I don`t own twilight

A./N: I am sorry, I know I said I would update sooner, but I am at my parents right now and I havn`t that much time to write, and go online on top of it!

So, this is for my brother, who was kind enough to finally let me have a little time at his pc ;) Still love you if you don`t, but it makes me more grateful and a happy me is a nicer me ;)

Also thanks again for every review! Your kind words make me go through my day, especially right now considering the circumstances lol

And to Megan, it is just much more fun doing this with you! Thanks for everything! Cheers ;)

"Hold on tight!"

Her eyes widen at his words. She hadn`t thought about this when she made her decision. But before she could think any further and change it Jasper had already started his machine.

There was no way she could deny the promise this sound made. It was a mechanic purr that growled and screamed for freedom and its vibrations already ruled it through her system. Her arms were around him in a second.

"You are ready?"

"As ready as I ever will be!"

"Good! Enjoy!"

And with that they were outside and speed over the asphalt.

The first minute Bella needed to adjust everything that awoke in her, needed to wear off her fear. But it didn`t take long. She knew she was save with him, knew that even if he wouldn`t have his highly alerted senses, he would never let something happen to her. And after all, didn`t he say he was riding bikes for over 2 decades now. Feeling what she was feeling right know, she could understand why. She understood the need for speed he and the Cullen's had and sympathized herself with it. It was different on a bike. The adrenaline shooting through her veins, the wind breezing around her and the sound and vibration underneath was exhilarating. It sent her on an emotional roller coaster and lifted her high above everything while at the same time it awoke every cell in her body deep inside and set it on fire.

Shifting on her seat she leaned closer towards him. Her head came to rest on his shoulders and her grip tightened even more. She clung to him until she got aware of her more and more freezing cold hands. Before she even realized what she was doing she pulled at his shirt and tucked them under it. But coming in contact with his skin an electric bolt shooting through her, reminded her. She took a sharp breath and swallowed hard. Jasper had stiffened for a second too and she wasn`t sure if she had heard him clear his throat but the next moment she didn`t care anymore. This was what this is all about. Getting careless, forgetting what was around her, what was going on, stopping to think and just be free. So she did stop thinking, stopped debating with herself and let it all go. More specific let her hands go. Jasper took a sharp turn and she had no chance but to deepen the grip. Feeling his abs she got aware that this was the first time she ever did feel some. It was, nice, a lot more than nice! And she became the feeling that even if she would have been in a similar possition like this before, they still wouldn`t come close to Jaspers. Evenn if he was colder then the wind, this feeling she got was fire warming her up in an instant. Her hands began a life of their own while she explored the soften hard skin under them and she closed her eyes. Taking in another deep breath his scent swirled around her and she couldn`t help but pressing herself even closer to his back.

God, the feelings he awoke in her.

She was slightly aware that he felt them too, that he could read her but it didn`t matter. She could blame them all on the sensation of the ride later and that she lost herself in it. She didn`t care right now. She was free. There was no later, there was just now. And right now she wanted this. No, she needed this.

Far to soon for her taste their ride ended and she realized him slowing down. She got aware of her surroundings again and recognized the parking lot of a car dealer. In an instant she had her hands back under con troll and pulled them off him. She nearly jumped off the bike when they pulled up completely which wasn`t such a smart idea. Her legs were still weaken from the ride and her knees gave in. She felt herself stumble but before anything happened he had pulled her up again.

"Careful darlin`!" He grinned at her and it sent another pleasant shiver down her spin. Getting herself together again she pulled herself free once more and turned around embarrassed. She knew he was watching her intensely but ignored it with every fiber of her body and preyed he wouldn`t comment what happened only minutes ago.

`Just keep it together girl! Act like it would be nothing and don`t give him even so much as an inch!`

"What are we doing here?" She deflected her thoughts looking around once more.

"Well, I thought it would be time to buy another bike!"

"But you have already one!"

"So?" He asked her irritated "I also have one shirt, doesn`t mean there is no use of a second one!"

Being reminded about the word `shirt`and what lays under it made her eyes widen once again.

`Stop it! You are not on the bike anymore! What are you? A teenage hormone bomb?`

`Well, technically...`

She could almost feel herself rolling eyes on herself and shoke her head to stop her thoughts in the track.

"Ok, clothes and bikes or cars can`t hardly be considered as the same thing! I mean you can`t ride both at once! Do you want to change them everyday like your outfit?"

"Why not? Do you think I had only one bike before? I like having an assortment! Also I won`t be riding them alone!"

