Finding Balance and New Adventures

"I had a really nice time with you tonight," Edward murmured as he slowly backed me against my door. He leaned in to kiss me softly on the lips and then lingered as he lightly sucked on my bottom lip. It was entirely too soft, I wanted it hard. I wanted rough, throw you up against the wall kisses, not these tiny yet passionate reminders of what I'd been missing.

"Gah," I huffed out in frustration. I was ready to explode and he was standing here full of sweet, yet entirely too chaste kisses. "I can't do this anymore."

"What?" he squeaked as he pulled back from me with a panicked look on his face. I was sure that he thought I meant us, but I meant this self-imposed ban on anything sexual that had been going on between us for the past two months. TWO WHOLE MONTHS!

I wanted him, and I wanted him now!

"Grrr," I growled as I pushed him back from me and reached towards where my purse had dropped to the floor when he'd pressed me into the front door of my apartment. I quickly pulled my keys out and shoved the key into the lock with more force than was probably necessary.

Edward was uncharacteristically silent behind me, but I could still sense that he was close even though he wasn't touching me anymore.

"Is there anything…? Can we talk about this, Bella?" he asked quietly as I flung my door open and grabbed his arm to haul him in after me.

"No, no more talking," I practically shouted as I slammed and locked the door behind him, shoving him up against the wall next to the door.

He looked mildly scared of me, but when my hand went for his belt, his eyes darkened before he groaned and closed his eyes, leaning his head back against the wall.

"You're fucking killing me, Bella."

"You better not die yet, Edward Cullen, I have plans for you," I laughed as I dropped to my knees and drug his zipper down before pulling both his pants and his boxers down his thighs. If the bounce of his erection in my face was any indication of how frustrated he was, then he was just as pent up as I had been feeling.

I knew that he was trying to do things differently this time, but I was done waiting to feel him again, and I was going to go insane if I had to wait to have him any longer. It'd been a long, long time since I'd been close to him, close to anyone, and I was done denying myself.

As my lips closed around him, I could hear his hands slap the wall on either side of his thighs and looked up towards him, honestly a little startled. He was looking down at me with fire in his eyes and I couldn't remember him ever looking at me with that depth of passion before. I'd been the target of his desirous looks before, but even I'd never seen this one.

I hollowed out my cheeks and sucked hard as I bobbed on his erection, holding him tightly around the base with one hand. He was above me groaning and cursing under his breath, and his thighs were shaking with his efforts to either stay upright or not to thrust into me. It was driving me even more mad with lust than I had been when we got back to my place.

"Oh God, Bella...oh...oh...fuckfuckfuck," he groaned as I felt one of his hands come forward and weave into the hair at the back of my head. His hips began to undulate in my direction as I moved and as I scraped my teeth against the underside of his head on one upstroke, he cursed again and pushed my face forward as he released down my throat.

With what had been months, years even, of pent up sexual frustration satisfied for the time being, Edward slid down the wall in front of me and gave me a lazy smile before he closed his eyes and leaned his head back against the wall.

"That was..." he sighed happily.

"Just the beginning," I laughed as his eyes popped open in surprise and he gave me a smirk.

He had to know that I was just getting started. I knew that he'd probably be quick to finish the first time, so the blowjob was my insurance of getting one satisfying fuck out of him tonight. Well...at least one.

"Come on, big boy," I cooed as I began to unbutton my blouse and pull it out of my skirt backing towards my living room.

He seemed to snap out of his stupor and winked at me as he hauled his body off the floor, hitching his open pants up around his hips as he followed me.

"Happy with yourself are you?" he laughed as I sauntered towards my bathroom, leaving a trail of clothing behind myself. I was withholding the giggles that wanted to escape when he groaned and then let out something sounding like a growl when I dropped my bra to the ground in his path.

