Authors Note of Semi-Doom: The joys of Funky Dreams and Working as Computer Support for Fastenal

Don't worry this isn't the end of the world, I just feel the need to explain what's taking me so god awfully long to update so you guys don't think I've forgotten about you. It's not an excuse but here's what's been keeping me so darn busy this past week and a half….

Real life has gotten busy. I do work two jobs (granted one of those is only on Sunday's). My one job has just gotten really stressful – we're losing people to graduation and to no summer housing at school – and they don't plan on hiring people… so of course we're going to be pushing more hours out to all of us part-timers. And I've been having these really effed up dreams about people I love dying, leaving me…really funky crap that leaves me with a lack of sleep that really makes it hard to concentrate even at work…

Anyways, I'm the one part-time tech that works as hard as a full-time 2nd level tech. Tom (my boss) knows this. So he wants to get me 40+ hours if possible over summer…*sighs* I love the money, but… the lack of freedom is going to suck…

Anyways… work gets really stressful, there have been times in the past were I could sit and write for like 2 hours at a crack at work. But now that spring/summer is kicking in, I actually spend most of my nights wishing we had more help as I sit and stare at a call hold queue of 10 in line waiting for 25 minutes…. We're THAT understaffed…and unfortunately I'm one of those people that take everything to heart. I take it personally even if it's not aimed at me. When someone gets on the phone and says "Sorry I was doing *blah blah blah* because I was on hold for half an hour" I calmly explain that normally there's only 2 of us here, most of our calls take 20 minutes and sometimes I'm the only one there. Yeah, I'll kindly give them a guilt trip for being snappy… So I'll come home tired, cranky and not wanting to do anything but clean a little, say hi to some people and pass out for the night.

I have actually been forcing myself to write. Chapter 7 The Epic Trip to Port Angeles is actually almost done, I'm just finishing up. It's my longest chapter yet, it's Bella and Alice's pov. I'm going to re-write it once and only once. After that I'm going to send it for betaing, add in some last minute changes and have it out. Since I don't work until 2:00pm tomorrow I don't plan on going to bed tonight until I have at least 3 more pages written. *nods* more or if I finish if at all possible. So there.

It's actually really fun. Alice gets to show her kitty claws in the chapter, so I'm really excited for you guys to read it. I just need to get the damn idea out of my head.

There, I've cleared my conscience. Please, the couple of PM's I've gotten saying "please don't forget about us" keep it up! I NEED that kick in the pants to keep me going! It helps focus me when I'm losing it.

I really do apologize, I didn't think it would get this hard at work… I'm actually really shocked….

*bows* Minna-san Gomen Nasai! (I'm So sorry!) please don't hate me!