-Broken-
-A/N-
Hey everyone! Well, I'm a little concerned, because I haven't really received any reviews telling me if the last chapter was amazing or if it sucked… but I have gotten a few alerts and everything so it couldn't have been that terrible. Anyway! Here's basically a filler chapter so that the Cullen's can catch up to what happened to Bella and she can here about how they went all kick-ass at the hospital and saved her. Kays? M'kays. Read and review!
-Disclaimer-
Me? Twilight? Owning? Hahaha… wow, you're hilarious.
-Chapter five: Crimes of passion-
-Bella's pov-
I listened intently to their story, from when Alice saw me on the news until Edward was frantically trying to put enough venom in my system to make sure I made it through the three-day change. It was all terribly intriguing, but now we had lapsed into silence, and now it was my turn to share the story.
"Okay… where to begin.." Edward sighed, "From the beginning." I nodded, concentrating on my murky human memories. "Well, when you… left, I tried to follow. And soon it was dark, and I couldn't see anything so when I fell down I just sort of stayed there. Eventually Sam Uley from the reservation found me and took me back home, where I eventually found that the things you gave me were gone. I sort of lost it then.."
"I didn't see the point in eating anymore, food tasted rancid to me. And I couldn't talk because my lungs felt like they didn't work… it felt like I was being shoved onto a stake and it was piercing through my chest, taking my heart and lungs with it. I refused to sleep, because when I did I had nightmares… well, they wouldn't scare anyone but me. It was just me running in a forest, trying to find something… and then, the part that frightened me was when I admitted that there was nothing to search for."
Edward looked in pain, and I felt bad, because it wasn't even close to the worst part, so I interlaced our fingers. He smiled weakly in my direction, squeezing my fingers.
"When Charlie admitted me into the hospital, I didn't put up a fight… hoping that eventually my heart would just give out on me and I would finally die. It's the only thing I wanted then, death. I saw it as a release… surely death would be better than a life without reason, without meaning, without purpose. I felt like a satellite, and the planet I circled had disappeared, but I was still circling around the empty space where it used to be… defying gravity, defying logic. Anyway, they put me in the ICU and I was slowly nursed back to health… well, as close to health as I could get."
"Six months passed, and Charlie saw that it wouldn't do me any more good to stay in the hospital, so he took me home… and I kept a routine. For Charlie. I went to school, and worked, and then came home and made dinner. Soon though, I was taking a drive and I remembered the promise I made. Not to do anything stupid or reckless, and I was angry. I mean, why should I keep a promise that was already broken? It wasn't like you never existed, not at all… so I thought, if you broke your promise. I would break mine. So I got the motorcycles and eventually found myself at Jacob Blacks house. He fixed them up and then taught me to ride… and it was the most wonderful feeling. When I rode, I could hear your voice so clearly in my mind, and everything became so much brighter. It was almost like we were running through the forest again. I eventually got used to riding though, and your voice started to fade… so I was desperate for other reckless things to do."
"Which is how I got the idea of cliff jumping. Some of the La Push boys do it for recreational purposes, but what I had in mind was much better. Even standing on the ledge, just standing there I could hear you, and then I got closer to jumping and it felt like you were right there beside me so I jumped… not taking in the storm. The water was too strong for me to fight, and it was spinning me so much I didn't know which way up was. So I stopped fighting and I could see you, in my mind, so perfectly frustrated. Jacob saved me from death though, and I was so angry with him for that, I was so angry that I didn't die. We got into this huge fight, and when I came home… it was.. terrible."
Edward wrapped his arms tightly around my waist, his instinct to protect me taking over as he leaned over me, pressing me against his chest and I gratefully curled into his embrace. I could already feel myself sobbing… and this memory was so painful. So clear.
"The entry way was dark, and it took me a minute to find the light switch, but when I did… I wished I hadn't. Blood was spattered on the walls, smeared on the floor leading to the living room. I was so afraid, and not just because of what I saw… but because you were whispering in my ear, telling me to run. Telling me to not be stupid. You only spoke when I was in danger, and so with every word I heard my fingers trembled. But I had to find out if Charlie was okay, if he was alive. So I dragged myself into the living room… and…"
I sobbed, pressing my hand to my mouth.
