DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN NCIS

Why Me?

Why do I stare,

Endlessly at an empty inbox,

When I know nothing will appear?

Why do I sit,

Waiting for his reply,

When I know it will never come?

Why do I look at him,

Like he's my hero,

But not willing to save me?

Why does he look at me,

Blankly,

And only see an empty desk in the darkness?

Why do I cry,

When I see him with someone else,

And not me?

Why am I jealous,

When he and Jeanne are happy together,

And I am pushed further and further away from him?

Why do I care,

When there's nothing left for me,

No one around for me to love?

Why am I hurt,

Whenever I think of him,

A pain in my broken heart that only he can heal?

Why do I leave,

When I know there's nowhere to go,

Nobody to go to, to make it all better?

Why do I crouch,

In the cold corner of the room,

Tears running down my face in despair?

Why do I listen,

To my heart beating inside of me,

Wishing it would stop forever?

Why do I dream,

Of him and me together,

His heart mine to keep?

Why do I wake up,

With the memories flooding back to me,

To face another day of misery?

Then I think to myself

"Why me?"

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