A/N Okay dont blame me! fanfiction was having technical difficulties!!! soooo I could not sign on it wouldnt let me :(

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Miley's POV

I went to the first concert since Her death/disappearance. I haven't sung since god knows when, and I need to warm up. Also, I've been not talking and crying. So just imagine my voice, all scratchy and not used. But I sang just fine, as long as I kept my mind off of her...

Hannah's fans didn't care, they were just glad she's back. They don't care that I had lost my best friend and crush.

I looked out into the crowd before my last song and-

I see Lilly. I shake my head, no Lilly's dead. Plus this girl has BLACK hair not BLOND, so I think I'm going crazy. I look into the girl's eyes and she stares back at me then all the sudden she turns and runs out of the stadium. I know I'm crazy for doing this but, I jump off the stage and run through the crowd. Roxie, Jared, and Oliver, my main body guards, follow me and try to keep people away from me while shouting for me to come back. I'm running through the crowd, and when I get outside into the rain I see the girl run down the street. Then I hear Roxie yell.

"HANNAH! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?!?!?!!?!" Just then I felt someone's hand on my shoulder, and I look back at where the girl is and she looks me in my eyes, I gasp, her eyes are such an intense color of blue, Like Lilly's. I run towards her again and I hear Roxie mutter, 'sweet niblets' and she runs after me, I follow the girl until she turns, and I trip. I can feel the hot tears running down my face, mingling with the cold rain. I turn towards Roxie who was helping me stand. "What's wrong?" She asks, I have no idea how she knows I'm crying. I mean come on it's raining.

"That girl," I pause as I see Roxie get into a defensive stance then I quickly start talking again. "Sh-she l-looked j-j-j-just l-l-like Lilly, a-an-and I w-w-was stupid-d an-and ch-chased h-her-r," I stutter, my tears falling and mingling with the rain. I'm sobbing like a young child who fell and scraped their knee.

"Oh baby girl I know it's hard, but you just can't jump off the stage running into the crowd," She says. I nod. "I had texted Oliver and he's coming 'round with the car," She said. And everything is a blur from there.

Next thing I know I'm awake with cold sweat falling down my back and tears falling down my face. It was one of those dreams about Lilly again. I never told her I loved her. Now it's haunting me. I don't know the whole story, 'cause, well I was knocked out. I don't see why the plane crashed and why Lilly couldn't be found. I miss her too much. Well I should tell you what happened in my dream.

It was dark, and I could hear Lilly singing. She has gotten much better since the eighth grade, I know that. But the lyrics I don't understand. Like it's in a different language, but I can't see her. Then she starts talking to me.

"Miley, I still love you. I was going to tell you that but, the plane crashed." I hear her say. I try to talk but nothing comes out. The crash replays before me. Just like always. Only now it shows Lilly dieing, you know like knife in the back kind of dieing not getting hit in the head. I don't like it. This is about where I wake up.

It scares me. To know that Lilly won't be here when I wake up, that Hannah won't have Lola beside her. Everyone tries to comfort me but I don't talk much anymore. I just can't stand to think of her. I just can't.

Jamie tries but I just ignore her. And all of my family and friends for that fact. I decide to take it out on my guitar and I have my song book next to me. I strum the strings and the lyrics just come out.

"I think I know now,
That waiting ain't gonna help,
And I think, 'God, how I miss yo.'
Oh how you seem to be everywhere,
Just there.
Never really.
Moving on is hard.

Never had time to say,
'I love you' and mean it.
Never had time to tell you,
'I need you,' and you actually hear it.
Never will I love you like you hated me.
Never will I have time to come to your house.
Never will I loath having to hide my feelings,
Never will I hate myself for feeling this way.
And I think, 'Why did I let her go?'
But waiting ain't gonna help,
My oh my why did I let you go?
And why did I have to see you leave?
Why did you toy with my head?

And carelessness just ain't an excuse,
But you left and there ain't gonna be a next time.
This'll be the worst thing to happen in my life time,
Since god knows when,
And I loved you but,
Gosh how I'd loved you,
An internal fight,
Between, me and my beliefs,
My parents beliefs," I sing. and I'm surprised, I haven't even wrote two lines of a song that fast. And that's half a song. I hurry and write the lyrics and notes down.

I lay down on my bed and cry myself to sleep.......

A/N i know i know!!! you guys missed me!!! :) but yea Jamie is in this story too :) shes a girl version of Ollie. but Oliver's in this one but as a body guard!! lol dont ask me 'what's that song called.' cause i wrote it myself!! as you can see it ain't finnished. so yea it started out as a poem and it turned into a song lol. *mumbles something about a notebook** WHERE IS IT!?!!?!?!? IT WAS JUST ON MY DESK!!! urgggg oh yea! lis has it...... lol wellllll ima go for now. just leting you guys kno im still alive! ;)