Ummm...so here's another update, I know I haven't updated in a while. I'm not going to make up any excuses or anything, I just haven't felt like writing. So, anyways....

Disclaimer: I seriously don't understand why they make us write these things. The sites called FAN-fiction so obviously if I was the amazing Stephanie Meyer I wouldn't be writing on fan-fiction.

Recap

Jasper's word were going through my 'I can feel the hurt and love coming off of her.' I can feel the hurt and love...does that mean she still loves me like I love her?

Bella's POV

I eventually got off my bed and made my way to the shower and hopped in. Feeling the water run down made me feel a little better but than I remembered that in just a few short hours, I would be at school, knowing that Edward was somewhere.

I sighed, I wonder what he wanted to talk about? Maybe he didn't want me around his family, maybe he wanted me to get the hell away from him? Maybe I was messing with all his lovely distractions?

Distractions. I still don't understand what he meant by his kind was easily distracted. I mean I've been trying for one hundred years to be distracted from his memory only to feel the hurt when I was trying.

Maybe I was just weird, maybe like my inability to remember when I was changed or the pain I was in when I was being changed. All I remember was waking up and I was a vampire.

I sighed again and looked at the clock. Damn, seven. I have to get ready for school. I quickly raced to my closet to find something to wear.

I decided to wear my red plaid button up t-shirt with a pair of black skinny jeans. Quickly put my brown hair up into a ponytail and slipped on my hightops. Looking at the clock again, I realized I still had twenty minutes before I needed to be at school. I decided I would just head to school now, there was no harm in being early for once in my vampire life. I grabbed my bag, locked the door and was in my car in the matter of two minutes.

I arrived at school ten minutes before classed started. I looked around and noticed the Alice and Jasper walking away from Edward. I hope they weren't hard on him last night after I ran away, I mean it wasn't entirely his fault.

I took a deep breath and walked past him towards Alice and Jasper.

"Hey Alice, hey Jasper" I called.

They stopped walking and turned around, before I could even blink, Alice had launched herself at me and was now giving me a hug that if I was still a human my bones would've shattered.

Jasper laughed and attempted to pull his wife off of me.

"Alice," he laughed again, " I think you should let go of poor Bella."

"Oh, right, I just missed you so much, I thought you might've disappeared after last nights visit with us. Are you going to come over tonight? Please, please, please?" Alice said in one breath.

"Why would I've disappeared? I've missed you guys too much just to disappear." I told them, avoiding her questions.

"You didn't answer Alice's question, Bella," Jasper told me, he must of felt my fear because he quickly continued, " Edward," I flinched, "will be on his best behavior, Esme misses you and we didn't have nearly enough time to catch up."

"Okay, I'll think about" I already had my mind up when he brought Esme into the conversation. I missed her so much Carlisle and her were like second parents to me and I missed them just as much as I miss my parents now.

"Yay! Thank you, Bella! Thankyouthankyouthankyou!!!!" Alice started to hug me again. I guess saw my decision. "See you after school!" With that the bell rang and we went our separate ways.

The first part of school and lunch went by in a flash, I didn't see any of the Cullens since I had to stay after class for detention for throwing a book at Brick's head. It wasn't my fault that he ducked and it hit the teacher.

The next period flew by and than It was time for the only class I have with one of the Cullens, and I'm glad that it's Jasper.

I walked in the class, surprised to find my usual seat empty and Jasper sitting in the seat next to it. I smiled and walked to the seat.

"Hello," I said to Jasper.

"Hello Bella," he replied.

Jasper and I continued to talk too quietly for the humans. Before I knew it, the bell rang and it was time to head over to the Cullen's and face Edward once again. I quickly told Jasper that I'd meet them at their house since I have my car.

The drive over to the Cullen's was surprisingly fast and it didn't give me too much time to think it through, think about how much I didn't want to see Edward, let alone talk to him. I love him so much and I can't bear to hear him say that he doesn't want be again, how I'm not good for him.

I sighed, as I opened my car door, once again into a house with a family I've loved for so long.

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