A/N: So I'm sure you all have a few questions: Did I disappear off the face of the earth? What the hell happened to me? The answer is no and well, I don't know. I am most definitely not excusing me pretty much going AWOL but I am really really sorry! So for all of you out there, still reading this story, here is the next chapter…

As always, I don't own anything in relation to Twilight!

BPOV

I awoke with a start and the first thing I realized was that this was not my room. Slowly I started to recall last night's events and I quickly turned to space beside me.

Edward. He lay peacefully, oblivious to the fact that I was awake. Now what? Should I go back to sleep and wait for him to wake up? Should I wake him up romantically with a kiss, (like they do in movies)? What was the time?

I spotted my purse, sitting on a pile of my clothes. I slowly got out of bed; I decided I didn't want to wake Edward just yet. I started digging through it quickly and pulled out my mobile.

15 missed calls and 5 new messages, all from Alice. Shit, she's going to kill me; she was probably worried about me and wondering why the hell I didn't show up at home last night.

Ugh I'll deal with that later, I glimpsed at the clock I had set as my mobile's screen saver; 7:00 am. That gave me plenty of time to get home, get dressed and make it back here in time for work.

I glanced back at Edward's sleeping form and suddenly it dawned on me. What had I done? I had sex with my boss. What was wrong with me? Wasn't it my own rule to never mix business and pleasure, so why did I break it? But god if last night wasn't amazing…wait, what the hell was wrong with me? I had sex with my boss. I had sex with my boss. I had sex with my boss.

I willed myself to shut up. Repeating it over and over again isn't going to make it go away Bella; at the end of the day, you would've still had sex with your boss. Isn't talking to yourself the first sign of insanity?

I need to get out of here; I need some fresh air. I grabbed my dress from last night and threw it on, and then I leaned down and picked up the scraps of black lace lying on the floor. Great, thanks to the 'heat-of-the-moment,' I now had no underwear.

Well it's not like I've never left the house without one before. Wow! Now I sound like a major slut. I shook my head trying to clear my thoughts. Think positive Bella, think positive– great I'm talking to myself again.

I stuffed the ripped up and useless lace in my purse and did a quick scan of the room, checking that I wasn't leaving anything behind. My gaze landed on Edward, I'm so sorry Edward. Slowly I walked up to him and resisted the temptation of touching him – knowing it would probably wake him up– even if he did look unbelievably adorable, his face soft, his usually creased forehead completely smooth.

I really have to get out of here before I do something stupid! I grabbed my things and all but ran out of the room, taking care not to slam to door behind me. Thank god I brought my car and didn't just get a lift with Alice and Jasper. I spotted my car easily enough and hopped in, speeding off home.

I ran up to my apartment and opened the heavy door with a thud; I jumped when I saw a shirtless Jasper and Alice –who was wearing his shirt– standing in the kitchen staring at me.

Of course Jasper would be here, I didn't even think of that, how stupid could I get? No comment… I immediately became self conscious of my appearance and unhappily realized I was sporting the I-just-got-fucked look.

"Bella?" Alice questioned warily as if she still had some doubt it could be me. Right it couldn't be me; innocent, shy, frigid little Bella.

I sighed, "It's me Alice."

"What," she started slowly, "happened to you?"

"I had sex with Edward last night," it all just came tumbling out before I could stop myself and actually think about what I was saying. I heard two shark intakes of breath and looked up to see Alice and Jasper gawking at me with wide eyes.

Crap, I forgot about Jasper being there– again. Not only was he my boss but he was also Edward's brother and I just told him his brother pretty muck fucked me if that's what you want to call it, somehow making love just didn't seem right at that moment.

So not only had I majorly fucked up, I didn't actually know if Edward wanted to reveal that bit of information to his brothers as of yet. Oh well, too late now! I cleared my throat pointedly and rolled my eyes at the now unresponsive pair standing in front of me.

Alice quickly recovered, "ummm oh ok." I rolled my eyes again, typical Alice, first she convinces me to pretty much throw myself at him and then when it actually happens, she's in shock.

"Well as much as I'm enjoying this little conversation, I have to go get ready for– work." If I still had job, was it possible for them to actually fire me because I had sex with my boss? I didn't bother for a response and ran into my room, grabbing my clothes and running into the bathroom for a much needed shower.

30 minutes and one extremely hot shower later I was stumbling around my room looking for my other heel. I ignored the vibrations my phone was making against the dressing table and continued digging around. The phone eventually stopped ringing but only for a second, then it started ringing again.

That was the way it had been going almost non-stop for the past half an hour. Edward's name would flash across the screen until it would go to voicemail, only to start flashing again. I found my other shoe, slipped it on and then collapsed onto the bed slowly reaching for my phone. 30 missed calls and 15 messages, shit; the truth was that I just didn't know what to say.

Hi Edward, the sex was amazing but I think I just made the biggest mistake of my life? Hi Edward, I think I have feelings for you but I'm sorry for walking out on you this morning, like that? Hi Edward, you're my boss and I'm your secretary, fucking around wasn't in my job description.

No, nothing seemed right; nothing fitted the perfect explanation criteria. I knew I had to think and think fast, there was absolutely no way I wouldn't see him at work today, I mean after all that is kind of impossible when he's your boss.

So on my way to work I thought hard about what I could say to him. Turns out I didn't need to because like always, nothing goes accordingly to the way you plan it out in your head.

I briefly noted that he was standing at the main entrance waiting for me, yet for some insanely strange reason, I ended up dodging him so that it looked like I hadn't seen him standing there at all.

I could feel his penetrating gaze cutting into me; I could feel his almost silent footsteps, softly approaching me. "Bella, are you avoiding me?"

His smooth velvety voice was irresistible and as much as I tried otherwise I couldn't stop myself from looking up into his eyes. Of course I was avoiding, not by choice but out of desperation and I longed to tell him the truth but reflexively I denied it. "Avoiding you? Edward, of course I'm not avoiding you."

He crossed his arms across his chest, the strong muscles in his arms straining against the thin fabric of his shirt. "Then why haven't you returned any of my calls?"

"Calls what calls?" Even to my own ears my voice sounded completely surprised, guess I was better at this pretending game, better then I thought I would be. I fumbled through my bag clumsily, at one stage almost dropping it, the nervous wreck I was.

Finally finding my phone I swiftly pulled it out, the now 36 missed calls and 17 unread messages blinked across my screen, quite obviously. "Those calls, right, I umm had my phone on vibrate and I didn't notice. I'm so sorry!"

He shook his head, "Bella is everything ok?"

"Why yes Edward, why wouldn't it be?" I asked in a polite and formal tone.

"Is this about last night?" He asked, his forehead creasing up with confusion. "Do you…regret what happened?" Regret, did I regret what happened?

Sure I'd said it may have been the biggest mistake of my life, but now standing here in front of an expectant Edward, the question hanging thickly in air, did I regret what happened?

The answer came to me almost instantly, "No Edward," I stated softly, "I don't regret what happened last night." Then as an after thought I added, "Never in a million years, but we do need to talk about it, preferably soon?"

Edward nodded understandingly and it total agreement and then pulled me towards his office. He slammed the door shut with a click, as soon as we were inside. Then he pinned me against the wall and hitched my leg over his waist, attacking my lips with is own. Well this is definitely not how I envisioned talking but whatever…

A/N: So here we go the next chapter. I'm really very sorry about my sudden disappearance for practically half a year. I will update hopefully soon, please don't give up on me or this story, I need you all so much more then you think. Let me know what you thought of the chapter with a quick review and this time I'll try and get round to actually replying to everyone.