"What do you mean?" She turned around and dared in his eyes having a feeling she knew pretty good were this was going.

"Well, as far as I know you don`t have one for your own and I thought it could actually be fun for you to be able to ..."

"You want to buy a bike for me?!" She nearly yelled at him cutting him off.

"No, I want to buy one for myself and plainly giving you the option to use it as you wish!"

Her mouth clapped open and shot again too stunned to actually say anything.

"Look, I am not spending money here on you! I am only getting back what was once in my possession before I left it behind!"

`Great, here we go again, he pulled the `I left everything with the Cullen's card`! How am I supposed to go around this?!`

"We are already here! You know I will do it anyway, so why don`t you help me with it? I really could use a second opinion!"

Again she couldn`t say anything so he used his chance to go on persuading her.

"How about this, I make you a deal, if you can make me believe that you lost interest in motorcycles and can`t understand where I am coming from here, we will go!"

"That`s not fair!"

"That`s what I thought!" He smiled triumphal.

"Why do you have to dump that on me? You know I don`t feel comfortable with this!"

"Yeah, you will forget that as soon as you are sitting on the bike again! And I know you want to do this, don`t try to deny it!" His knowing tune in his voice while he spoke made her plea once more that he won`t go where she thought this could be going. But in the end it was her own mind that didn`t listen to her silent preys and pulled her right back to the emotions and feelings she had while sitting behind him.

"Look, there are only two options here! Either you help me pick out a bike right now which I will buy for myself and lean you once or twice to use it or.." His grin grew thinking about the second one. "or, we will have to share mine like we did coming here whenever we want to, uh, do this again!"

He unleashed a devilish sexy smirk on her and was suddenly standing behind her. The sudden closure was enough to nearly make her knees buckle. She hadn`t expected that. But to be fair, even if she would have expected it, there was no way she could have primed herself. His scent was once again all around her and she could feel his head leaning closer towards the side of hers sending goose bumps down her spine. She let herself go again unable to stop since she had opened the wall under all the stress she were dealing with in the past days. Her breath came out in low short gasps and then to top it all his voice started to whisper in her ear.

"To be honest darlin` I am hoping it will be the second option! Having you so close behind me on my bike letting your scent clouding me smelling the adrenaline and delight you felt in it, and feeling precisely every thing you are - letting every single emotion of your wash over me and becoming my own is intoxicating!"

She would have been completely lost by his little act right now and letting herself fall back and lean at his chest wouldn`t his words suddenly sink in and unfold their meaning.

`feeling precisely everything you are`

But before panic could rise he spoke again lessen his previous revelation and stopping her panic in the track.

"You made me feel like I would be alive too! Let me give this back to you! You have no idea how much this means to me!"

His now soft and tender voice and his last words sent the final nail in her coffin and sealed it.

His words warmed her inside and let her hearth speed for a moment. She could hear in his voice how important this was for him, could feel how grateful he was and that this was not only about her. She realized in this moment why people liked making presents, remembered why she did like doing so and how unfair it was to deny this to others and made them go through a hard time.

She knew he had the money and she knew he would buy one anyway. Why don`t go with it and let her be part of it, if it was so important for him.

She nodded her head in agreement and stepped a bit away from him while turning around.

"Ok, lets do this!" She smiled and earned another one from him.

"But that doesn`t mean you get a free card for the future and we will consider the prize like everyone else does!"

"I can accept that! Now, lets look around!"

It was late at night when they finally decided to go home again. After she had fallen in love with a silver-black model of the Suzuki GSR 600 there was no holding her back anymore. She even let Jasper the pleasure to buy her a black biker jacket and a helmet to complete her outfit with her new ride and then they were ready to go. Jasper had bribed the dealer to drive the bike with a truck to a more private place. He had looked sceptical at first but after an exchange of several bank rolls he was happy to help in any way, how he had put it.

When they reached their destination it was at Jasper to be sceptical himself when it came to letting Bella drive by herself. He remembered suddenly that he never had seen her riding one himself and she had done it only once before. Maybe this hadn`t been such a good idea. Wasn`t he supposed to keep her out of danger and alive instead of doing the exact opposite? His thoughts had stopped in the track when he saw her. The black leather jacket and her new helmet matcher her perfectly and when she climbed on the bike and kick started it like she had done this her whole life he nearly fell off his. She was a natural and he suddenly got aware of another reason why he loved the girl so much. She was downright sexy. And there were a thousand pictures and situation he could picture her with him in a similar position.