He caught me around the waist as I was leaning over to pull my underwear from my ankle inside of the bathroom door and nipped at the side of my neck before he pressed himself up against me, seemingly equally as naked. I was impressed at the speed at which he disrobed, but a comment caught in my throat as he pushed a hand between my legs and thrust two fingers inside of me.

"Ok, fuuuuuuu," I moaned as he pressed himself against me fully from behind as I gripped onto the doorframe tightly with both hands so I didn't fall on my face. His youth appeared to be working in his favor as I felt him hard against my back again. His ministrations between my legs were making it hard to remain upright, but he locked his other arm around my breasts to help hold me up as his fingers drove in and out of me.

"You didn't think I'd let you do that to me in the hallway and not have my own fun," he whispered in my ear as the pace of his fingers increased, sounds of wet suction ringing out around us.

"Ugh," I moaned loudly as I began to feel the pressure begin to form in my stomach as my orgasm rapidly approached.

"I'm gonna make you cum so hard, Bella," he growled as he groped at one of my breasts, pinching my nipple roughly, sending shockwaves down to my core. "And then I'm gonna fuck you."

I convulsed as my muscles clamped down on his fingers and would have fallen to the floor if he wasn't holding me upright against his chest. My fingers ached from my grip on the wood of the door frame, but I lacked the coordination to let go as wave after wave of pleasure shot through my body, his fingers never stopping inside of me.

He wasn't kidding about the cumming hard comment, I hadn't had an orgasm that powerful since the last time I'd been with Edward. Pieces of cheap plastic and my hand couldn't even begin to compare.

Edward finally withdrew his fingers as my body completely sagged against him, and he steered me towards the toilet, turning me around and sitting me down against the lid as he reached into the shower to turn on the water. I vaguely recalled his promise to fuck me, but I was in too much of a daze to really do anything about it.

As the steam began to fill the small bathroom, Edward grabbed my hand and tugged me into the stall behind him, closing the door and urging me under the warm spray. I was completely boneless as he worked shampoo into my hair, his warm chest pressed against my back. I could still feel him hard against me, and as the fog began to clear from my brain I began to press my hips back against him, eliciting frustrated groans from him in the process.

He spun me around and I quickly worked to rinse the suds from my hair as quickly as I could. Edward stepped back a little and my eyes widened as he began to stroke himself. The predatory look in his eyes reappeared and as soon as the last bit of shampoo was out of my hair, he pulled me towards him, kissing me roughly before he spun me behind him and put my hands up against the wall.

"I hope you've been keeping up with that yoga," he groaned as he pulled one of my legs up and propped it up against his hip. I pushed up onto my toes with the other leg as he bent down and lined himself up with me. I moaned against the tiles as he rubbed the head of himself against my opening and then eased himself in.

I could feel his body tremble a little as he pushed in slowly, obviously fighting the urge to just thrust in. It felt so good to be filled by him and my head began to swim again as he started to fuck me slowly.

"God, you feel so good," he moaned as his fingers tightened on my hips and he began to pull me against him as he thrust forward. It sent shockwaves through me each time he was all the way in and I felt my orgasm begin to build as my leg began to burn with the exertion of holding myself up.

I wanted to look at him as we reconnected like this, but I think we both needed to get the pent up frustration out of our systems before we made love again. As much as I did love him, I also couldn't deny that it felt good to just be fucked for once in my life. Nothing had ever felt like this, and I knew that he was the only person capable of making me feel loved as he drove into me.

Soon, the sound of the running water was drowned out by his loud groans and my lusty moans as he thoroughly fucked me, driving me forward with each deep thrust. My leg was barely holding me up and I was clawing at the tiles in front of me as I felt my orgasm come on, my pussy clenching down on him hard. I could tell he was having trouble holding back as his grip on me tightened and he thrusted into me hard a few more times before I could feel him release inside of me.

He gently helped me lower my leg to stand and he pulled me back against his chest, practically holding me up as he panted in my ear.

