-1Safe Inside Myself:

They thought I was crazy. Jude and Callum. Jude more, he never tried to understand like Callum did. How could he? How could either of them really? I told Mum and Dad not to tell them. They didn't have a clue and all they saw was their big sister gone crazy. That was fine by me though. They could keep their segregated reality, the real world. I had a much better existence in my mind, in my own world. See I even sound crazy but I don't care. In that world Jed's dead and Lynette is crazy. In my world Jed's alive with me and we're happy. There's no one to tear us apart. No one to say it's wrong. It's not wrong. Love is never wrong. I love him. He loves me. He'd do anything for me and me for him.

'Lynny' His voice is always soft, always loving. I feel his smile, his warm radiance. I long to throw my arm around him but just hearing his is enough some of the time 'I love you' He always reminds me. He never fails to tell me that. I knew it, I'd never forget it but he tells me anyway. 'You're colour doesn't matter to me, never has, never will. 'You'll always be my beautiful, beautiful, Lynette McGregor'

'I love you, too, Jed, forever and always' I tell him. The words in my head coming straight from the heart. 'Nothing else matters, just you and me, baby. Just you and me.'

'Always' he promises me and he means it. Each and every time he always meant it. It will be us forever. Me and my Jed.

There are times I live in the past and it feels like it's now. As I remember Jed hugging me, kissing me, holding me I really feel his warm, protective arms wrapping around me. I feel his gently, loving lips on mine. I always feel safe with him. Nothing can hurt me when Jed is here fighting my corner, telling everyone we're together because were in love:

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Love' he says 'that feeling in the heart when the other person's life becomes more important to you that you'll own. When you'll do anything for that person' he pauses. 'I don't expect you to understand what I'm saying. You've let the society make you so bitter and segregated than you won't know what true love it' he slips an arm around my neck and leans slightly towards the person he's having a go at, as if he's telling them something secret. 'Let me tell you this for free. It's the most amazing feeling ever being here with my Lynny McGregor.' He moves back to his original position his arm still around my neck protectively. 'So you go back to your sad sad loveless life but leave me and Lynny out of it. We're not hurting anyone, but your harsh opinions are'

To prove Jed's point even more, before the man (a Cross this time, but it's been noughts before) had even walked away I turn to Jed and kiss him, my arms wrapping themselves around his neck. Just how it should be. Always, just how it should be.

That's why I'm here and not there. There holds never for me. Here holds the man love forever. I'll never go back to that world; I love Jed too much to lose him.

A/N: If this is confusing, and completely crazy then I have been successful. Just a little peep into Lynny's head!