella Marie Swan, the fragile human girl, craved blood.

After all of those strange things I managed to go to the pharmacy to get a pregnancy test. It was positive as I thought. I knew that this was a strange case and that I couldn't stay in Forks. That left me with one small thing to do: Pay a visit to Carlisle's friends from Italy that probably knew more about this than I did. Before I knew it I said goodbye to Jacob and got on the plane to find the old vampires that lived somewhere in Italy.

Somewhere along that road I got a lot of friends. I always thought that the Volturi was cold and mean and only interacted with humans at dinnertime. But I was wrong. When I finally arrived at Volterra I met a human girl who asked me what I was doing there. I could see that she was trying to save me. I told her my story and she loosened up bit by bit before she went over to her desk and called Aro. I remembered when Edward told me about them and I knew that Aro was the leader.

When I finally got to see Aro I was surprised. He didn't look as old as I thought he would. He looked just like Heath Ledger but with black hair. As I told him my story he listened with great interest. Though he wanted to find Edward to have a talk about exposing their secret I asked him not to. He told me about his ability to read minds but when he tried to read my mind he failed. He was delighted by the idea that I was the only one who could hide something from him. Though he learned how to read me in just a few hours. My being an open book combined with the fact that I knew Carlisle was enough to get him to help me.

What I didn't know was that he called Carlisle to ask about pregnancy and everything around it. Even though my case wasn't normal it still seemed like they got a lot of useful information. He told me that later, he also said that he didn't mention my name to the Cullens. I was grateful for that. I didn't want them to know where I was at the moment. I wanted them to believe that I was still a normal girl in Forks, Washington. At that moment I did everything to keep things as simple as possible. If any of the Cullens knew about my being in Volterra or the pregnancy, my life would no longer be simple. Their lives would no longer be simple, Edward and his new girl would probably be awkward. It was better if they didn't know.

My life at Volterra was calm and easy. They fed me. Gave me blood to drink, they assumed that the baby needed it and I think they were correct, because the craving never faded. Heidi and Jane helped me when I needed to use the bathroom, because I refused to go with Felix who always stayed at my side. They quickly became my friends as they kept me safe from anything that could harm me. Things like door frames, thresholds, walls and the very flat, to a normal human, not intimidating floor. A simple task as not tripping and falling to the ground while walking across the flat floor was much harder when you couldn't see your feet.

Felix reminded me so much of Emmett, the protective, loving, caring brother I never had. But still, I missed him so much. His jokes and stupid comments. Well Felix was getting better at that, but he's no Emmett. I suppose I'm glad that he has no interest in my sex life what so ever. Emmett was always interested and constantly hinting and making comments about my and Edwards non-existing sex life. I missed his dimples when he smiled, and his glare when Rose smacked him in the back of his head.

Rose. She never liked me, I was kind of afraid of her. Intimidated by her beauty. We weren't on the best terms. We never fought, but we weren't on speaking terms either. Just an occasional 'Hello' once a week.

Jasper. He might not know it, but I forgave him. It wasn't his fault, it was an accident. If anyone is to blame it's Alice. It was her idea to have a party in the first place. But of course I can't blame her. She was my best friend. My own little fortune cookie. I even miss her shopping sprees sometimes. Nowadays I have three different persons that takes me shopping. But no one, except for Nessie, is anywhere near Alice.

Carlisle and Esme. There are no words. For some time I felt like an infant. Like I'd lost my parents. Not only two, but four. Renee, Charlie, Esme and Carlisle. I still love them all, and the only way I could honor them in was through my daughters name. Renesmee Carlie.

Of course I missed Edward too, but I didn't want to think about him at that time. I couldn't. It hurt too much. But I guess I got over him pretty soon. Well, I'm not over him, over him. It's just that now I can think of him without feeling like I'm being stabbed in the chest. He's a happy, light part of my life.

