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TWO LONG MONTHS WITHOUT UPDATING!

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and for the great support that you guys gave me, all these chapters were the result. . . so it wasn't me who just did them, no, it was you (you guys) who made them into reality . . Because without you, I'll probably be still in MPF or even doing a new fic…

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WARNING: This story is NaruSasu Naruto/Sasuke or action, meaning Naruto is the Seme and Sasuke is the uke. This also means there will be yaoi, which means male/male sex will appear in upcoming Chapters. If any of the above scares you, please hit the back button on your web browser. No beta for now.

'Character's Thoughts'

~Flashbacks~

"Normal talking"

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This Chapter is dedicated to;

To my lovely, sweet, crazy, perverted . . . best friend,

Sara Smith

I miss you crazy zorra!

R.I.P

Sara

Love, Fer

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Unreachable Love

CHAPTER 4

How it happened . . .

By: Fer3333

Sasuke's POV

3/9/10 (real date)

3:30am

I still remembered,

I was sleeping; I was dreaming so good that when the annoying sound of my phone rang. . . I didn't hear it. It was when 9th time it rang; I finally pulled myself up and answered.

Honestly, I was still sleepy and it was when my friend, Jugo, basically yelled at me, then, I woke up.

I told him; 'sorry' but he just repeated what ever he had said to me a minute ago.

Sasuke, please, go and sit somewhere and then. . . I'll tell you.

And so I did. He sounded serious, I mean, he's always serious but today . . . I knew that it was . . . bad news.

I told him that I was ready, funny, he stuttered

Sasuke . . . . man, umm . . . I don't know how to say this-

FUCK! JUST SAY IT!

SARA JUST DIED! . . .

. . . . . . . .

Sasuke, dude, please . . . just calm down. . . I'm going to pick you up in ten minutes, okay. Get ready, see ya.

I didn't ever notice when he ended the call. Humph, when I heard the news, I dropped the phone, not caring when it landed, or the fact that it probably might have broke. No. I didn't give a damn about anything . . . my friend, my BEST FRIEND JUST DIED!

I couldn't believe it. Just yesterday, I went to see her and . . . the doc had told us that there was still hope, and now, she was dead. The next fuckin day that I saw her!

I collapsed on the floor, tears running my paled cheeks.

I cried, funny because it was first time crying for someone; other than myself.

Exactly ten minutes later, I heard my friend knocking at my door.

I don't really remember how in hell he got inside the house, or the fact that we were already inside the hospital, in front of Sara's parents and some of my friends.

Probably it was because I zoom out and blocked everybody. . . I don't know.

When everybody seemed to notice my presence, all my friends rushed to me and immediately, hugged me.

All of them repeating the same thing,

We're always by your side. Don't forget that you have us, your friends. We love you so much, please don't do anything stupid. We love you.

GOD!

Didn't they know that I wanted to be alone? Didn't they know that it was not easy for me to just accept that my friend just died?

No.

I pushed them, with an unknown force and ran to Sara's room, where I locked the door and just slide down and . . . cried once again.

5 minutes later, I looked up and saw her. . . Sara's paled cold body.

God, she looked beautiful. Even in her condition (paled, skinny) she was a truly beauty.

I stood up and walked up to her side.

God, why did god created me like this? I began to cry, again.

At that moment, Sara's parents entered the room.

Both saw me crying but they pretended not to see me

"Sara left this to you."

I wiped my tears and look at the thing in front of me,

It was her diary.

I grabbed it and without knowing, I hold it tightly, afraid that this will go away just like she did.

"Sara really loved you like a brother. She told me to give this to you before she came to the hospital."

And with that, both exited the room, leaving me alone with Sara and her diary.

Pictures of us, letters that we send each other and even some ideas about our favorite couple SasuNaru.

I couldn't take it anymore and . . . .

-Next Day-

I woke up to find myself in my room, under my soft sheets and with my clothes on.

Weird.

Later on, I asked my friends what had happened. Jugo told me that I fainted, and it was when a nurse came inside the room, she had found me on the floor with all the pictures on the floor.

The rest of day, it was just like . . . a blurry day.

I don't know how my friends at school found out, but they did. And guess who call me first?

Yep,

Naruto.

I was in my bed, looking at the white ceiling, when I heard my phone rang.

I knew that all my friends were in their houses, probably doing the same thing like me, so it couldn't be them.

I answered, and tried to sound like my normal self.

Hey, fuckin bastard, what are you doing?

If I was normal, haha- I probably would have yell at him and insult him, but the only response I gave him was a simple, hn.

Sasuke, I'm hungry. Let's go to the movies and eat somewhere.

Yeah, he did say that. And instead of actually feel happy for his invitation, I felt like he was feeling sorry for what had happened to me. Because I knew that if weren't for the fact that I felt like killing myself, he wouldn't have done it. If it was up to him, he would have never done that call, and it made me sad.

Pathetic, I actually thought, well only for the first 6 minutes since he say that to me that he actually wanted to go out with me.

