Summary: Kim's platonic love is Jared. Whatever,cuz Kim doesn't do boyfriends. She's way cooler, or so she thinks. When Jared is not so platonic anymore, things get a bit complicated. A whacked out chick and a freaking werewolf surely make a hell of a story.

a/N: Okay so I'm having like a major writer's block, I need to update two of my stories, plus another story on another secret account i have lol. And i have like pieces of everything and I can't finish the chapters so instead of working on those I came up with these little crazy story. A totally different Kim, don't get me wrong I love Kim and Jared but I wanted to do something different with Kim.

I go ballistic! Yeah you're making me a crazy chick

1. Kind of a slut but not so much.

"Kimmie, Keemo, KiiiiiMM!!! Get your rounded ass here this instant!" One of my friends, Lexie most likely yelled. These girls know nothing of private space. I should teach them a thing or two. But who am I kidding, I love them. I grew up with them, after all La Push is really small. We have a population 364, so people are close, they don't have a choice. At least most of them are, there quite a few exceptions..

I finished stashing some of my books in the locker and made my way into our classroom

Of course they were laughing, they stopped to asses my expression.

"She's in a good mood" Sarah piped in. I was a bit known for my mood swings. I tended to be a bitch sometimes. I only grinned wider at Sarah, she on the other hand was all sweet and mellow. Completely calm and a little bit shy at times. Of course nothing like Lexie who was attention craving freak, pretending not to and quite a beauty. Maddie and I balanced them, her taking a bit more on Sarah's sweet side and shyness and me drawing attention to myself sometimes, just not in a good way.

As I said before we were really close, sleep overs, shopping, vacations, experimenting kissing each other.. yeah we were that close. We were so close we could even go to bathroom together and gossip while one of us was peeing. Okay so we did it once and we were really drunk, but you get the picture of how close we are right?

I took my seat and finally turned to Lexie.

"Your ass is huge while mine is pretty much non existent" I started "I wouldn't yell about my ass for all the school to hear. It's just cruel" I complained.

"Honey I can't say get your rounded boobs here this instant" Lex dismissed me. "Besides I've been waiting to hear about it!!Spill now" I knew there was a reason I was stalling getting to Math. It was the only class the four of shared and I was being submitted to testify about my little escapade on Paul's party.

Damn.!

"You were there. I don't know why you're asking you watched us" I said pulling out my agenda and avoiding her eager gossip eyes.

"Things got pretty heated up" Sarah murmured. People were beginning to take their seats. We had like five minutes tops.

"Shut up. Anton was gasping for air when you guys finally pulled away" I countered. Sarah only blushed red, and Maddie was laughing.

"Okay what we really want to know is if Jared has been replaced in your heart by Paul?" I poked Maddie on her arm with my pencil for asking so loud, anyone could hear.

Jared was this god-like persona. On whom I used to have the biggest crush ever. It started out when I had just turned fourteen. I swear it was like freaking magic. It was a hot day of summer, we were down at the beach enjoying the sun obviously, when I saw him, like really really saw him. He was playing beach volleyball shirtless, rays of light bathing that body of his and I was lost. He was not the most handsome or anything like that. And of course I had seen him plenty of times at school before, but something changed. And it was hello Jared crush.

We haven't kissed, hugged, touched or even talked. We only sit next to each other on our History class. But I don't complain, about a year ago I concluded my feelings or emotions or reactions whatever I get when I think about him or see him it's purely platonic. And I am almost sure it's fading, he's has not been on school for almost 12 days, 13 if he doesn't show today. Not that I'm counting of course.

"I don't think Paul and Jared fall in the same category. I don't even talk to Jared. Jesus. It was purely platonic, and I might be coming out of it. Not that I am crushing on Paul Collins. I'm just entering like a no guys phase" I shuddered. The guy was such a man-whore.

"We'll see. Say Paul" Lexie asked for our little proof. When we were freshmen we discovered we couldn't help smiling, grinning or laughing when we said the name of a guy we were crushing on. It was like the ultimate test to prove if someone was lying or notice a new infatuation.

"Paul" Zip, zero, nada. They were surprised for a moment. But quickly accepted my no interest on the player.

"Jared now" I laughed when Lexie said it. UrgH! Just hearing his name cracked me up. I took a couple of breaths settling into the most serious expression before I uttered the word.

"Jaared" The D did it. My lips curved into a huge showing teeth smile, and my cheeks flushed. Okay so maybe I was still crushing what was the big deal anyways it was not like he was going to start talking to me all of a sudden. Or anything.

After being their little comical relief for a minute or two, we switched topics, and kept joking for the rest of the class.