As I said: When he left I was broken. When I came to Volterra I got new friends and a new family who loved me. When my daughter was born it was one of the happiest moments in my life. Even though my body was so damaged by the pregnancy that they had to change me as soon as my daughter was born. I smiled through the fire that burned on the inside. And when I woke up three days later I was better. I wasn't whole again, but I'd found bits and pieces of what used to be me. My daughter was and still is the main reason of my happiness.

In the distance I heard muffled cries of some kind of animal, I crouched lower, closed my eyes and tried to catch the scent of the animal. When I got it I straightened out and followed the scent. I got so close to the animal that I could almost taste it on my lips when my phone went off. Who the hell dare to disturb me right now?! As I made plans of how I was going to kill the person that was behind this call I answered my phone:

"Who wants to die?" I growled into the phone as I shifted my weight from one leg to the other. Bad habit. I am, except for my daughter and the humans, the one that is closest to a human of the Volturi.

"Ehm, Bella. It's me, Heidi. Your daughter needs to see you ASAP. She says it's important and that she's sorry for interrupting your trip." Heidi giggled as I let out a small growl.

"It better be important! I'm coming, but I still need to hunt." That stupid, spoiled, little piece of shit just HAD to call when I was about to attack my prey. I guess I just have to live with the thirst for another couple of days.

"Oh, and she wants you to pick up some of that mushroom ravioli on your way home. Why she can even consider that stuff edible is beyond my imagination, but she wants it." I could only imagine the disgusted look on Heidi's face as she uttered the words 'mushroom ravioli'. A giggle left my mouth without my permission as I remembered the first 'date' I and Edward had. Well it wasn't a date. He saved me from some creepy guys that were following me, just to push me into a restaurant and force the mushroom ravioli down my throat in the believes that I was going into chock. I never did, wasn't even close.

"Even though I love my daughter above everything, she's still a pain in the ass. I'll be back tomorrow morning at 9. And don't worry, I'll pick up the food since she can't do it herself." I sighed, with a small smile playing on my lips, as I put away the phone and started to walk towards the little town where I left my car.

Edward POV 15 November

Twenty years of nothing. Well not nothing. Pain. The worst pain ever. I guess this is what a broken heart feels like. But it's my own fault.

Twenty damn years of longing for the woman that never could be mine. She was yours, but you left!

Twenty years of self loathing as I thought back on the night when I took her virginity and the day that I left her with nothing but a note. I'm such an ass, I lied to her. I still can't believe that I did that. But I lied to save her. And before I did that I still had to show her that I loved her. Hell I still love her.

Some times I just want to find her and see if she's okay. I'm picturing her with a husband who loves her and at least one kid. I can feel that she's happy, where ever she is. And if she's happy, I'm happy. Mission accomplished, my human Bella is happy.

As I watched the sun set in the horizon I heard the thoughts of my dearest sister. Jazz is going to give me a trip to Isle Esme for our anniversary. Ooooh! I have to go shopping! I so need new lingerie. Maybe I should get that red piece at Victoria's secret. I know he is going to love it!

"ALICE! I do NOT wish to hear what you and Jazz are going to do on your vacation! Cut it out now!" I yelled as her thoughts became dark and dirty.

"Sorry bro, but you don't have to listen to my thoughts." She smiled as she approached me. She sat down on the cliff next to me and turned around to face me. "Ed, you need to do something. You cant just sit here day in and day out. I know you miss her. Why don't you..." Her eyes glazed over as she got a vision.

I saw chief Swan's kitchen, the yellow cabinets were even paler than they were twenty years ago. He was there, alone when a red head entered. She looked familiar. Victoria. "What the fuck!" She took a step towards Charlie and the everything went black. Then the vision turned and it was Alice alone on Isle Esme. Why isn't Jasper going? Last time the subject was up he was going.

"Jazz's not coming?" Her face fell as the last vision played along. I swear, that womans mind is a one way track. "I guess I don't have to go shopping now" she sighed. I think I'll buy that red piece anyway. Wonder what Jazz's doing. Bet he's missing me.