"God, I love you," he whispered as he dropped kisses across my shoulder and up the side of my neck.

**BD**

School seemed to fly by after Spring Break, the last two and a half months vanishing before I even realized it. Edward and I continued to date when we had time, mostly on the weekends, and as time passed, we rarely spent a night apart.

By the time my lease came up for renewal, I'd only spent a handful of nights at my own apartment, and wondered if it was worth the money to keep up the rent if I wasn't even living there. I had no idea how to broach the subject with Edward. We were definitely in a serious relationship, but I wasn't sure if he'd want me moving into his apartment.

I guess I just assumed that if he wanted me to live with him full time, then he'd ask, and he hadn't done that.

The decision was made for me one Friday night when we had stopped by my apartment to check the mail and make sure that everything was alright. I also needed to grab clothes for the weekend, as well as round up the ones that needed washed. Edward had a washer and dryer in his apartment, so we'd been doing our laundry together at his place.

"What's this?" Edward asked as I dragged my laundry bag out into the living room behind me. He was standing in the kitchen leaning up against the counter.

He was holding up my second notice to come sign my new lease or to submit a notice to vacate. The deadline was fast approaching and I still hadn't worked up the courage to talk to him about it. We'd been together for almost six months, but I didn't want to force him into anything.

"Oh, um. I need to go and sign my new lease soon. I keep forgetting since I seem to be spending all my time somewhere other than here."

Edward crossed over to where I was standing and wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me up against his chest as he looked down at me.

"You know, you don't have to sign that."

"Oh, really?" I asked as I arched my brows at him. "And where do you plan for me to go when my lease is over?"

"I could think of a few places," he mused as he leaned down to kiss me lightly on the cheek.

"A few, huh?"

"Well, there's the YMCA. Don't they take in strays?"

"Ha ha. Why would I want to be a homeless person when I could just continue living here?"

He pursed his lips and tapped a finger on my nose. "That's a good point."

I nipped at his finger and laughed when he yelped as I bit the tip of it.

"Maybe the Humane Society?"

"Oh, real funny, Edward. Now I'm a dog?"

"Well you did just bite me. I guess it's a good thing I know you're up to date on your shots," he countered with a cheeky grin. Let's just say that Edward was a fan of my birth control shot. We only had to remember to get me to my doctor's every three months and he avoided the dreaded condom.

We'd been lucky that both of us had been abstinent in our separation so we didn't have to go through an STD panel. I had an annual screening from my doctor, and he'd had one prior to when he approached me in Chicago. Neither of us had ever been a fan of casual sex, so it just made everything easier when we'd started sleeping together again.

"Oh, I've got it," he exclaimed as he pulled me up his body and encouraged me to wrap my legs around his waist.

"oh?"

"You could just move in with me."

His previous playful demeanor was gone as my eyes snapped up to his. He held my gaze steadily as I searched his face for any signs of joking or regret.

He was serious…

It was one thing to think about it when my lease came up for renewal, but I wasn't going to actually ask him, it wasn't something I wanted to force on him.

"Really?"

He nodded with a little smirk and leaned forward to kiss my neck.

"Please?" He murmured into my skin as he held me up against him.

"Like you even had to ask," I giggled as I nodded my head.

"Seriously?" he asked as he drew back and found my eyes. Before I could respond again he captured my lips in a firm kiss, drawing my bottom lip into his mouth before he licked along it teasingly.

I hummed into his mouth and he took that as an invitation to begin massaging my tongue with his own.

He seemed to be very excited that I'd agreed to live with him so easily, as if anything else had ever been an option. I would've moved in with him the first week he was in Seattle if he'd asked me.

"God, I love you," he gasped as he broke the kiss and buried his head in my neck, his stubbly goatee tickling my neck.

"Mmmm, me too," I moaned as he began to nip and kiss at where my shirt had shifted to expose my collarbone.

After my response, it was like a switch was thrown and he needed to get me naked as fast as possible.

