Chapter 11: *Alex's Point Of View*

I walked into my house, yes my house. I wanted to talk to my mother more. But she wasn't home, sadly. I just walked into an empty house. It was creepy. I had so many bad memories come back to me. All that was on was the TV, like it used to be when my dad was here. I cringed at the horrible memories coming back. But I just walked right past it. I needed to get over my fear of being in this house.

I walked up the stairs to my bedroom. I walked over to my dresser where I kept my diary. I hadn't wrote in since I started to date Nate. I hadn't even written about me being pregnant. I needed to. So, I opened the diary slowly. I turned to the last page I had written in, the night that Max saw what my dad was doing to me. It seemed like so long ago.

I opened the diary to a new page, put the date in it, and started to write.

Dear diary. Wow it has been so long since I have written in you. Its been about 5 months actually. A LOT has happened since then. Well, for starters I have a boyfriend, his name is Nate Gray, he is possibly the sweetest guy ever. He is the only guy out of my family that I have trusted with my secret that my dad would beat me. Which brings me to something else, my mom kicked my dad out. Though, I don't think that will end to well. Oh, and guess what? I'm pregnant. Yes, pregnant. When, thanksgiving. With who, Nate. Does he know, NOPE. The father of my child doesn't even know he is going to be a father. I know what you're thinking, 'You should go tell him.' Well, I would but, I'm afraid. I'm afraid that when he finds out he will leave me. That he would go back to Hannah. I know I have a lot of doubts but there really isn't a bright side to this whole situation. I'm pregnant and only 17. What am I supposed to do?

I stopped writing cause I started to cry. What if Nate really would leave me? Would he go back to Hannah? What would happen to me?

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I walked into school. It was the first day back after winter break. I really didn't feel like going because I just didn't. I would be running to the bathroom all the first half of the day. Gosh, I should have told Nate I have the flu.

"Alex! Hey! I have barely seen you all break!" Mitchie said as she ran up to me. "So, have you told Nate yet?" Mitchie said with her voice lowered.

"Is he with Hannah? No, I haven't told him." I said getting into my locker. "And I don't plan on doing so till I absolutely have to, like I have a stomach the size of Texas." I said. Mitchie gave me a look. "It was an exaggeration. Gosh!" I said taking my books out.

Just then the sound of clicking heels got closer and closer to me. "Hey girlies." I heard Sharpay say next to me.

"Hey Sharpay." Mitchie and I said in unison.

"So, how was Christmas break for you girlies? Mine was fabulous. Jason took me to Aspen and it was amazing." Sharpay said happily.

"Mine was pretty good." Mitchie said. "Alex's wasn't all to good." Mitchie said. I glared at her before Sharpay turned and looked at me.

"What happened Lexi?" Sharpay asked me.

"Oh, just some family drama." I said before grabbing my bag from the floor. "Now, if you excused me I have to get to class. I'll see you later Sharpay." I said before grabbing my bag and walking to my class.

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School was boring as always. Nothing really intresting ever happens, well compared to all the messed up things in my life. So, after school I just got Nate to take me home. He had practice at like 7 so he could take me home. I was kind of happy that he wasn't going to be there, it gave me an excuse to not tell him.

"Alex, are you sure you're not sick? I mean, every morning I hear you throwing up in the bathroom and my parents are getting really worried they think that you have some type of flu." Nate said as he drove me home.

"I'm fine Nate." I said as I stared out the window. "I think I have some food allergy." I said before I looked over at him. I wanted to tell him the truth so badly.

"Are you sure cause I think there might be something wrong. Maybe you should go to the doctor." Nate said before looking at me.

Doctor?!?! Okay, that had to be the worst idea Nate has had. I'm so not going to go see a doctor and so the doctor will be like, 'Nate your girlfriend is pregnant and has been for a while now.' Yeah, doctor equals bad idea.

"Um, no. Don't bother. I just have to watch what I eat. I'll be fine." I said as he pulled up into his drive way. "Thanks for the ride." I said giving him a kiss on the cheek and getting out of his truck.

"Call me if you need me. I'll have my phone on me." Nate said before pulling out of the driveway and driving back down to the school to help with the JV practice.

I rushed inside the house and made it upstairs without Franklin or Mrs. Gray saying anything to me. I sat down on Nate's bed, I stared around the room. It didn't feel like this was really my home. I missed my room, well not the blood stains, but yeah, I missed being close to my mom. I hated not seeing her a lot.

I grabbed my backpack and pulled out my homework and started to work on it.

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I looked up from my book and saw Nate come into the room.

"Hey Alex." He said when he sat on his bed next to me.

"Hey Nate." I said as I looked down at my book. I wasn't really in the mood to talk to him. Heck, I didn't even want to be here. I wanted to be with my mom.

He sat next to me. "Are you okay Lexi?" He asked as he rubbed my back softly.

I looked up at him. "I miss being home, with my mom. I guess im just home sick." He looked at me and I knew what he was thinking. "Its not that I don't love being here with you its just. I love my mom and I don't like her being alone."

"I understand Lexi. If I were in your shoes I would miss my mom too." He said before looking down. "So, what do you wanna do? You don't have to stay here if you don't want to."

I just looked at him. He had sadness in his eyes. I never knew he loved me being here so much. "I-I don't know Nate." I said looking down "I just don't know." I whispered.

Sorry this was so short, and it took so long. School is tough. I hate Spanish and i can't even remember any of it. I hate Geometry and Biology, so I'm struggling. And i don't really have time for writing. But I'm trying.

Okay, just so you know, there will be only a few chapters left. I'm making a sequal though. Cause the way I'm ending this one, you guys will freaking hate me for. But the sequal will be amazing. Unlike the sequal to Fighting For Alex. -_-
But just give me time. High School is hell for me, well the classes are. But this probably would have been out yesterday but i went to the corn maze with my bestie Chrissy. I went with her and her sister Angel. They are amazing. Chrissy is my JBBFF(Jonas Brothers Best Friend Forever) along with my other friend Emily. It was amazing. Anyways, next chapter will be out ASAP. I just have to find time to write. *sigh* I hate being a sophomore.