"And he was laying on the floor… with Victoria standing over him. He was dead, I knew he was. No live person could bend like that, could look like that. It was scarring… and I cried out in pain. She looked at me, smiling and welcoming me home. Explaining how she was very careful to look like the 'bear' had done it. Putting all of the blame on Jake and his pack… it made me sick. She held my chin, so tight I could feel myself bruising, and promised she would come back for me before throwing Charlie's dead body over her shoulder and disappearing."
I tried to quiet my cries, and everyone sat quietly until I had myself under control. "Sorry.." Alice shook her head. "It's fine Bella… but what do you mean, 'Jake and his pack?' What pack?" Oh, they didn't know. I sighed, "Jacob Black, and his friends, are all werewolves." Everyone looked upset at this and Edward just tightened his already tight grip on my waist. "Let me finish my story, it's almost over."
"Of course, I immediately went over to Jacob's and I told them about what happened… and Sam sent Embry and Quill to go clean up my house, they knew I wouldn't be able to handle it. And from then on, I always had one of the wolves with me… and I stayed in La Push, never going home. The funeral was beautiful… but sad, and Renee tried to get me to come to Florida with her and Phil. I couldn't bring myself to leave Forks though. In Forks, I could imagine that you all really existed. But somewhere sunny and crowded? I couldn't picture you in a place like that. I couldn't leave, because in Forks… sometimes the simplest things would remind me of you. Yet at the same time, it was almost as if you didn't exist, everything was repeating itself and in the most cruel manner. It was surreal, almost as if you hadn't left an imprint in the world. So I turned Renee down, and I continued to live in Charlie's house, spending most of my time in La Push."
"It was about a month later, and Jacob and I were walking along First Beach… and we got into an argument. He always liked me more than a friend, and I just didn't feel that way about him. It wasn't possible for me to.. I was broken. You had left, and taken my heart… my soul, my life with you. So we fought, and I admit… I pushed his limits and flaunted the fact that you were the one I loved and he snapped, and attacked me. It wasn't a bear… it was Jacob. He killed me, and I hate him for that and I'll never forgive him."
Edward was staring at me, the pain in his expression unbearable. "Edward… I'm sorry, I shouldn't have gone into detail… its just I missed you so much and everything seems like a really bad dream now.." He shook his head, anger seeping into his midnight black eyes, pressing his lips to mine. "In no way whatsoever is any of this your fault. Jacob Black… on the other hand.."
I sighed, not even wanting to think about Jacob. "Ugh, don't even say his name. Moronic dog." I watched as Edwards eyes impossibly got even darker, undiluted rage seething underneath the surface. "I'll be right back love." I whimpered softly when he pulled away from me, missing the contact. "Where are you going?" He smiled softly at me, pressing a chaste kiss to my lips before walking to the front door. "I'm going to avenge you."
-Alice's pov-
Edward are you really going to do what I just saw you do?
Edward grinned menacingly, and I had my answer. Well, all I have to say is ouch. Jacob is going to regret even looking at Bella, let alone meeting her. And I don't blame Edward for doing it to the mongrel either… I want to do the same thing… I might even help…
-Emmett's pov-
I wonder if Edward will let me help rip apart the dog…
-Edward's pov-
I'm going to kill him.
I'm going to kill him, and I'm going to enjoy every moment of it. Every single moment.
How dare he let my Bella in danger, time after time? How dare he even think about hurting her? How dare he force her to have a conversation she obviously didn't want? I'm going to kill him. I ignored Alice and Emmett's thoughts, and I didn't stop them when they climbed into the Volvo with me, I didn't even stop to be shocked at the fact Rose was with us. I didn't stop for anything, I just peeled out of the driveway and headed towards the reservation.
