I've rewritten this chapter, the whole story with Sookie not being drained by the vampires just didn't work out as I started to write chapter 5, just seemed too lame to work so I've rewritten this chapter. Thank you very much for reviewing! =)
I was feeling low, not a very usual feeling for me. It had been a long day, and night for that matter. As I walked to my car, I sank down in front of the wheel, exhausted. I suddenly had some very eerie memories from just a few nights earlier, in this very parking lot. As it all came back to me, the blood and the gush, I quickly tried to think of happier things. I had family now, I had people in my life. My great grandfather was perhaps not around much, but he was only a phone call away. And then there were my cousins, Claudine and Claude, and my cousin Hadley's son Hunter.
I was however on the outs with my closest kin, my brother Jason. It would probably take a lot more than he would be able to offer for me to forgive him. And my happy thoughts were suddenly just drenched into dark memories of the past. Well, damn it all to hell, I thought to myself and got the car started.
My big problem was that I had once fallen for a vamp which then and there got me into trouble, and then I just went deeper and deeper in it, never even thinking about going back. I had been in love with Bill, and thought all the trouble I'd gotten into was worth it. He'd been my world for that short time we were together. Before he was unfaithful to me, before I'd learned that he'd only seduced me out of orders from the now deceased queen. That is, before I knew what a lying bastard he'd been. Now however, I did know, and I was probably never going to trust him again. In fact, I was having a hard time trusting anyone these days, and I believed he was one of the causes for that. I would be lying if I said that hadn't hurt, it had cut me deep into my core. And I didn't know if there would ever come a day when I could forgive him for hurting me so.
And then there was the sheriff of area 5, whom I hadn't been able to stop thinking about lately. He had been made vampire back in the day, a swedish viking he was, with long blonde hair, blazing blue eyes. He had a way of making a woman crazy with desire and lust. I did know he had that affect on loads of females, me included. And on some males. He was just out of this world gorgeous, no man should look as good as Eric did, it just wasn't fair.
I hadn't heard from Eric since we last departed, nor was I that keen on seeing him either. He remembered now, those days we spent together when he was under that curse that made him into the Eric I'd felt strongly for, it was just another side of him that I'd sort of fallen for. At the time, he was caring and gentle, sweet in many ways, but still sexy as hell. We'd talked and been friends, as well as lovers, which was a rare thing. And, at the time, he'd told me he had feelings for me, even gone so far as to tell me that he would give up everything just to be with me. Well, that had come to an abrupt end as he regained his true self and for a time, he didn't remember what had happened.
Now however, he knew exactly what had occurred in my house during the time he spent there, under my so called protection. And he'd promptly told me we would talk about it. I guess we had to. I wasn't sure how that discussion would go and, it would probably end badly, on my part. The bad news was, I was very much attracted to him still, I don't know how much I am under the influence of the blood bond thing.
Of course, then there was Quinn also. I had so strongly believed in him, I'd hoped to love him. He was magnificent, and sweet, at the same time scary as hell and we'd shared some really intimate moments. I'd gone and built hopes up, that I actually could have a future with him. Only to see it all dissolve that night during the hostile take over of the area, when Quinn made it clear that his family came first. It was an admirable trait I suppose to some, but... I was no longer able to be in a relationship where I would come second. It had been that way with Bill, his work came first I so often, I had realised, yet I kept convincing myself that everything was okay. But now, I broke the pattern, I wouldn't let myself get in too deep once more where I would never stand a chance of getting out unharmed. So I ended things. Cruelly I suppose. But I had been honest about it.
I sighed, finally reaching the home I shared with my two room mates, the witch duo Amelia and Ocatavia. Amelia and I became friends when I went to the house she owned to clear out my cousin Hadley's apartment. My cousin had been a vampire, and was murdered because she was the Queen of Louisiana's lover. Well, there was more to the story than that, but that was the main reason. Octavia was Amelia's mentor, she'd shown up since she'd learned that my newfound friend had turned her lover Bob, who was also a witch, into a black cat. And then the duo had helped me get Tanya, who was a spy sent by Sandra Pelt, sister of Debbie Pelt who I'd shot in self defense, off my case which was really nice. Yes, I had gotten myself into a lot of trouble recently...
As I parked the car, I turned the engine off and just sat there for a while, leaning back towards the seat, looking up at the house. It was dark, I knew Octavia was out of town, on business, she didn't say what kind of business. And Amelia might just be out on a date with the were, Dawson. Well, I guess it was just me then. It had been for weeks now, Bill was not snooping around, at least I hadn't seen him. Eric hadn't called, I did dread that call. Quinn was off somewhere, probably taking care of his mother and sister. I wished he could have let me in closer, I wished he had done things different. Wishing wasn't going to do me much good, I'd learned my lesson now, at least I hoped I had.
Slowly, I gathered my things and got out of the car. At the same time I was getting my cell out to see if I had any missed calls. The display was sadly empty, as was my love life. As I was sulking over that I was missing what was going on around me. Suddenly, I took a fist to the face. I fell hard on my back from the punch. Two vamps were standing over me, they continued beating me, kicking me. The pain was excruciating, and I wasn't able to defend myself, other than to crawl into foetus position. I tried to crawl away, to what use I was not certain. I was crying and coughing blood, this was going to be the end of me I thought silently where I lay on the ground trying to get air into my lungs. The pain from the beating was killing me.
I felt one of them grab me by my ponytail and pull me up, I screamed out loudly, the pain of it all was excruciating. This was it, they would probably drain me now, and I couldn't do much but let them. Then suddenly, as I felt fangs biting into my neck, I suddenly felt a rush of calm and warmth filling me up on the inside. I felt the vampire drop me, perhaps he made a run for it, I don't know. I heard Eric's voice close to me, I was close to passing out. I knew then, that if I wanted anyone to find me in this state, it would be him. So I let the darkness embrace me, and let go of all of the pain and hurt.