AN: this is my first fanfic. Just a little poem/thought from Bella during New Moon. I know its really short, but please review.

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As the morning comes, I feel an emptiness inside.

I look for the cold, but I can't find it. Just a reminder of the death that I feel.

Gone. My life is gone.

How could I let this happen. How could I let him leave.

Of course I know. I'm not good enough for him, that's why. I

need to let him move on without me. It's better for him. It's better for his whole family.

Gone. Gone for good. Gone for the better.

I just need to keep telling myself that. That I was a hassle.

I didn't bring them joy. I brought them trouble and pain.

Last spring should have told me that. James could have hurt them, and it would have been my fault.

And, my birthday just caused more pain for them.

The suffering that Jasper (ow, it hurt to think his name) felt must have been unbearable.

To think I caused it. It's no wonder they left. Hell, I would leave too.

Why look at someone everyday that just gives you grief. But now that's what I feel, grief.

Yet, if that's the cost for his happiness, I'll pay it.