But of course he stopped that thought in a track, too. The last days had changes a lot when it came to Bella, him and their relationship to one and another. Bella's guard had come down at a numbers of times. Mostly every time when they had found their self in a more proximate situation. Which she had let themselves be in more and more often. He realized that the situation she was in, the terror and fear she had to feel even if she wouldn't show it got her to crave for his caring and kindness. His first plan to lure her out of her shield and get her to realize and more admit her feelings had taken a complete different direction now that he had a clearer picture of them and the environment had changed.

He had sensed her fear. Had sensed the reason why she was shielding herself from him. She needed time. Time to trust not only in her own feelings but into the knowledge that he really was nothing like Edward. She still was afraid to be left behind again but more than that she was afraid of love in general. She was afraid to be betrayed by it and even if he would have been able to push her and entice her out of the shadows, he wouldn't be able to push her over that fear. She wasn't ready yet. But not for him, she wasn't ready to show weakness again, weakness in her guard, her shield and her wall around her hearth. She was afraid to give it away horrified that she wont survive another rejection and heartbreak. All Jasper could do was to make her realize that he won't lead her there. And after all if there was one thing he had enough of and could give her completely it was time. He could give her all the time she needed and he would wait forever if it meant that he could hold her so close and get even closer to her in the process. He would show her in the small things how he felt for her and that he was there and always would be. Words meant nothing to her when it came to that any more because words and promises had been broken before. So he would let his actions speak for him.

And this was their silent deal they had made. Not to phrase it, not to speak it out aloud and just let time show them were to go from here. He shouldn't have wondered that she might think about it this way. She was a fan of the classic after all and wasn't it her favourite author Jane Austen that wondered regarding to phrasing out love when it stood at the beginning `that it might nourishes what is strong already. But if it be only a slight, thin sort of inclination, I am convinced that one good sonnet will starve it entirely away.`

And this was how it was supposed to be after all. He didn't want them to have a rebound relationship, didn't want an all consuming love that burned everything around them and probably them along with it. And that might be happening if she would jump into it without hesitation and thinking. He wanted to nourish a strong slow growing affection. Because this was the kind of feeling a true and long-term love would need to be built on. They were already on the way to get there. While love on the first sight might be the stuff fairytale were made of, they had already walked that road and look what it had brought them. They had both trusted in it blindly and followed the promises they had been given just to be left broken in the end. He could understand why she was hiding from it, it had taken him long himself to see what was happening around and to accept it. And not just the emotions but the heartbreak before. Because this was what had brought them together and given him the opportunity to start new and found something so special and unique that he would never want to leave it behind again. He didn't need a fortune teller to show him the future, he knew it for himself. She was it. He could feel it. And sooner or later she would too. And when that happened he wouldn't draw the line like Edward had done it. He realised it when he saw what really happened the day he lost it in the cafeteria. She had touched the daemon inside of him and it had recognized it, too, had recognized her and had seen her for what she was. What she will be. And that's why she had been able to beat him back and ruled him out. That's why he didn't lust for her blood any more the way he had before. She wasn't just human any more. The daemon inside him had claimed her already and bowed down before her, he had sawn her as his equal not the human but the woman beside him. He would give her eternity if she wanted to because he sure as hell did. He got the more and more the feeling that she would vote in his favour when the right time came and he was selfish enough to take her up on it. And with eternity in front of him he had all the time in the world. And so would she, he would make sure of it and not even that red-headed bitch would take that away from him.

He had enjoyed watching and even more feeling her emotions this afternoon. She had been in an perfect bliss riding her bike next to him and being just. And deep down he had wished that she would have made her move already and came to her decision because it would have meant that they wouldn't have to stop when the night came. But he let it go the second the thought entered his mind and let patience once again win.

They had made their way back and stored her bike next to his in his garage and taken his car back to Charlie in harmonic silence.

But the second they had arrived reality had reached them once again and hit them in their face the moment they got out of the car.

"Where have you been?"

An angry Jacob yelled t him and earned a low growl in return.

"Stop that shit! What is the use in changing cell numbers if none of you picks it up when I call?"

"Jesus, Jacob, calm down already!" Jasper finally hissed sending waves of calmness towards him. Jasper looked at Bella and saw the smile leaving her face.

"Please don't be mad, Jake! Jasper and I just had some fun this afternoon!"

"Oh did you?! And while doing so, did you thought a second about how I might feel when I couldn't reach any of the both of you?" He spat at her and that was enough for Jasper to snap. Jacobs anger had gotten the better of him and combined with his own he was inforntof him in and instant.