Taking the few steps into my bedroom, he tossed me back on the bed only to directly climb on top of me as his warm hands drew my shirt up my torso. I barely had time to get my hair free before it was off and over his shoulder.

His nimble fingers unsnapped my bra seemingly like magic and it too went over his shoulder and onto the floor.

Edward was crazed as he swooped down and captured one of my nipples in his mouth. He used both of his large hands to cup and squeeze my breasts together as he sucked at me.

I was writhing against his knee as he crouched over me, letting out uncharacteristically loud moans as I clawed at his back. He had entirely too many clothes on and the vigor at which he was attacking my breasts was going to cause me to climax before he even got my pants off. Who knew that agreeing to live together was such an aphrodisiac?

"I don't ever want to be away from you again," he whispered into my neck as he kissed along my collarbone.

"You'll get tired of me," I moaned as he trailed up my neck and towards my ear.

"Never."

"I don't want to rush things…"

He leaned away from me and reached behind his neck, pulling his shirt up over his head.

I propped myself up with one hand and began to unbuckle his belt with the other. He let out a groan as I released it and then tugged the button open on his pants. He helped me pull down the zipper and then pushed down his pants and boxers, his erection jutting out in front of him.

"I would have asked you months ago, but I knew you wouldn't say yes."

He gulped as my hand encircled him and began a slow pace massaging his hard flesh.

"My answer wouldn't have been no," I whispered as I watched him throw his head back and moan. "I don't want to be away from you either."

He scooted back off the edge of the bed, my hand falling away from him. His pants were dropped to the floor quickly as he stepped out of them. My socks were next and then he tugged down my pants. Edward's hands were warm as he trailed them back up my bare legs. The fingers of one hand gently massaged me over my drenched panties and I knew that I would never take another lover.

"You've been my dream for so long…" he groaned as I brought my hand back to his erection. "Please don't leave me again. My heart couldn't take it."

"Mine is yours, for however long you want it."

He leaned forward and lowered himself on top of me, propping himself up on his forearms. His lips gently caressed mine and I melted into his drugging kisses. Being here with him was a reminder of the fact that despite all that we'd been through, we were always going to only want each other.

"I want it forever," he murmured into my cheek as he shifted his weight to one arm and began to pull down my panties.

"It's yours," I moaned as I helped him get my panties down.

He tossed them to the floor and slowly traced his fingers up my leg, dipping them into the crevice between my thighs, sending jolts of pleasure through me. His talented fingers could play just about any instrument, but he played me the most beautifully.

"Oh…" I moaned as he slid two fingers into me slowly. "You feel so good."

"Bella…." he whispered into my mouth as he kissed me. The rhythm of his tongue mirrored the ministrations of the hand between my legs and I was vibrating with arousal as he continued to steadily fuck me with his fingers.

As he drove me closer to the brink, I reached down to grip him firmly in my hand, stroking him to the same maddening pace. His hips thrusted along with my hand and he was impossibly hard.

"Oh, fuck me…" I groaned as I felt the familiar tingles shoot down my spine and settle between my legs.

"God yes," he panted as he used his knee to spread my legs further apart. His hips lowered towards me and I let go of him, wrapping my legs around the backs of his thighs.

He pressed himself against me after he removed his hand from me and I felt him slide through the wetness he'd created, the head of him pressing firmly against my clit.

"Please…" I hissed as he pulled himself away slightly and readjusted the angle of his hips. He pistoned forward and slipped inside of me, both of us crying out with the force of our coupling.

"There's never been anyone but you…" he whispered against the side of my face as he made love to me, rocking me into the mattress.

"I love you," I cried into his cheek as a tear slipped out of my eye. All of the pain and heartache we'd been through was totally worth it to get to this moment with him.

"You have no idea how much I love you," he panted into my hair.

