Chapter number one ^^ Do not own No Money xD

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"School?" Ayase said with a big shock in his voice. The thought that Kanou-san would let him go to school seemed impossible. He once let him go, but it went wrong when his friends looked at him in a different way. That ended… terrible. So the idea was still left spinning through his mind. A school where both boys and girls were admitted. Of course Kanou made sure Ayase was in a class full of girls (what Kanou thought was so natural about it, was still kept a riddle to Ayase). His female looks drew a lot of attention with most of the boys.

"Yes, I'll let you go to school…" Kanou said, still some regret audible in his voice. The little blond got a blush on his cheeks and started to fantasize about how fun it would become in his classes. Therefore he totally forgot that Kanou probably would make his conditions again. When it did finally broke through his mind he gave Kanou a discouraged look. The big man stood up from behind his desk and gave Ayase the penetrating look. Ayase stood up too, avoiding eye contact as much as possible. If he would have stain on his chair he would have had the feeling that he was even smaller then he already was… and being small without that was already a terrible feeling.

"Now let me guess…" a female voice said all of a sudden. "Now you'll probably say your conditions?" Ayase and Kanou both looked at the voice the same time. Someya stood in the door entrance, with Gion next to him. Their outfits were the exact same opposites. Bright and dark.

"Nope! I would think about something entirely different than conditions." Gion said while smiling.

"Yeah, but your problem is that you can't think at all…" Someya replied.

"Don't get to full of yourself, you filthy okama." Kanou said. Ayase looked at the three fuss makers, with constantly the same smile on his face.

"Ayase-kun!" Someya said out of the blue and he walked straight to Ayase, ignoring the insulting words of Kanou. He took Ayase's hand. "How are you?" he asked sweet.

"…Fine…thank you…" Ayase replied softly.

"So, you can go to school? Never thought that a bast…" He was so busy talking that he did not notice Kanou's fist now hitting his head. He immediately let go of Ayase's hand once again.

"You do realise that the 'bast' is right behind you." Kanou said assuming. Ayase looked up at Kanou but immediately looked away when he noticed that Kanou was staring at him. His gaze wandered to Gion, who waved with a smile.

"Hey, Aya-chan!" He said happily.

"Hi… Gion-san…" Ayase replied.

"So… nii-chan sends you off to school? Maybe he's sick of you coming here?" Gion said it with a smile so it was probably meant to be a joke, but Ayase felt a cold stab in his chest which didn't make him feel like laughing.

"You feel like drowning in Tokyo Bay, Moron?!" Kanou almost yelled out.

"No… never mind…" Gion said frightened.

"Why are you guys here anyway?" Kanou asked, a bit more friendly for Ayase looked at him with a painful look on his face.

"Just a visit." Someya said, looking at his fingernails with adoration.

"How about letting me film you guys now?" Gion asked. The blush appeared on the little blond's face again.

"How about you just go home?" Kanou said with a penetrating mean face.

"Does that mean, I can stay?" Someya asked shocked.

"I said you, and meant you in plural form… which means, I never said you could stay…"

"Well… I can't stay anyway… I have a business to run…"

"Then leave…"

"… I don't like to give in to you but… I have no choice… I've got to go…" Somewhere between these words you could hear Kanou whisper something that was meant to look like 'finally', but it seemed like only Ayase heard it. "Bye Ayase-kun." He said with a sweet smile. Ayase nodded and waved while Someya gave Kanou an extremely mean look. He made a graceful turn and left the room, ignoring the two bigger men completely.

"Don't you have to go…" Kanou said giving his look again.

"Ow… I just got here…" Gion whined

"So, get out! We were talking!"

"You can talk while I'm here." He tried.

"Nice try, get out!" Gion sighed and left the room quietly but then suddenly turned.

"Bye Aya-chan!!" He yelled. The little blue eyed boy looked up in a shock but then said a friendly goodbye to the man. Somehow he wanted to be alone with Kanou now too. First of all, he let him go to school anyway so… being alone with him (to talk) wasn't such a bad idea.

"Well…" the big man sighed while plopping in his office chair. "For the conditions." Ayase looked at him and gave him a smile.

"…Yes!" He nodded.

