A/N- sorry about the long wait for an update. xD I'm gonna try not to take as long... Lol, hopfully it happens, feel free to bug me, if you think i'm taking to long. xD

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Temptation, frustration

Heidi pressed her lips softly against Remus', his lips were unresponsive, and his body fell extremely still, it seemed as if he stopped breathing completely during those seconds.

Heidi began to pull away from him, her eyes were shut, and a feeling of disappointment was in her chest.

She almost feared opening her eyes to see Remus, she'd guessed he was either looking at her angry, or disappointed, maybe even sadly, for the now more than than likely ruined friendship between the two.

She took a deep breathe before opening her eyes and looking at the man before her. Remus had a look of shock on his face as he stared at her.

The rain was still beating down on them, and an occasional bright flash of lightening litethe sky, along with the rumbling sound of thunder in the background.

She felt the need to say something to him, the silence was becoming unbearable, even if it were only a few seconds long.

"I'm sor-" Heidi started but was cut off by Remus' lips on hers. Heidi after a second of shock, started kissing him back.

His kiss was a gentle, yet passionate, his lips were chapped, and the stubble on his chin rubbed against her face, and she found herself enjoying the feeling of it. She felt Remus put an arm around her waist, pulling her closer to him, his other hand went to her wet hair, running his hand through it.

Heidi snaked her arms around Remus' neck. She had a feeling she'd never experienced before coursing throughout her body, it was the most amazing feeling. Her mind was utterly blank, and her heart seemed to be beating at an incredibility fast pace.

Just as fast as the moment happened, it ended. Remus pulled roughly away from Heidi, saying a strained "sorry" before walking, at a faster than normal speed, towards the castle.

Heidi stared at the space before her, that amazing feeling she felt had disappeared, and an uncomfortable feeling, and almost painful took its place.

She watched Remus' retreating figure, trying to think and understand what had just happened.

Remus' Point Of View

Remus was completely taken by surprise when Heidi pressed her soft lips again his own. His mind went blank, his breathing came to a momentary pause, his heart quickened, and he felt his lips tingle.

As much as Remus wanted to kiss her back, he couldn't find it in him to think, let alone get his lips to move. He could feel Heidi slowly removing her soft lips from his.

He noticed her eyes remained shut as she stood in front of him. Remus still couldn't seemed to wrap his head around the fact that she had even kissed him. The happiness he felt when their lips touched had shocked him greatly, just like his increased desire for the girl had.

Remus watched as Heidi slowly opened her eyes to look at him, she had a look of worry on her face, he watched her as she stared at him. He still wasn't able to put a proper thought together,

He watched as the anxiety grew on Heidi's face, than he saw her lips began to move and the words "I'm sor-" before he cut her off with his lips.

Once he felt Heidi's lips moving against his own at a pleasant rhythm, he wrapped an arm around her waist pulling her close to his body, and his other entangled its self with her hair. He could feel Heidi's arm go around his neck.

He had never experiencedsuch pleasure from kissing before, but all that stopped when the thought, 'shes your student' came into his head. It took every fiber in his being to push Heidi away from him, he managed to get a 'sorry' out before turning on his heel and walking away from her.

He ignored the rain beating against him, and how his body suddenly felt cold, he kept walking towards the castle as quickly as his legs would let him, the thought 'shes your student' was on repeat in his mind.

It was Christmas break now. Heidi had stayed at Hogwarts, her parents went to go visit her aunt uncle in America, and Heidi didn't like them so decided to stay. All of her close friends had gone home for Christmas break, so she was going to spend Christmas alone.

Heidi noticed at breakfast that not many students stayed at the school during Christmas break, only a few students from each house.

With all the time alone, Heidi was able to get all her homework complete, and even started reading ahead. But, all the reading and work was getting boring very fast, though it wasn't much fun to start with.

