Laid

YinGYang1

Chapter 1

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It was just supposed to be a one-time thing. I just wanted to do it and be done with it. And it had started out that way, surely. But of course, things can never be that simple.

I was newly out of high school and wanted to have some fun. Despite what everyone thought, I had never actually had sex with anyone. I had had a few girlfriends, but none lasted more than a couple of weeks and most lasting only a week or less.

Looking back, I know that this could only be because I had no interest in dating women. I could never say anything about this to anyone, though, because all but a select few in my school and no one at home would even acknowledge that men could like men – or that women could like women, for that matter. Only a few in the whole damn school could even stand to say the word "gay" without cringing in disgust.

I was lucky enough to have one such person as my best friend, but we really couldn't talk about homosexuality in general, let alone as it pertained to our lives, for fear that someone might overhear our conversation and report it to either the teachers or our parents. Intolerance was a gross understatement. I had my suspicions about Axel, my best friend, being into men, but I never felt like we had enough privacy to talk to him about any of it.

So when graduation came and went, and I moved to a dorm in a town 700 miles away, I couldn't help but feel relieved. Axel decided on a college in a town about 50 miles from where I went to school, but we rarely saw each other, save for the special trip we made every month or so to see each other. One such trip fell on my birthday weekend.

By then, we had been in college for a whole semester and a half. I had done a lot of reflecting during that time, and decided that enough was enough. I couldn't help it that I liked men and not women. I couldn't help that I didn't want to remain a virgin all my life. I couldn't help that I abhorred the idea of sex with a woman and would practically gag whenever the notion was mentioned in reference to me.

I decided that enough was enough and I wasn't going to hide any longer. "So, what do you wanna do for your birthday? The usual dinner and a movie?" Axel asked me over the phone on the Wednesday before the big weekend. I heaved a big sigh.

"Well, I know what I wanna do, but…" I trailed off, having a last-minute struggle with myself over whether or not I should say what's on my mind. "There's something I've gotta tell you, Ax," I said despairingly.

"Oooh, let me guess! You've got a crush on someone!" he said. I rolled my eyes although I knew he couldn't see it.

"No. Look, I just have to say it before I chicken out, okay?" I said.

"Aww, you're no fun," commented the redhead, although I was sure he was smiling on the other end. Ignoring his complaint, I kept going.

"I-I think I'm gay, Ax." There was a moment of silence before I heard peels of laughter. "I'm serious!"

Calming down enough to speak, the redhead replied, "I know, I'm sorry. It's just that it's about fucking time, Riku!" I blinked in confusion.

"What do you mean? What's 'about time'?" I asked.

"Riku, Riku, Riku. We've known each other for how long now? Since birth practically? You don't have to tell me everything I know about you, you know. I have my ways of finding things out even if you don't want me to."

"You mean you knew!? What the fuck, Axel! Why didn't you say anything? You could've saved me a lot of anxiety, you know!" I yelled into the receiver, only to be met with more laughter.

"I said nothing for the same reasons you said nothing. By the way, while we're on the topic, I am too." I was speechless. I couldn't string two words together to form an intelligible sentence to save my life.

"Wha? But you…I mean, I…I mean I knew…you mean…WHAT!?" I sputtered as this information sunk in.

"Woah, one thing at a time, Ri. Anyway, now that we've got all that out in the open, what do you wanna do for your birthday?" he chuckled.

I sputtered for another few moments before I regained my wits and remembered what it was that I wanted so badly. "As wrong as it may sound, I . . . . . I wanna get laid."

Hope you enjoyed and stay tuned for chapter 2! This will be a 4-part fic.

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