For such a great hate -For such a great love-

When your hand took mine

I shivered.

For I knew it was you, it had to be you, it could not be anyone but you.

This touch, this soft tenderness remains.

This feeling...

I was uneasy because I was holding this cigarette... smoking... just like you.

I... At first, I didn't realize. We were... together.

Not fighting.

Not even speaking, or moving.

You were holding my hand.

We stood still for... I don't know. Long. I was feeling your warm palm against my skin...

No. It can't have been long, for not half an inch of my cigarette had turned into ash.

Pourtant dans ma mémoire, cet instant dure une éternité.

All I could hear was the silence surrounding us and my beating heart.

Et le timide crépitement incandescent de cette cigarette.

Then I... -What else could I say?- I violently broke this moment.

If only... What would have happened... si je ne m'étais pas autant éloigné en me retournant... Si...

...si je n'avais pas parlé...

...Cette cigarette !

Elle nous a unis et séparés

Tu m'as pris la main...

...S'il n'y avait pas eu cette stupide cendre!

I wish this cigarette had stopped burning dès l'instant où ta main a effleuré la mienne.

If time had stopped...

If the Earth had died at this moment, right now I would be spending eternity with your hand interlacing mine, avec ta présence derrière moi et ce sourire que je ressentais sur ton visage...

I love you.

I wonder if everything would have been different if I had done something else.

If I had just... shut my mouth -listening to the silence, listening to your breathing.

I wonder.

If I had just...

...closed my eyes...

...Je t'aime.