Bloody bastard.

I refused his invitation right away.

But he kept calling, and calling . . . until he finally got tired of getting my voicemail.

That night, I couldn't sleep at all. One; all the calls I received from all my friends, wanting to know if I was okay. Two; the thought of not seeing my best friend anymore.

Yeah, a fuck up night for me and for the rest of my friends.

3/21/10 (Sara's funeral)

Dark clouds

It was how the once blue sky was, and now, it was a dark and cloudy day.

Funny, because the day she left this world . . . the sky was clear blue, birds were chirping; perfect weather.
But now . . . it was the opposite from that day.

Or even worst.

A bloody Sunday; the first day of spring.

What a joy!

Friends, family and even people that just knew her . . . they were all here, for my best friend's funeral. People were here, in the chill weather and wearing black; all crying or in some type of trance.

To my luck, I was in front; with the rest of her family.

I don't know if I look gay, weak, girly-I don't care . . . I was crying with the rest of my friends.
I didn't even hear the priest, or the long speech he gave, no. I was hearing all the people behind me and in front of me crying. The heavy breaths, her lovely name been said to many times was making me sick.

I wanted to run and never go back . . . but I knew that I couldn't do that. Not because I couldn't, it was because I was weak and tired.
This week I haven't had a decent meal and to be honest, I don't think I will after this.

"Sasuke . . . is your turn,"

Damn, I didn't even notice that I space out and it was turn to put my beautiful white rose on top of her light brown coffin.

"Yes,"

I think that these simple steps that I took . . . they were the hardest and slowest that I have taken in my whole life.

Once I was there, in front of my friend; my shaky hand threw the rose, not caring how it landed, or the fact that it looked rude that I just threw the rose carelessly at her.

I was about to turned around and walk back to my space . . . but the guys who were about to bury my friend, all of them counted up to ten, and slowly Sara's coffin was descending to the darkest place on earth. . . . And leaving me behind, with the rest of them.

One of the guys shouted at me to move, but my eyes were glued to Sara's coffin; I ignored everything, even Sara's mom.

I woke up from my trance when I felt someone pulled me, away from Sara and pushed me to my seat.

I was ready to kill whoever did that. . But when I saw Kate's face, I didn't even make a sound.

"Please Sasuke; don't make this harder than already is . . . please,"

She turned to look at her daughter for one last time, and cried even more than before.

I, I, could only watched how Sara's body disappeared into the darkness and how everyone cry even more when the bloody dirt covered her coffin.

'Goodbye my friend.'

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-Hours Later-

7pm

I was- well I don't even remember what I was staring at, but I wasn't doing something important.

So, I was just thinking when I heard my phone rang.

I honestly didn't feel like answering but I answered it anyways.

It was Naruto, again.

I didn't know if I wanted to cry, laugh, jump or kill myself; because I knew that he just felt sorry for what had happen to me.

The call didn't last long, my fault, but I didn't want him to call just to make me happy. Yes, I feel flatter but now, it was just at the wrong time.

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I don't know how I survive, but I live two weeks without food, Internet and friends.
I even stopped writing my fanfics about my favorite anime.
All my friends wanted to cheer me up . . . ohh and the funny thing is that, thanks to Naruto the whole school knew about my friend. So, just imagine everybody stopping every time they saw me . . . just to say,

"I'm sorry for your loss."

God! I just wanted to fuckin hit them, yell at them . . . but . . . . I knew it was stupid of me if I do that.

I just kept ignoring every single thing they say to me; I just nodded and walk away.

Naruto.

-Laughs softly-

He's been with me all this time. He talks to me more than before, he's always trying to cheer me up . . . and the funny thing is that, he's the only one who makes me laugh. I didn't space out that much but after what happened; now is just something common for me to do. So, when it happens he just grabs my hand and tells me that everything is going to be okay . . . that he's with me and I can count on him if I ever need something.

'I need you to be with me 24/7 not only when you see me'

Hn, before I used to spend a lot if time with him just for fun, but now . . . it's just to make me feel better and forget my problems.

So what? I bet other people used to do that, why not me? I mean, he keeps repeating that he's my friend and he's going to be there for me, .time-that I'm with him!
I guess that thanks to him, I'm been feeling much better. I don't know how can he read me so well, hell not even my boyfriend knows my different moods!

But I still love him . . . but . . . we're friends; that's it.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention this . . . since two months ago, he hasn't say sakura's name but just recently . . . her name is the common topic that we talk about. And it hurts me. I know that we're fuckin friends- I know that- but it hurts when he talks about her in front of me!

I just have to deal with my feelings, since I know- I'm not going to be nothing more than his friend.

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TBC

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This is how my two months of darkness were.

Everything I wrote in this chapter is true.

You don't need to review in this fic . . . I did this so I can let go of my feelings through my writing, and express what I felt during these tough times of my life.

Thank You for reading and for you support!

Fer3333.