"Don't you dare to ever speak to her like this again, dog!"

He spat in his face and Jacob lost focus.

"Or what, leach?" But before the situation could escalate they heard Bella's desperate plea.

"Please don't! Not today! Not now, please, Jasper!"

Both got aware of her again and turned towards around, taking a step away from each other.

"I am sorry, Bella! I didn't mean to, but I was really scared something happened!" Jacob told her sincerely.

"You know I was with her!" Jasper told him calmly.

"Yeah! Still, I ..." Jacob struggled for words and got more and more anxious. He took a look towards the woods before he turned back to them again.

"Jacob?" Bella's voice was panicking. She read his reactions and could only think about one thing that would make Jacob act this way.

"I think it is better if we would go inside!" Jacob finally told them exchanging a look with Jasper.

"Jacob?!" Ball's voice was more demanding now. "Did something happen? Did you.." She couldn't bring herself to say it but it was clear for the both of them what she meant. Another look was shared between Jasper and Jacob before he answered her again.

"We really should talk inside Bella!"

"Oh god, was anyone hurt? Did Victoria..." She was panicking completely at this point and Jasper had his arm around her the next moment and calmed her down.

"Everything is fine, Bella!" Jacob ensured her while both of them gathered her inside the house. Jasper sat her on the couch and hold her even closer to him while Jacob remained standing.

"What happened?" Jasper finally asked him.

"Quil and Embry ran into her this afternoon while they made their rounds."

A sharp breath was taken by Bella and she hide her face in Jasper's chest.

"Are they..?"

"No, they will be fine! Nothing major!"

"But they are hurt?"

"Sh, calm down, darlin`!" Jasper smoothed her before Jacob continued.

"She wasn't looking for a fight, Quil said it looked more like she would be checking the territory but when they smelled her scent they went after her and, well, they kinda jumped her, but they are fine, Bella!" He again ensured her trying to tell them what happened but not upsetting her at the same time.

"Did they.. is she dead?" A flicker of hope entered her but she knew the answer before he told her. He wouldn't have acted the way he did if she was.

"No, she got away! The rest of the pack patrolling saw it in their mind and came running to them to help but she was able to get away again before they arrived!"

"So, you telling me that Embry and Quil both got into a fight with her and none of them is hurt?" Bella asked him again getting a bit impatient with his act.

"Well, not exactly, but like I said it is nothing major! She kinda broke Embrys arm and Quil has a few cuts from her claws.."

there was again a sharp breath taken by Bella and a small sob escaped her lips.

"Don't freak Bella! I told you, we heal pretty fast! Quill is alright already and a broken arm is nothing to worry about! Embry will be like new tomorrow!"

"I am so sorry!" Bella whimpered.

"Don't do this, Bella! This is not your fault!"

"Isn't it?! And here I thought she was after me and I am pulling you all into this with me!" Her desperate and broken words answered him.

"Bella, stop it! You are not dragging us anywhere! This is what we do, if she would be after you or not it would be still our job!" Jacob got firm while Jasper still rubbed her back and stayed silent concentrating to help her with his gift while letting Jacob the chance to do so with his words.

"We are fighters and our kind and tribe fights these battles for generations now! We are honored to do so and not dragged around or even forced! We stick together, Bella, this is what we do! We stick together and we are not turning our back at this! Please don't feel guilty! This has nothing to do with you, in the bigger picture we would do this anyway! Even if it wasn't Victoria, there would be something else! That is why we exist! This is not your fault! Believe me, nothing of this is your fault! You are the victim in this and we will protect you! And to be honest, Embry and Quill are kinda bragging around after what happened! Even if they are at the same time ashamed that they weren't able to end it and she got away! No one blames you! Please believe me this!"

Jacobs words and Jasper's calming stabilised her more but before they could talk more about it they heard Charlies car.

"I think it is better if I leave! Charlie might be surprised to find me here! I didn't came with my car and Sam expects me back anyway! I kinda waited for you a little longer than expected!"

"I am sorry, Jacob if..." Bella started again but was cut short.

"It's ok! You are alright and that's all that matters! I don't think she will be back tonight, Embry got to her good, too, and I think she might lay low at least for tonight but we will still staying close to the house!" Jacob told her while they got to the back door. He gave Jasper another look and he rolled his eyes over his unspoken question.

"You know I will stay with her!" Jasper told him matter of factly not also towards Jacob but more to Bella. The underlying tune didn't went by Jacob but he didn't comment on it.

"Make sure you have your cell on in the future!" He told him instead and was outside the second Charlie opened the front door.