Just a drabble that went and stuck itself in the back of my ADD riddled mind.. Meh.. I don't like it much but then again its rare that I even write something that involves no yaoi or lemon.... O.o I guess that makes me a pervert... Well now Im rambling so enjoy minna!

Disclaimer: I don't own Zero No Tsukaima (Familiar of Zero)

I stare at him knowing he is both mine and not mine. He is my familiar, my servant. And my one true love. When did things become this way? When did I realize he was not just my familiar but my only true friend? I think back. Was it during that first kiss? Or when he clung to me the morning after the war? I can't live without him. I can't live with him. I can't live with that perverted dog, but I can't bear to never hear him say my name again. Right now he sleeps peacefully besides me. And I can swear I heard him mumble my name.
Who am I to claim him for myself? He would probably be happy enough with Kirche.. Or Siesta.. Or Jessica.. Or Tiffania.. Or Tabitha..Even Henrietta loves him! Why does the line never end? Why must everyone always try to steal him? He is just an idiotic dog who can't keep his thoughts out of his pants! But then why should I care? Why should it matter to me? It's been a little over a month since we battled the square class golem. And yet he still sticks by me. He's gone through the worst of punishments, insults and abuse... yet why does he stand by me.

Tears streak down my face as I fail to answer these questions that bombard me. Why can't I let him go? Why doesn't he leave? I am no more than a hindrance to him. Just a bother. I can't even tell him how much I love him.. I can't even say those three words. How hard is it to let go of that stupid facade? Very. I think that is the only question for which I have an answer. My pride gets in my way. It has, since day one. I think back on the fond memories and the painful ones... He has stayed with me when no one else has, in a way no one else has. When I was Zero Louise, when I was Noble Louise, when I was Commoner Louise and even now when I am Princess Louise. He's always put me above others, including himself. And what is his reward? Insults, punishments... the list goes on and on..

Is this the working of Gandalfr? Is what Tabitha said true? Or is this the product of something more."Louise... I.. love.. you..." I turn to him with a tear streaked face for he has spoken the words so clearly, I am certain that he is awake. His eyes are shut and a grin is on his beautiful face. He mumbles those three words that could undo me completely and I sigh. How could this creature be meant for me.. I am only Louise.. and I am terrible.. What have I done to deserve such a wonderful partner? No he isn't my partner.. He is something much more. He is not only my familiar nor only just a friend.. He is my one and only love and throughout all I've done, he's known this. "Saito.." I must speak these words even if he is not awake to hear them. "I.. love.. y-you.. I always have and will!" He stirs and then I feel his arms encircle me. "I love you too Louise.. no matter what," And with that I realize nothing else matters if not him. I Louise Francoise de la Baume le Blanc de la Valliere, have and will always love Saito Hiraga and I will fight for him till the end.

Review on my first heterosexual fic! Whoo! Ja Ne minna!