I could hear Jasper offer Bella a ride to follow us, and I could barely hear her voice as she accepted, but I didn't care. No one was going to stop me. Not now. Not after what he did. He killed her, and so he'll repay that with his insignificant life. Rosalie was thinking along the same lines as I was, and I felt comforted in the fact she was actually angry that this mongrel hurt Bella. It was nice, especially since Rosalie didn't feel compelled to bond with Bella before. I wasn't that surprised that Emmett and Alice were thinking violent thoughts, seeing as how Bella was already very important to them. But it was still a comfort, to have back up.
We made it to the reservation, and Emmett's Jeep was right behind us, Bella lithely jumping out before the car was even stopped and rushing to my car door. She flung it open and then slipped inside, straddling my lap with her hands pressed against my chest. "Edward, please think about what you're wanting to do… you want to break the treaty, we're already in danger from being on their lands, it isn't worth this Edward. It isn't. Please, I'm so grateful that you want to seek out the revenge that I want to do myself… but please, think of Carlisle. Think of Esme, and think of me."
"Bella, this isn't going to stop me, we all know the risks… and we're all willing to take them. The fact that Esme and Carlisle didn't stop us was information enough that our whole family is deeply disturbed at what happened to you in our absence, and most of it leads back to this… this dog."
She sighed, touching her forehead to mine and staring intently into my eyes. I didn't exactly know what she saw, but eventually she pressed her lips to mine and got out of the car. "I'm coming with you."
"Bella, no. This, thing… hurt you! He's never getting near you again." We all stared at Rosalie in shock, but she was focused on Bella… who was even more shocked than the rest of us. "Rose I'll be fine… I'm just as strong – if not stronger – than all of you. I'm not letting you go without me."
I nodded, pulling Bella to me as I walked forward towards the overwhelmingly strong stench of dog. "Let's go everyone. I can hear him up ahead, at the beach." We all walked with extreme calm to the beach, except for Bella who curled her arms tightly around my waist and shot worried glances to our siblings. She was worried not for herself, but for us… as usual. When we actually stepped onto the beach the dog whipped his head around, in human form, and his eyes widened as his nostrils flared.
"What are you doing here, leeches? This is breaking the treaty!" I snickered, pulling away from Bella and taking a step forward. "We're just passing through, mongrel." He growled, taking a step forward, "I'll kill all of you." And Rosalie laughed from beside Bella.
"Not if we kill you first," She said in a singsong voice that surprisingly sounded more frightening than any other way she could have said it. Bella took a step towards me, her hand finding mine and pulling myself closer to her, she obviously wasn't comfortable with having me so far away from her. Jacob finally looked at all of us closely, and when his eyes rested on Bella he choked on the air he was breathing. "Bells? Oh thank god, Bells! They told me you were dead!" My love growled softly at my side, pulling me a step back so that I was halfway behind her.
"I am dead Jacob, thanks to you." He blanched at that, studying her more closely. "Oh god, what did they do to you Bella?"
"What did they do to me Jacob! They saved me! From the death you caused, that's what they did!" He was trembling now, good. There was no satisfaction in killing him while he was human. The wolf, the animal side of him, was the one who caused trouble… the one who hurt Bella. And so the animal side of him will die, dragging the humane half of him with it.
"Bells, you know I didn't mean it… I mean come on, you know you love me." Rosalie promptly gagged, and I flinched… not being able to picture my Bella loving something so, revolting. She always did love things she shouldn't though. Bella's ruby eyes narrowed, glaring coldly at him. "I hate you."
He smiled, "Hate is a very passionate emotion." She stalked forward, and I shadowed her movements, not wanting her any further away from me than necessary. She snarled, "I'll give you passion. Murder, the ultimate crime of passion." And then she lunged for him just as he shifted into his version of a monster. Rosalie quickly followed her, and so did Alice… while Emmett, Jasper, and I slowly walked forward… picturing the best and most satisfying way to do this.
Emmett was singing under his breath. "Ding dong, the dog is dead. Who is dead, the dog is dead!" And I chuckled as he launched himself at the wolf, leave it to Emmett to make this more entertaining than it originally was. Jasper slowly joined in and then I listened to the dog's thoughts, his screams of terror, before pouncing on him and contributing to his death… making sure he suffered.