**A lot of the ideas here belong to Eclipse. I am just trying to stay close enough to story line. ** I am also sorry if it starts slow
The fight was over. Edward and Seth were over in the distance burning the chunks they had made out of Riley and Victoria. I should be happy, right? I should be jumping for joy. There was a lot of things I should be, but nothing that I was. All I wanted to do was run into Jacobs arms, but he was down at the main fight. Edward came over and wrapped an arm around me, meaning to be comforting. I took comfort, but it was not the comfort I wanted.
"Bella, is everything okay?" Edward asked, with concern in his voice.
"No. I mean yes. Can we just get down to the clearing?"
He seemed to consider my reaction in with my request. A look of confusion shot across his face, "Are you sure that everything is okay?"
"Yes, I just want to make sure everyone's alright."
The three of us made our way down the mountain silently. We were about a third of the way back when Seth let out a whimper and then started running the rest of the way.
"Edward, what's wrong?" I didn't even have to ask the question because I knew what his response was going to be. I knew he was going to say something had happened to one of the Wolves. I knew the wolf that it would have happened to would be my Jacob. I could still feel his lips on mine in that moment and looked to Edward for an answer.
A look of pain shot across Edward's face, "He was protecting the pack. Jacob stopped one of the newborns from attacking Leah, but the newborn threw him back. He's hurt Bella."
Judging my reaction to this and my initial instincts about getting back to the clearing, he threw me on his back and made it down the hills in minutes. When we got down to the clearing I noticed all the Cullens, minus Carlisle huddled around their own fire. The wolves were also missing.
"Where is he? I have to see him. Is he okay?" Panic was written all over my shaking voice.
"Calm down Bella," Edward replied as he helped me off of his back, "Carlisle took him home, and is working on helping him there. He has a lot of broken bones, but they should heal in a couple of weeks."
I tried to remain upright, but the strength seemed to leave me. Esme seemed to be next to me in an instant, helping me down to the grass. Suddenly Edward spoke.
"Esme, could you stay here with Bella? I want to go see what I can do to help Carlisle."
Esme nodded, and in the same instant Edward was gone. Alice left the side of the fire and came over to join us. She allowed me to lean on her. I believe she and Esme were having a conversation, but I was already in my own little world. All I could think about was Jacob. He was hurt because of me. Maybe if he didn't hear about mine and Edward's engagement, he would have been able to think more clearly. Maybe he wouldn't have gotten hurt. A million maybes flashed through my head. Then they were replaced by the wild kiss me and Jacob had shared, the heat flowing through my body, all over my body. There is no way he could have completely tricked me into that kiss- my body wouldn't have reacted like that if I hadn't wanted it too right? Rosalie's story passed through my head as well. I would never have children, and I thought that would be fine with me because if I had Edward, I didn't want anything else. But with Jacob I wanted everything. If I stayed with Edward there was so much I'd have to give up, but with Jacob I could really be me. And Jacob never hurt me, well never hurt me to the point that Edward did. Jacob only hurt me out of his dislike of Edward. I needed to go home to figure this out.
"Alice?" I was finally rejoining the real world.
"Yes Bella?"
"Can you take me home?"
She nodded and we were on our way back toward civilization.
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Alice had tried to stay when she dropped me off, but I had insisted on remaining alone. Charlie wasn't home yet, and I could really use the time to myself. I think I was just starting to see Jacob's side to the story, but couldn't help but to feel guilty too. Edward had saved my life several times. But so had Jacob. I felt like an exploding star, a supernova, everything that I knew to be true, like my love for Edward, didn't matter anymore, because my whole world was collapsing. A just stared into space, contemplating everything, when Charlie came through the door.
"Bella, did you hear about what happened to Jacob. I warned Billy that those bikes were dangerous."
"I need to go up and see him."
Charlie nodded. "Edward and Carlisle were just leaving. But try not to disturb him Bells, I think they gave him a lot of pain medicine, and he might be sleeping by now. That doctor is something else. Jacob had a lot of broken bones, but the doctor just went to fixing them, like it was nothing."
"That's Carlisle for you." I smiled and headed out the door.
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By the time my ancient truck made it down to La Push Jacob was resting comfortably. He seemed to be out of it, but the second he saw me his whole body tensed and then he let out a whimper of pain behind clenched teeth.
"Bella, I don't think you should be here right now. I don't know that I can handle much more agony in one day."
"Jacob, we have to talk."
"I know, I heard that bloodsucker say you were marrying him. I don't know what more there is to talk about."
I winced at the harshness behind his voice. "Jacob, I love you."
"I know, but it's not quite enough is it?"
"I don't know. I think it could be." I said in a very unsure voice.
A look of confusion passed on Jacob's face and I think he was finally ready to listen to me talk.