The sound of yelling voices from outside lifted me from the bed where i lay listening to my playing music to the window overlooking the front of the house. i scanned outside looking for the reason for the loud voices, she caught my eye first.. Bella. Trying to pull a suitcase from a women's grasp.. trying without success.

"STOP ARGUING WITH ME ISABELLA" The women yelled hate flowing throughout every word she spoke to her. I wanted to help Bella, the expression she had made my heart ache to hold her close and tell her nothing would ever cause her pain again, that everything would be okay but i knew this was something she wouldn't want me to intervene in. I knew by now when she needed to be alone and handle things be herself even if i killed me to watch her do it.

Bella stepped back from the women and spoke quieter, i couldn't here what she said but what ever it was she didn't take it well because not long after more yelling began. She tried pulling the case again only to fall and have it land on her.

"I'm not leaving" she told her "You can't force me to leave!"

So that was what was happening, she was making Bella leave. I couldn't help but feel a little better hearing Bella say she wouldn't be forced to leave.. was it me that made her want to stay? i hoped so. I was 100% truly in love with her, it pained me to imagine her leaving.. i wouldn't be able to cope and truthfully i didn't know if Bella would either.. would she make another attempt once gone? would it be successful? my heart stopped at the thought of it. Would she have someone to save her?

"I am your mother" she spoke slowly with so much hate it was unbearable "you will do whatever i tell you too. Without. Complaint"

so that was who this women was.. Bella's mother? how could her mom hate her so much.. there was no way to hate her.. she was beautiful, smart, talented.. the love of my life. she spoke again but again it was too quiet to hear from up here. i could see Emmett and Jasper at the opening of the garage looking over at them curiously not knowing if it would be wise to interfere. Not soon after her mother spoke the unheard words Bella jumped up from the ground and ran out of the drive down towards the... docks.

i stood standing by the window stunned. she promised - was all that went around my mind, she had told me she wouldn't try anything anymore.. she told me that was it. it was over. And yet she goes running off to make another attempt to end her life over this.. was i not worth fight for? did she mean nothing she said? she lied and i believed it all.. i felt like such a fool.. i guess it's true what they love it blind.. because i didn't see through any of it.

Was it worth trying to convince her not to do it? she had clearly made her choice and it was the one that involved not having me so was there any point in going and stopping her? Probably not and yet my body was being pulled towards the door. i hesitated again... why should i bother? She doesn't care. a knock on my door disturbed my inner voice from the hundreds of questions.

"Edward?... You should go.." i opened the door and looked into her brown eye's seeing nothing but her certainty.

"Alice.. i don't know.."

"She needs you.. i may not know the whole story but i know you love her and she loves you in return... she is obviously confused and.. scared? worried of the fact she could be forced to leave.. made to leave you.. You have to go Edward. Stop her from making a huge mistake" as if it would be that simple.. just a little pep talk? She doesn't know Bella very well.. i could only hope she would have a chance too.. i ran passed her and raced out the door to reach her.. to try yet again to stop her from ending her life.. to stop her from taking herself out of my own.