We were sprawled in the grass trying to come up with ideas for Lexie's newly found interest.

"There's Michael's bash next weekend" Maddie supplied. "Just find out if he's going and.."

"Get him drunk and get it over with "I finished the sentence. Okay so don't get me wrong we weren't sluts or something like that. Okay so maybe we were a little bit. But for one we were all virgins, at least in the technical way since none of us had done the deed per se.

Lexie and me had gone south once. And except for Sarah we had touched and been touched pretty much everywhere. It was not something I was ashamed of, it was just like natural. Besides we hardly kept a relationship. We had the bad luck of falling for the wrong guys when we entered our teen years.

Daydreaming about impossible love shuts you down from the real world and makes you reject the others. So we didn't date in our early years much, and then when we were old enough to go out we didn't want to date. We wanted to party. We went solo, all girls, and it's inevitable getting attention from males. Problem is you are not going to meet Mr. Right going clubbing, or playing pool, or at parties full of beer.

When we had tried dating, it was disaster, we got bored doing usual dating activities and in the night it was problematic, since boyfriends tend to get all jealous and possessive and it's no fun.

Sarah who did have a boyfriend. Anton. Said our real problem was that we had never fallen in love. Maybe she was right but until that happened we were going to have as much fun as we could.

"I hate to admit it, but I'm bummed he didn't come to school today again" I admitted to Maddie on our walk back home from school.

"I knew he was the reason you yelled at Lex" Maddie said laughing "I'm sure it's nothing, I told you my brother and Seth saw him out on the beach with Sam"

"Sam? As in Sam Uley?" I asked confused. Maddie nodded. She hadn't mentioned Sam or I would've rememebered. See. Jared and Sam were never friends when Sam was in high school. Quite the contrary. You see my Jared was really close to his girlfriend back then, ergo they didn't get along.

"Who else do you know by the name of Sam. Anyways he looked fine, a little buffer Brady said but that's good" Maddie kept talking about buff guys, and tight butts. And I was lost.

You can't blame I'm seventeen, hormonal and horny. Just like a guy.

Who says girls aren't allowed to

"Stop it Paul" I said trying to ignore him.

"What now I can't seat next to you?" He asked defensively putting his hands in front of his face protectively. I huffed, I wasn't going to hit him. So I did have a fame for hitting people, but only those who were close to me.

Paul was definitely not on my list of close friends. Did I forget to mention he has a girlfriend, well had. They broke up on Friday, and we snogged on Saturday. Which would explain why she and her posse are glaring directly at me. And well, I am no sucker for drama it's just that how long was he supposed to mourn, I'm sure I was just the rebound. And he's always been annoying. To my defense I was pretty drunk and he looked hot. Okay so I lied I was a tid bit attracted to Paul, but it was purely physical.

The boy knows how to kiss, how to hold your hair, your face, your neck…

I stopped myself, this was wrong and he needed to leave. Jared could come today and that was his seat, and over him or not. I liked sitting next to him. History was boring and I needed to keep myself distracted.

I was about to shoo him again when I felt being shadowed by someone.

"That's my seat" My Jared said. I tried to shut down the stupid butterflies that were doing laps up and down my stomach.

"There's another seat there" Paul sneered pointing to the bench on my other side. Jared mumbled something like fine, and sat there. He didn't even acknowIedge me, who did he think he was. Urgh! Stupid rushing blood, stupid cheeks, I was flushed.

"So, what are you doing on Friday?" Paul asked oblivious to the fact thar Mr. Jones had already started his lecture.

"Michael's" I replied. Starting to take notes. So maybe I was going to be forced to pay attention for once. Between Jared and his non polite ways and Paul's annoying smirks and not so PG-13 remarks I had no choice.

"Maybe I'll see you there"

"Maybe you will" Okay so I was so going to make out with him. Damn it Kim, get a pair, and restrain yourself. Sometimes I really think God had gave us the wrong brains, Lexie said we thought a lot like boys sometimes, when maybe we should be into Zac Efron giggling like stupid girls over makeup and those things, instead of being horny and scheming to kiss guys at random parties.

Maybe that was the solution, maybe I could ask Jared to Michael's party and get him drunk and make out with him....

That would be sweet. But who was I kidding I didn't talk to the guy. But well he might go to the party.

And maybe only maybe we could wind up together.

Yeah right.

I was so snogging Paul again.

Urgh!

A/n: DON'T BE MEAN AND I KNOW KIMS SUPPOSED TO BE SHY LALALA DIFFERENT KIM....LOL I HOPE NO ONE IF OFFENDED WITH HOW'S KIM AND HER FRIENDS... and paul is not in love with kim or will be or anything of that sort..... no mushy stuff