"It are the same ones as last time…" Kanou continued. Ayase gave him a shocked look.

"… But…" he started, but then it came through to him that protesting to Kanou would have no use, so he bit his lip.

"… 'But' what?" Kanou asked, now standing up and walking closer to the little blond one.

"Nothing…"

"Go on… ask me… I won't be angry…" he gave a sweet smile.

"…Well…I…uhm…does it mean Kuba has to come too?"

"Yes, of course."

"Well… I… can you please… let him stay here?"

"No, I cannot let that happen…"

"…but… Kanou-san…"

"No, I won't! You want the same thing to happen as last time, what do you think would've happened if Kuba wouldn't have been there?!"

"…I…" Kanou was right, the last time… but that was something entirely different! This was a class full of girls! So nothing would happen!

"He comes with you, Ayase, you're way too weak to go there alone, trust me it is safer." Ayase was shocked. 'Weak'? Kanou called him weak? He had a girly body, an adorable face and wasn't as strong as Kanou was, but does that mean that… he's weak? Not being like Kanou was being weak.

"Weak?" Ayase said. His eyes overflowing with tears.

"…Aya… why are you crying…?" Kanou asked, a bit shocked.

"I'm not weak!" Ayase cried. "I might not be like you, Kanou-san, but I am not weak!"

"…" Kanou was speechless and only could reach out a hand to Ayase. He lay the hand on Ayase's shoulder, but it was quickly slapped away from there. "Wh… you…"

"Don't touch me!" The blue eyed boy yelled. The big man gave an angry but still hurt look to see the one he loved most cry like this. "So… everyone who is not like you is weak?!" The tears kept coming. Kanou felt guilty. He wanted to say sorry a thousand times but his voice could not say the word.

"…I…" was the only thing that appeared out of him.

"No! Shut up! I don't want to hear!" Ayase shook his and turned to the door. Kanou quickly grabbed for his arm and turned him back around. "No! Let me go!!" He threw his arms around the little boy's body. He didn't mean to hurt him, but wasn't it the truth that this boy was… weak? He could never handle something by himself and always got into trouble. Most of the time trouble that the boy didn't even notice being there himself. The dark eyed man was so far away in his thoughts that he did not notice the other's hand now hitting his face. His grip loosened and the boy could escape. "Just leave me alone!" the boy yelled and Kanou watched the one he loved most leave the room with a (for the second time and by the same person) scratch below his eye.

Ayase locked himself up in the bedroom. For the first time in his life he wanted nobody around. Deep inside he knew Kanou was right… he knew he was weak and Kanou only told the truth, but in one way or another he did not expect Kanou to say it that way, so sudden, so… painful. Somebody knocked on the door. Ayase looked up.

"Ayase… it's me…" Kanou voice said from the other side of the door.

"Please go away… I want to be alone…" The little boy said.

"I'll go right away, promised, but I have to say something."

"… than say it now and leave…"

"Can't you just open the door for one minute? I promise I won't do anything." Promising something like that was very dangerous, especially when it came out of Kanou's mouth, but then again, every time Kanou promised something, it turned out that he kept to his word. Ayase stood up slowly. His hands removed the lock from the door and slowly opened it. His eyes met Kanou's.

"What is it?" Ayase asked and his gaze went of to the floor.

"I'm sorry." The big man said with a lot of trouble. Ayase cried again.

"Stop it! You know yourself that you're not sorry at all! If that's why you came… than please leave now! I… I want to be alone!" Ayase closed the door again and put the lock on it.

"… I'm really sorry!" Kanou yelled.

"Now, you're saying it because it is eight a clock in the evening and you want to get inside the bedroom!"

"… that is not true…"

"… you know what, you can sleep on the couch! I don't want to see you right now!" all of a sudden it turned quiet. Ayase heard footsteps leaving away from the door. Maybe he was too rude… maybe he had really hurt Kanou-san… maybe he really was sorry. He thought it over again and again, whether he did something wrong or not and got dressed in the way to big pyjamas. He felt a cold shiver and still felt guilty for what he did, while actually, he wasn't even sure whether he did something wrong or not. The room was so big, as was the bed. Too big for one little person, to big for one 'weak' little person… Ayase fell asleep crying, this thought spinning through his mind.