"What the hell is Victoria doing at Charlie's?" I tried to understand what I just saw when Alice got another vision. This time it was Charlie's funeral. I tried to see if Bella was there, but I failed. Instead I saw a tall guy with a gray cloak. Volturi. But no Bella.

Let me get this straight . . Victoria shows up in Charlie's kitchen and kills him. Bella's not attending his funeral, instead there is a member of the Volturi, who has no direct connection to either one of the Swan's, right? The only way they were connected was through my family. But we hadn't had any conversations with either of the two parts for years. No one of my family members had contacted either Bella or Charlie in twenty years, and the only contact we've had with the Volturi was twelve years ago when Carlisle called Aro to hear about that strange case where they had asked for his help on. That was around eight years prior that phone call. Twenty years ago.

Twenty years ago I left Bella only a few after I made love to her. Twenty years ago was the last time any of my family members had contacted either Bella or Charlie. Twenty years ago Aro had asked Carlisle for his help in a very strange case that apparently the Volturi never met before. A unique case that they needed a doctors opinion on. Right now I wish I had some facts about that case. Maybe it could help me solve this strange and twisted situation. But Carlisle never told me anything about it, and every time I listened in on his thoughts he hid everything about that case. The only thing I ever heard about it was the phrase: 'baby girl'.

Alice cleared her throat in an attempt to get my attention. "I think it's time to go to Forks, we're taking your car, remember me to get a new one soon. I'm tiered of your Volvo. It's so old."

She's right. The Volvo is old. But I love that car. I've had it for twenty two years. Well I haven't been driving as much as I used to. I've mostly stayed on one location for a longer amount of time.

When I first left Bella I went to south America to visit some friends of the family. The three amazon women have been friends with Carlisle since before I was created. Kachiri, Senna and Zafrina welcomed me with open arms as I explained the situation. They thought I was a fool to leave Bella. I was so stubborn at the time that I didn't realize that they were right.

Well they were both right and wrong at the same time. I did make the right decision to leave her to protect her. But at the same time I was a fool to throw what we had away. I knew that she loved me and that I loved her, but it was so much more than love. We were soul mates. But I had to keep her safe, and the only way to do so was to leave.

After eight years in south America I went to Ireland. I knew that Carlisle had friends there too so I decided to visit. At that time I was no longer curled into a tight ball and sobbing all the time. But I wasn't whole. I wasn't even close to bad. It was worse than that. But I was getting better. The thought of Bella going to collage, meet some guy that she'd later get married to helped me even though the jealousy ate me up from inside.

I stayed in Ireland for three years before I ventured to Iceland. My stay at the small island was short, and I was glad that I didn't meet anyone of my kind there. After Iceland I decided that it was time to go back to my family. Or what was left of it. I ended up with Alice and Jasper somewhere in Alaska. Sometimes I would run into the Denali sisters since they also lived in Alaska.

As usual Tanya was there for me. I knew that she wanted us to try. She wanted to give 'us' a chance, but she knew that I left my heart with Bella and she didn't push it. We both knew that we weren't meant to be so we let the topic fall. Still she stayed with me for a couple of months and tried to make me feel better. Not in the couple kind of way, but in the best friends kind of way.

"Oh, and by the way. Carlisle called me earlier about an invitation that they got. Felix at the Volturi is getting married to this girl named Renesmee. I don't know who she is, but it seems like she's a very special girl. I got the feeling that Aro thinks very highly of her. She's just not one of the normal guards, I guess she's not even a member of the guard. But the family is just Aro, Marcus and Caius and the wives. . . But why would we be invited to the wedding? It's not like we know her. Right?"

Her eyes glazed over once again. This time I tried to stay out of it.

Then suddenly Alice let out a high pitched squeal and jumped around clapping her hands together.

"What now Ali?"

"I get to make the wedding dress!" I watched as she started to make plans about the dress in her head. Pathetic, she hasn't even met the bride-to-be yet.

"C'mon Ali! Let's go to Forks."

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Until next time, Ottilia