Since what I have to say is too long and boring to put at the beginning, you can look for my apology at the end of the chapter. Now, please begin the long-awaited (sorry!) Chapter 17!!!! I suggest re-reading Chapter 16 to remind yourself of what's happening…..

6:30 the alarm clock read. Its annoying buzzing had woken me up with a start. Ugh, I didn't even set it….stupid piece of plastic. I shut it off and rolled over with a yawn. I started dozing off…….

THUD! I shrieked as I was pounced on by a crazy woman, aka my aunt, Alice.

" You did not wake up to the alarm I set Renesmee! I have to get you ready for school!" she scolded.

School, schmool, pool. Hey swimming sounds good today! Wait a sec…..School. Today. First Day. All this equals a certain death for one mixed up vampire/human child dating a werewolf. Oh fun.

I fell out of bed while Aunt Alice smiled and laughed.

"Much better. Go take a shower and I'll be here when you finish."

I let the warm water work the nerves out of my body. I'd never been so nervous before; now I finally understood the term "butterflies in my stomach." I finished quickly, not wanting to waste any time.

As I got into my favorite silk robe I entered my room again. My first view was Ali lecturing into the phone with a frustrated tone.

"Jacob Black! You better get your wolfy butt out of that bed right now! So help me God if you make me come out there!" The mouthpiece buzzed as it absorbed the frantic yells.

Slowly I crept over to my window and pulled the pink fuzzy curtain back. I giggle when I saw Jacob's "house" pitch black. Obviously he didn't take too well to the alarm clock either.

"NO! You can't call in sick on the first day of school! What are you smoking?" she said in horror.

I could only hear fierce murmuring on the other side of the phone as my sleepy boyfriend replied.

"Fine. Don't come. Nessie can look single and have to face the hundreds of hormonal boys at school alone…" she said smugly, letting the words sink in.

I laughed as every light in the guest house turned on instantly. Jacob opened a window and started to growl at Alice until he saw me.

My heartbeats became irregular as I ran my eyes over his body. His hair was tousled from sleep but yet it looked strangely perfect. He was wearing a white sleeveless shirt with basketball shorts that showed off his muscular form.

The beams of the rising sun reflected off of his russet skin. He was perfect for me and I loved him for it. I smiled as I saw his eyes not-so-subly run over my short robe.

"Good Morning! I'm sorry!" I yelled at him..

Chuckling he replied with an eye roll, "It's okay. Anything for you Nessie."

I grinned and said, " Uh huh. I'm gonna remember that promise. But I love you…."

I watched him smile as he began to reply but then I was thrown back into my room by my impatient aunt. A small gasp escaped my lips and I was certain that my face was shocked.

Faint laughing came from the direction of Jacob's room as I was dragged to Alice and Jasper's bathroom. The only purpose of it is to hold Alice's hair and make-up products.

I could hear various family members getting ready for our day. Mom and Dad were in their room listening to music, probably analyzing how close Jacob and I are allowed to get or if I was allowed to touch him in any way. I hated how controlling they could be over our relationship.

Uncle Emmett was pleading with Grandpa. I could only make out pieces of their conversation.

"Please?!?.....won't run too fast…..cross country!," he begged.

"NO! You'd inevitably try to show off!," I heard quite clearly because Carlisle yelled so loudly.

Aunt Rose cam in for a few minutes with breakfast. I didn't eat much, just nibbled on some blueberry Pop-Tarts.

Finally Aunt Alice declared I was finished. I turned to the mirror and beamed at the reflection. My hair had been pulled up I the front so it swept across my forehead. The curls were big and bounced across my back.

For makeup she had applied some purple eye shadow with a white shimmer. A thin line of eyeliner and a coat of mascara were the final touches. My eyes looked sparkly and bubbly, softening my face so it would be less intimidating.

She came rushing in with my outfit. The top was a Saks Fifth Avenue original, a soft pink silk sleeveless top with dainty lace-like straps. A mildly low cut in the front gave me awesome cleavage. It was perfectly paired with deep blue skinny jeans and 5 inch hot pink Jessica Simpson pumps.

When I put everything on, I just had that feeling that I looked good. Once again Aunt Alice had picked a perfect outfit.

"Ready to go?" I heard Mom ask as she bustled into the room.

"Oh Renesmee! You're gorgeous!," she said after seeing me. It was when she pulled me into her arms when I realized what I had gotten myself into.

Nerves began to set in as I gripped Mom in a hold that would break normal human bones. She stroked my hair gently, as not to mess up Alice's masterpiece and murmered,

" Sweetie, it's going to be great, you just don't know it yet. I promise everything will go perfectly fine."

I glanced up and forced a smile as she tried to life my ever-falling spirits. When she realized her pep talk wasn't that successful she said the magic words.

" And besides, there is an anxious werewolf downstairs who can't wait to see you…."

Releasing Mom at once, all of us laughed. With a final check in the mirror, I made sure everything looked good. I walked human speed down the stairs to walk in the living room.

I could hear Dad grumbling to Uncle Emmett when I finally sat on the couch.

" You're alive! What took so long? I thought you fell in the toilet or something….," Emmett joked.

I stood up when Jacob walked in the rom. He stopped at the doorway, dropping both our bookbags. His eyes widened a little but his smile was like there was no tomorrow.

I beamed back and began to walk over to him because I felt this push to wrap my arms around him and never let go. As I wrapped myself in his arms I realized that my worries were small and petty. Whatever I was about to go through, Jake would be with me and I could get through it.

