"Hello?" I slide the phone between my shoulder and cheek as I scrub a dish.

"Bella?" One of those times when you should recognize the voice on the other end of the line, but for the life of you can't place the voice with a face and name. "Bella, it's Seth Clearwater."

"Oh, hi Seth," I say with well-disguised surprise. I haven't been expecting to hear from Seth at all, and I wonder what's going on. "What's up?"

"Bella, I've got some news for you," he says. "And it's not good news either."

My face drains of color as I reply shakily, "Go for it."

"Jacob's gone." Seth's approach is a nice cross in between Jacob's utter bluntness and Edward's candy-coating, and it helps me take the news easier. That said, it still feels like a pound of bricks in my stomach.

"Gone?" I whisper. "Gone where?"

"He's somewhere in Canada now," Seth reports.

"Why didn't you go after him?" I demand. "Make him come back?"

"Sam told Quil and Embry to let him go," Seth tells me, sounding sad. "He'll come home when he's ready, Bella."

I understand that. I understand that Jake needs his space, probably from me. But when will he be ready? I don't know how long I can survive without my sun.

so this is how it goes / well I, I would have never known / and if it ends today / well I'll still say that you shine brighter than anyone / now I think we're taking this too far / don't you know that it's not this hard / no it's not this hard / but if you take what's yours and I take mine / must we go there / please not this time, no not this time / well this is not your fault / but if I'm without you then I will feel so small / and if you have to go / well always know that you shine brighter than anyone does / now I think we're taking this too far / don't you know that it's not this hard / no it's not this hard / but if you take what's yours and I take mine / must we go there / please not this time, no not this time / if you run away now / would you come back around / and if you ran away / I'd still wave goodbye watching you shine bright / now I think we're taking this too far / don't you know that it's not this hard / no it's not this hard / but if you take what's yours and I take mine / must we go there / please not this time, no not this time / I'll wave goodbye watching you shine bright / and I'll wave goodbye tonight