Rain Slipping Through My Fingers

By the Almighty SporkGoddess

She doesn't love me anymore.

She didn't say it, of course, but she doesn't need to. I can tell, just from the way she keeps avoiding my eyes. She still cares about me, but only as a past love. What we once had still lingers, but never will we be able to experience it again.

I wish I could say I feel the same. but I still love her. I always will. But I suppose he needs her more than I do.

Oh, they're not together. But why did she blush when I asked if he was her boyfriend or husband? Why did he let Minaret's head go when she started to cry? And, lastly, why did she leave with him instead of staying with me? I could see it in both of their eyes; they're crazy about each other. And just too stupid to realize it, just like I was so stupid to even consider leaving Rain that long time ago. I had her, and I lost her.

Imagine my surprise when I regained consciousness and saw those beautiful eyes of hers staring at me worriedly. My first thoughts were "Is this heaven? Because I see an angel." It may sound cheesy, but when you're in love you think things like that all of the time.

I suppose it was my fault for being idealistic. I assumed when I saw her that we could pick up where we left off. imagine my surprise when he showed up.

Domon Kasshu. Gundam fighter of Neo Japan. Old childhood friend of Rain's. Young, strong, good-looking (as far as I can tell, anyway). basically everything a girl could want. What's ironic is the fact that her father made her go back to Neo Japan because Domon had returned. He may have done it unwittingly, but he took her away from me. For this I blame her father, but still. I can't help but feel a small twinge of resentment that, because of him I lost her.

When she left, my life went downhill. I became Neo Turkey's Gundam fighter, sure, but I'd rather have been a humble university student with Rain at my side than a powerful and famous Gundam fighter without her. Call me crazy, but I really loved her. I remember the day we met. she said that her name was Rain. Her father named her that because rain is a blessing from the sky. She joked that he was exaggerating, and I laughed along with her, but now I realize that this was no exaggeration. Rain is truly a blessing to anyone whose life she may be in.

The moment he dropped those bullets he had taken out of my gun, I knew that Domon could protect her. Woe betide him if he hurts her in any way, but he needs her more than I do. She needs him more than she needs me. I was selfish to try to impose on an old college flame; so I stepped aside graciously. I just hope he realizes how special Rain is before it's too late. I don't want him to make the same mistake I did.



Author's Note: Wow, my first G Gundam fic. *sniffle* I feel kind of bad for Seitt, even if Domon and Rain are so cute together. This is the first part in what I think will be a 3-part monologue centering around episode 11. Darn that's a great episode. Sorry that this is so short, but monologues usually are. I realize that very few people here have probably seen G Gundam, but it has sooo many great fanfiction opportunities. ;) Please r/r, but be nice! I don't take criticism well. Btw, I haven't seen/read about all of G Gundam (all but the last three episodes ;_; and there are no summaries for them yet), so that's why this takes place in episode 11 or after it or something. Sorry if the formatting gets screwed up.



Disclaimer: Mobile Fighter G Gundam and everyone in it do not belong to me. :( If they did, I'd have SEEN THE LAST THREE EPISODES DARNIT! *cries* Er. uh.sorry.