There weren't any more words as he completely surrounded me with his body, penetrating me with more than just his cock. I was lost in him. How I'd thought I could love again after him was beyond comprehension.

We met at the wrong time, made the wrong choices. I'd fled to save the both of us, but he'd found me.

As Edward drove me to the pinnacle of ecstasy, I arched my back and screamed out my orgasm into the quiet bedroom. His groans of completion followed moments later as I felt him pulse inside of me.

We clung to each other as our bodies cooled, and I was glad that we were taking this step together. I hated the idea of being away from him, even if it was only a few miles away.

**BD**

"You know we could have hired someone to do this?" he groaned as he carried a crate of books from my car to the elevator in his, well now our, building.

"Why would we want to waste money to pay someone to do this?" I asked as I huffed beside him.

"Maybe because it's hotter than hell and you own a million books."

I laughed as I took in his sweaty hair and dusty clothes. No matter how clean you convinced yourself you were, moving always showed you how much dust built up on things.

"Look on the bright side, you're getting in your workout for the day."

He rolled his eyes and scoffed as the elevator dinged and the doors slid open.

"I'd rather go to the gym." He laughed as he wiggled his eyes at me. "I can think of a much more pleasurable way to get dirty with you, heavy boxes not included."

"Quit being such a baby," I teased as he opened his door and stood in front of it so I could pass through. "You'll still get dirty later."

"What do you think I am, a machine?"

"Can't take a little manual labor?" I laughed as we placed my boxes of books in front of an empty bookcase.

He stood up and grabbed me around the waist, pulling me into his sweaty chest. He smelled musty from the boxes, but still delicious. I wanted to say screw unpacking the moving van, but I knew we needed to get this done.

With only days left on the lease at my place, we needed to get me moved before meetings for the new school year started.

Edward was excited to be able to write his own curriculum this year, and I was amazed by the drive he had to make sure that he made his mark on the music department. I always knew he'd make an amazing teacher, and I was happy to call him a colleague.

The kids loved him already, and his classes were almost fully enrolled. For a new teacher, he was respected among the staff. A select few knew that we were together, but his job performance so far had earned him that respect.

"I'm glad I don't have to go to the pound today…"

He laughed loudly and pulled me closer, kissing my neck and licking along my collarbone.

"Oh, you'll get pounded alright…"

"You're horrible…" I giggled.

"That's not what you were saying last night."

"You've got such a big ego," I rolled my eyes.

"That's not the only thing that's big," he murmured as he pressed his hips forward. His thin athletic shorts didn't hide anything. He was already hard. That was going to make moving awkward.

"Seriously?" I moaned as he ground into me, bending his knees and hitching one of my thighs over his hip.

"We could do a little more manual labor and then finish emptying the truck later."

I wanted to say no, but the pulse of him between my legs made me ache with want.

Edward made quick work of pulling up my shirt and pushing down my shorts. He bent me over the couch and made me see stars before we finally made it back downstairs.

It was a good thing that he'd locked up the van before our last trip upstairs, although there was a parking ticket tucked under the wiper on the windshield.

"This was totally worth it," he laughed as he pulled it out and shoved it into his pocket.

"I can pay that." I swatted his arm and tried to pull the ticket out, sliding my hand inside.

"Hey, you already got some of that earlier, leave me alone woman." He jumped away from me and opened up the back of the van, handing me a box before grabbing the last few and kicking the doors closed with his foot.

"You sure you can handle me living with you?"

"Somehow, I think I'll manage."

The smile on his face was radiant as I followed him into what was now our home.

Obviously, this one is a little shorter than what you're used to. Hopefully the content makes up for it. I'm getting back into trying to write longer chapters, but life got into the way with this one.

Epilogue will be posted soon, it'll tie up alot of loose ends with our supporting characters and bring some new adventures for our favorite couple.

Thank you all for the messages of support and love you've sent over the past few months! I appreciate each and every review you send! Until next time... xo GT