A/n: I don't own it, wish it but no! I can never have it…(sobs) so not fair.

Snape's and Sirius' P.O.V will alternate every chapter, until they will realize about the other one's presence.

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Chapter 1: Ragdoll.

Sirius Black opened his eyes and frowned at the place he found himself in.

Images flashed through his mind; meeting James potter for the first time in his life, thinking that Harry had the exact shape and shade of his mother's eyes, annoying Regulus while his mother and father fought, feeling excited about the acceptance letter the owl delivered, goading Severus Snape in Grimmauld place and him yelling back, fighting with Bella and a red light slamming into his chest, making him fall down the veil of death.

His eyes widened.

Sirius looked around.

He was dead, he knew it was so.

But was this how death looked like?

Kids racing over to great old friends and talk about their summers. Mothers weeping and smiling as they waved goodbye to their children, offering last minute advice. Owls and other pets hooting and yowling as if they talked in a language all of their own.

Basically a normal first day of school at Hogwarts.

Something that Sirius doubted belonged in death.

"Now Sirius, you behave yourself, you hear me? Let's hope that school will knock some sense into you."

A voice broke into his thoughts and wide eyes already widening some more, he took in a face that he hoped he will never have to see again since he ran away from home. A face that peered at him with the usual expression he associated with it.

Walburga black glared at her son.

"Did you hear me boy?"

"Yes, mother." Sirius spat the words and wondered if he had perhaps reached hell instead.

"Then get to the train you worthless boy." Sirius didn't need telling twice.

Grabbing his trunk, Sirius started heading away and almost got on the train when a warm body collided into his and held on.

Frowning in confusion, Sirius stared at the black mop of hair that latched on to him.

"Please don't go." The mop muttered and Sirius, even after having passed over fifteen years since he last heard it, recognized his brother's voice.

"Ragdoll," the endearment barely left his mouth before he felt a hit against his stomach.

"Don't call me that." Regulus whined and Sirius chuckled having missed that sound.

"It's my right as the annoying older brother." He smiled gently. "Besides, you know that you're my little ragdoll."

Another whine escaped Regulus but he didn't hit Sirius again.

"Please don't go." The younger boy muttered once more. "I'm going to miss you so much and it's not fair that you get to go to Hogwarts while I have to wait a whole year before I can and I really don't want to stay with mother and father and-"

"Breath ragdoll." Sirius reminded his brother who sniffed and buried his head deeper in Sirius' chest.

"Promise me you'll write." The boy continued after a small pause and the words jostled something in Sirius' memory.

-FLASHBACK-

"Promise me you'll write." A black haired boy whispered as he held onto his older brother.

The older boy rolled his eyes. "Geez, Reggie, let go. You're embarrassing me."

"But-"

"But nothing! And I'm not going to write. I'll probably be too busy to do that even if I wanted to and I don't!" with that, the older boy pushed his brother away before stepping on the train, uncaring about the crying boy he left behind.

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Sirius frowned. That was the start of his and his brother's detachment from one another.

For some reason maybe because his brother eventually found that the dark side sucks, Sirius didn't want to repeat those same words.

Besides, it was his heaven. He was allowed to so what he wanted in it.

"Only if you'll write as well."

Sirius was glad he said that as Reggie's smile seemed to light the entire station.

"Everyday!" Regulus breathed and hugged Sirius tightly before letting go. Have fun at school and don't get into too much trouble." Sirius nodded with a grin." Course I will ragdoll, now scoot before she'll get mad."

The younger boy nodded and walked away. Sirius watched him being side-apparated by his mother.

After the two was gone, Sirius felt his smile slip.

His brother's words echoed in his mind.

'…it's not fair that you get to go to Hogwarts while I have to wait a whole year before I can…'

Sirius felt that perhaps he hadn't reached heaven or hell at all. No one had seemed to know him and those that did, acted as if he was going to Hogwarts for the first time in his life.

He froze.

Was it possible that he had somehow gone back in time? Traveled back until he reached his first day of school and just didn't realize it?

Bo, he would know, wouldn't he?

But the last thing he remembered was falling into the veil.

He paused.

Was it possible that the veil didn't lead to death but rather time?

It would make sense, if traveling back in time makes sense in the first place.

Hmm, Sirius smile came back, well if he was about to enter his first year again, then he wasn't complaining.

After all, he had the chance to correct the future, perhaps even stop Voldemort.

He froze once more.

Harry.

No! It wasn't fair that he had to leave him all alone. Sure he had moony but the boy needed his godfather, Sirius needed him.

I can save him, Sirius thought determinately, I can give him the childhood he deserves, make him so happy he'll never know sadness.

With that thought in mind, Sirius got on the train.

Tbc.

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