He lightly grazed my forehead with his lips before we followed the rest of the family to the large garage. Mom, Dad, Alice, and Jasper were in the Volvo, Aunt Rose and Uncle Emmett in the Jeep, leaving Jake and me in the Bentley.

Before pulling out of the garage, Dad asked, "Renesmee. Are you sure you know how to get to school?"

"No Dad. I'm an idiot and I can't figure out the way to my school. Of course I know how," I replied with a smart aleck tone. He frowned but didn't say anything as he left.

As soon as everybody was out of sight I felt arms go around my waist and my body being spun around. Immediately Jake pressed his warm lips to mine. I felt myself go limp at his touch. Comforting yet fierce, I knew I could kiss him forever. I was getting light-headed when he eventually pulled away.

Jacob looked at me for a brief second, his eyes filled with awe. I couldn't understand why he looked so amazed, but I'm glad he was.

" Have I ever told you how breathtakingly beautiful you are?," he whispered.

I rolled my eyes but I was secretly thrilled to pieces.

" Lets think about this…Hmm, I don't know, but I sure love hearing it."

Jake chuckled and threw our bags into the car. I got into the passenger seat, just as he hopped in. Feeling something underneath my bottom, I got us as Jacob pulled as small tube of pink lip gloss out from under me.

Handing me the small object, I realized there was a folded note attached.

Re-apply now. I know you need to, and tell Jacob to wipe it off his face.

XOXO Auntie Alice

I giggled when I finished reading it. She knew us too well. Glancing up, I realized Jake's lips did in fact have random smudges of pink sparkles.

"What's it say?" he said, a confused look evident on his face.

I gave him the paper and silently watched as recognition dawned while his eyes scanned the paper.. I reversed out of the driveway as he frantically wiped his mouth with his large hands.

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The ride to school was relatively short. Jake and I talked a little about his old school in La Push while I tried to settle my ever twisting stomach. Too soon we pulled into the entrance of Salem Academy.

Jacob pointed where I should park and I stopped the Bentley. Right away I knew today was going to be strange. A group of several kids had their eyes glued to my car, Jake, and myself.

Oblivious to the attention, Jacob pulled our backpacks from the backseat and slung both of them on his muscular shoulders. I held his hand as we walked in, but as we approached the large granite building I froze.

All around me these mouth-watering smells were swirling like leaves on a windy day. It seemed as if a tidal wave of deliciousness had hit me. I could feel my venom watering in my mouth and my eyes go steely cold.

Jacob saw what was happening and began to drag me away. I couldn't help but show him a picture of me running to the closest gathering of teenagers, breaking their necks, and sinking my teeth into their warm, pulsing, blood.

When we were far enough away I froze again. My mouth gaped open as I realized what I was becoming. I was seriously considering killing human beings. My breath caught in my throat and I whispered,

" I am a monster." Tears welled up in my eyes and I saw Jacob's face soften from a scowl, before my vision blurred.

I started to crumple, but before I hit the ground, Jacob had me in his arms. I started to sob in his arms as he rubbed my back and tried to comfort me.

"Nessie, baby. You can't help that. Don't be so hard on yourself."

My voice broke while I said, "No, no no! I can't believe myself. I am ruining everything. What's wrong with me? Dad was right…"

That seemed to anger Jacob a bit. Or a lot.

" Stop thinking that right now. It's my fault for not making sure you were prepared for meeting so many people at once. That reaction was natural for you, but I'm sorry it was such a shock. What was I thinking?" his voice trailed off.

When he turned the guilt back on himself, something inside of me triggered off. I didn't want him to think anything was his fault; when he felt upset, it effected me too.

" No it's not your fault! I was stupid and reckless. God, why did I think this was going to be easy?"

He laughed a sorry chuckle and said, " Nothing about our lives is going to be easy. But we just have to deal with it and move on. How about we forget this happened, turn around, and start the day again?"

I nodded my head and wiped all of the conflicting emotions from my mind. There was no way I would be able to live without Jacob. He was my support, guidance, therapist, best friend, and love. Basically Jake was my life and there is no way I could ever repay him. I doubt he could ever understand how much he meant to me.

With a final gulp, I held onto Jacob and faced the school.

He looked at me while wrapping his arm around my waist. He gave me a good, long kiss before starting a slow walk. His grip tightened a bit as we got closer to the door. It was about 8:00 now and the hallway would be packed.

With a final squeeze of my side, he opened the door to Salem Academy.

Okay. I know whatever I say here is not a good enough explanation, so you have every right to be pissed at me. Just imaging hitting me with my laptop in your mind to make yourself feel better. (ouch)

Excuse #1: I've had a rough rough rough last 2 months. School was extremely stressful and I had so much pressure to do well. I'm at a private school and the top student in my class so the workload was tremendous. I simply had no time.

Excuse #2: My heart has been broken. I won't give details, but if it's happened to you then you understand why I wasn't in the mood to continue writing a love story. The way I was, Renesmee would kick Jacob out of her world and be a bitter widow for the rest of her sorry-ass life.

Excuse #3: I got Fifth's Disease. Nothing too serious but I've been feeling awful for the past month.

Excuse #4: I was discouraged. Few people were reviewing anymore so I didn't think my writing was any good. One anonymous author asked for 400 review before she posted a new chapter. 400! Guess what, she got around 650. Yeah, that didn't help.

In conclusion, I would like to assure everybody that I would NEVER quit this story. No matter how long it takes me to post a new chapter, I promise I won't end it half-way through.

Thanks for reading my stuff and supporting me. A very special thanks to saya4haji for listening to my problems in a depressing email. Haha but she got me thinking about things and gave me the push to start writing again. Gracias!