Pulse racing, my heart beating inaudibly with its increased speed. If only I was human, maybe this nightmare would give me a heart attack and I'd just die here and now. But no, it was a recurring nightmare, and they were here.[i] Right now.[/i] They wanted me. But I couldn't just close my eyes for this counted from everything. And as I heard the rushed footsteps, the calm footsteps, the whispered words that rushed between them my door flew open. Oh goodness, the pulse seemed to have grown faster, as in the speed of the flapping wings of a fly fast; I was starting feel faint. And yet my mother didn't seem to notice, as she'd grabbed my bags, in a few seconds flat just about packing everything that I'd need. I looked towards her, eyes curious, unsure of what was going to happen. Where were we going? I questioned her but she wasn't listening, she just simply stared at me, her eyes deeply engulfed in regret. And then she'd begun to speak, her words in a flurry, too rushed for even me to understand. "Renesmee, get downstairs right now." I couldn't disagree, all I did was stand and walk, down the stairs, slowly, a frozen statue in time.

"Renesmee!" my mother called out. Even though I loved her with all my heart, I preferred to be alone right now. I walked to where the railing was. I'd looked towards her, my eyes hurt and yet unable to not follow. She'd walked towards me, in a rush, placing two pieces of paper neatly in my hands, her eyes piercing into mine as she instructed me, if this was going to be our last time together- though I could not think it, I didn't want it to end like this. And yet it was as if she couldn't hear the thoughts booming from me as she held my cheeks, as she spoke with that rushed voice she'd used, tinkling wind chimes in nothing but frenzy. It was odd. "Take these, both of them. Go to the car outside, Jacob's waiting. You must go exactly to this place that I wrote down, and Nessie, don't open the letter until you get there, do you understand? We'll follow you…but you can't be here right now, you must go, and flee, with Jacob." "What's going on?" I asked her. She didn't answer but she just merely nodded to Edward and walked out the door. My father walked over to where I was, and grabbed my hand, gently pulling me towards the front door. We got to the garage, and I was breathing heavily. What was happening here? My father was tense, my mom was stressed out and I wasn't in on what the problem was. I quickly swept my eyes around the room, meeting the worried stares of my whole family.

And yet they couldn't meet my stares, and I knew that the choked noise that my mother had, the one that made her words seem that much thicker had a double meaning.. And yet they didn't speak, only merely look at me with those lovely beautiful yet eerie eyes, my father and mother shared a soft look but afterwards was nothing but a world of action. He'd directed me towards the garage, in front of the door, his eyes on me, and his words hard like I couldn't disobey. I wanted- no I needed to know what the hell was going on. "Renesmee you must go now, no questions, nothing. You must go and never ever come back. We'll keep contact, alright?" And with that he'd kissed my forehead and with his speed…disappeared. Tears, brimming my eyes, I looked at my family's disappearing forms. I turned away, towards the Mercedes that was parked right next to Aunt Rose's BMW. Climbing into the passenger side, I shielded my eyes from Jacob, not wanting him to see me in tears. He gently caressed my cheek and I looked up, into the eyes that were filled with hurt, seeing me crying. He leaned down and kissed my cheek softly. When he pulled back, I gave a warm smile as he brushed a tear away. With that, he turned towards the windshield and started the engine.

He'd asked me quietly where we were going, and I'd taken the crumpled sheet from my hands and told him, whispering, my eyes only looking outside the window. I didn't ever like Jacob seeing my like this, like my world was tearing apart before him. He'd at least showed me he courtesy of staying silent. Mourning and reveling in my silence, my eyes looking towards the view yet it didn't seem beautiful, nothing did. And with that my eyes had slid close, I had no idea what was happening, up until a couple of hours later, when my eyes had opened, like I'd awaken from a bad dream. Yet Jacob was still beside me, and I'd still felt empty. I'd looked towards him, his smile as he saw my eyes flutter open. And yet he didn't speak, his hand reaching to caress my cheek, my words soft and silent. I'd only sat up to stare towards the view before me, towards the school which seemed almost unbelievable. I'd sat up, the sigh escaping from my lips. And yet I'd shaken my head, and yet I'd seemed so utterly unfascinated. I'd looked towards Jacob, eyes filled with hurt. "Did you know about this?"

And yet he'd shaken his head, his eyes locked onto mine at a degree in which I couldn't disagree. No, he was everything to me and his words would never get me to turn away. As he'd parked the car I stepped out, my eyes locked onto his as he held my hand tightly. His forehead creased at the worry I'd felt. But I'd looked down, into the paper which was in my hand, the paper that seemed almost unreadable with the salty tears that drenched it. I'd bit my lip, looking towards Jacob who'd nodded, leaving me alone for now. My eyes fascinated I'd read.

Dearest Renesmee,

We did not mean to leave you here, alone and in fear, but with your trust and your mind so clean we hope you forgive us. We did not plan for what would happen, for them to come for you. By then I mean the Volturi, they're here for your powers, and they want you. Your father and I thought it best to get you as far away as possible. We'd found you a new home, a school of a good friend of mine. She knows what and who we are, so please do not feel afraid. I do know though, that the only chance for you is to disappear completely. In our hearts you'll always be one of us, dear Renesmee, but when the moment comes and we need to let you go sacrifices are made. With this a decision you'll need to make. I believe in love, yet this decision influences all. I need you, no, we need you to do something that I unwillingly would do, we need you to stay here…without Jacob. You do know what to do, and though your love is strong you know we must do this.

Forever will our love for you last,

Your family.

I was choked with tears, wiping my eyes and feeling his soft breath on my back. He'd noticed, and he was not holding me in his arms, as I sobbed against his chest, feeling his heartbeat drumming in my ears. I couldn't forgive myself for what I'd do next, yet I needed to, no matter how much I didn't want this to happen.

~Jacob POV~

My beautiful maiden, she'd looked towards me, her eyes full of grief, here she was, abnormally sad, almost an image of pain. My pain had rubbed off as well. As I held her tightly in my arms she'd staggered back, her eyes filled with that engulfing flame of pain. She'd bit her lip, looking into my eyes, her words filled with that soft sadness which seemed melodious along with her beauty. "Jacob, I have to go." The full realization of what she'd meant never hit me, but the look in her eyes did. So slowly I staggered backwards, my eyes looking straight into hers, my lips forming a frown, my words coming out too fast, too much. What could I say? "You have to go? Nessie, you can't- I'm here to protect you, I'm here to be yours. I'm here, I'll always be. Renesmee, I love you. More than my life, more than this world, don't you know that?" And then her eyes to my she'd shaken her head, her eyes seemingly filled with grief, with a small sigh she'd spoken.

"That's the problem." And then she'd walked away, leaving my world in a wall of flurry. I could feel everything collapse, the strings broken, was this, what breaking up felt like? I'd felt a strange detachment. But she was already gone, and I'd walked towards the car, seeing what seemed like a scrunched up piece of paper of the floor. I picked it up, merely curious. I couldn't stagger for words, I couldn't find what I could say, I'd stepped into the car the road hot behind me. The speed of this car was getting faster by the second; I knew exactly what to do.