Heidi had previously been in the Hufflepuff common room, with a defense against the dark arts book on her lap, but now she flying above the black lake, which was frozen and covered with a blanket of snow, along with the rest of the grounds, the sun made the snow have a twinkle to it.

Heidi felt the cold wind blowing her hair around as she flew higher into the sky, the wind turned her cheeks red, and when her nose started to run she decided it was time to stop flying around.

Heidi dismounted near the oak tree by the frozen black lake, she started to walk towards the tree. Heidi noticed a person sitting against the tree, a sense of dejavu came over her. There was Remus sitting staring up at the sky. Heidi noticed he looked rather pale, and exhausted, he looked beyond his age sitting there, he seemed to have a sad look on his face, which tugged at her heartstrings.

Heidi had stopped walking when she first noticed Lupin, she was now considering turning around and leaving before he noticed she was even there, since they hadn't talked since that night, he had been avoiding her like the plague. He was worst then a teenage boy, she'd come to decide.

Heidi was about to turn and walk away when Lupin looked up, meeting her gaze. He had a thoughtful look on his face as he looked at Heidi.

"Hello Miss Casey" Professor Lupin said, Heidi could feel the tension between them. "Hello Professor Lupin, nice to see you, hope your having a good holiday" Heidi stood leaning against her broom, she was unsure if she should leave or if he would consider that to be rude.

Remus nodded "Having a good holiday?" he asked "sit down, if you like" he added motioning next to him. Heidi placed her broom against the tree and sat down next to her Professor.

"It's not my best" she admitted "why is that?" Remus asked looking at her a bit concerned. "Spending it alone" she stated, Remus nodded, understanding. "How is your's?" Heidi asked "not my best either" he replied, Heidi would have asked why, but she guessed it had something to do with Sirius Black, she just nodded and looked out to the frozen lake.

There was silence, Heidi noticed the tension seemed to be slowly slipping away. She just admired the beautiful snowy scene in front of her, it was definitely a winter wonderland.

"Why didn't you go home for the holiday?" Remus asked, he had been sneaking glances over at Heidi now and than. She had looked quite cute with her rosy cheeks and wind-blown hair.

Heidi looked over at him, meeting his eyes for a moment before adverting her eyes and replying, "my parents went to America to visit my aunt and uncle, and I didn't want to go" "All your friends went home?" he asked, Heidi nodded "yes".

Heidi wasn't sure how she and Remus were, whether they were still 'friends' or if they had gone back to the 'Professor-Student' relationship, she figured since they seemed to be back at formalities they were, but she didn't have the courage to ask.

Another silence took over, and Heidi thought about anything but the man sitting next to her. She wondered if her friends and parents would like the presents she got them, if Coby and Alyssa were spending more time together. She was lost in her thoughts, she didn't even noticed Remus was speaking to her, until he placed a hand on her shoulder. She snapped out of her thoughts, and stared at his hand on her, before meeting his gaze.

"Yes?" she asked softly, still looking into his eyes, she couldn't seem to look away from them, And Remus couldn't seem to either.

"I said, I wanted to speak to you, about, that night" he said, he had a professionalism in his voice, as though he were about to speak about a business deal. Heidi just nodded and looked away from Remus, back to the lake.

He wasn't sure if he should continue on, but when she motioned with her hand, he cleared his throat and spoke.

"I must apologize for my actions that night, they were beyond inappropriate, and should never had happened" Heidi nodded again, she expected he'd say something like that. But what she wasn't expecting was his next words, "I have considered resigning" he stated, Heidi's head snapped towards him, "No! Remus, what happened was all my fault, I kissed you, and as you pointed out it was inappropriate, and I'm sorry, it will never happen again.. just don't resign, your the best defense against the dark arts professor we're have in awhile" she said, "And if you resign, I'll drop out" she added threateningly, it only seemed fair.

The sides of his mouth pulled upwards, "well we can't have that now, can we" he said "no, so it looked like you stuck teaching" she replied, a smile spreading across her face.

A//N Sorry if there is any spelling errors.