A/N: Okay I know I shouldn't be starting new stories until I've finished the ones I've currently got going but I was rereading Loveless (don't ask me how many times I've done this cause I lost count a hella long time ago) and this story just sort of popped in my head. It just kept screaming at me to be written. I'm not sure if this is gonna be a one shot or a couple chapters…scratch that. It keeps growing so it'll probably be a couple chapters long, most likely no more than 3 since that's the number that keeps flashing in my head. Btw, I've also decided that this story is gonna be a first person point of view.
Loveless
Highschool
God this sucks. Here I am, almost 18 years old and I still have my ears. How pathetic is that? Most of my classmates, Yuiko included, have lost their ears years ago. *sigh* I wish I could be outside instead of stuck in this stuffy old building. It's so nice outside.
*slam!* "RITSUKA-KUN!!!"
*groan* Great. Here she comes. Why can't she just hang out with Yayoi today and leave me alone with my thoughts? Sometimes I swear she's more annoying than he is…
- Stop -
- Rewind -
- Let me start over from the beginning. -
My name is Aoyagi Ritsuka. I'm almost 18 years old and a highschool senior. Aoyagi Seimei is my older brother. He's like 5 years older than I am. Yuiko and Yayoi are classmates of mine. We've been friends; well I suppose you could say we're all friends, since 6th grade. Then there's Soubi. How to explain Soubi? *pauses thoughtfully* 6 years later and I still don't know to explain Soubi. Hell I'm not even sure what he is to me anymore. He's too confusing to even know where to start to even attempt to explain him to anyone who's never met him before. How about I just fill you in on the fact that Soubi is 9 years older than I am. He's an art teacher now but when we met he was just a college student. He teaches at the highschool I go to. I swear he did that on purpose but he always denies it when I accuse him of it.
- Back to the present. -
"Ritsuka-kun, Soubi-san asked me to bring this to you. He says you left it at the apartment this morning." Yuiko drops a small paper bag on my desk. At first glance you would probably think it was my lunch but I knew better. Inside that bag was the medication my therapist gave me along with my cell phone. God I was hoping he wouldn't notice that I left that stuff there. I really didn't want it today.
- Did I forget to mention I was on some medication from my therapist? Oops. Its supposed to help with the whole memory loss thing from elementary school. At least one of those pills is supposed to do that. The other one is an antidepressant. Yes, I'm clinically depressed. But who wouldn't be when your life is as fucked up as mine is? 'Though I will admit that leaving my cell phone at the apartment was an accident. I woke up late thanks to him and had to rush out the door. At least I took a shower last night, otherwise I would have been totally late for zero period PE. -
"Thanks Yuiko." I took out my cell phone and stuffed the rest of the bag and its contents into my messenger bag before either of the two of them to could ask me about what else was in the bag. I went back to staring out the window, hoping that they would catch the hint. It took a few moments before Yayoi spoke, taking Yuiko's attention away from me, thank god.
*sigh* I really do wish I could be anywhere but stuck inside this stuffy old building. Somewhere nice and quiet where I could be alone would be nice. Knowing Soubi though he wouldn't let me go alone, especially after what happened at Septimal Moon. Even though it was years ago he still worries about me. I won--*buzz*
*groan* Great…what does he want now?
Kio is loaning me the use of his cabin near the ocean this weekend. –Soubi
*sigh* Stupid Soubi. He always says that on Fridays. Why can't he just admit that Kio gave him the cabin when he moved to Europe 6 months ago?
Will you come with me this weekend? –SoubiYou know what? What the hell. Why not. It beats being home alone for 3 days. Fine, I'll come but I wanna go out on the beach and not be stuck inside all weekend. –Ritsuka. God, I can just sense his smile. Just what is he planning? This better not be another attem—
"Hey Ritsuka, are you busy this weekend?" Stupid Yayoi is almost as good as Yuiko is anymore at interrupting my train of thought.
"Yes I am. Soubi and I are going to the beach for the weekend." Funny, I can't seem to stop smiling…I wonder why.
"Ooh! Okay." Yuiko's got this lopsided smile on her face that just makes me smile even more. Gah! Why can't I stop smiling! Stupid Soubi! He always makes me like this!
"Well I hope you and Soubi have lots of fun." Wait! Why's Yayoi smiling now too? What the hell is going on!? God damn it! Someone better start talking!
*~*~*~*~*
Looking out at the front gate from the door I can see Soubi standing there, as usual. I still don't know how the hell he manages to get there before I do. I swear he had a 7th period class to teach…or was it that he had his planning period for the last period of the day? Fuck, I don't remember anymore. Whatever. Either way I can always see the smile on his face when he spots me walking toward him. Yuiko and Yayoi are usually beside me but today they had a club meeting so I'm all alone.
"Hello Ritsuka." Soubi smiles down at me. Yes, the bastard is still taller than I am. So much for my being tall like Seimei. The only person not still taller than me is Yuiko, she's a few inches shorter than I am now but as far as I'm concerned she doesn't count.
"Hello Soubi. When do we leave for the cabin?"
"As soon as we get our things from the apartment."
"You packed for me!? What the hell!?" God damn it! Even when I'm mad at him the bastard just smiles calmly at me. What do I have to do to get him to snap back at me?! Oh screw it. It's not like I ever stay mad at him for more than a couple minutes. *sigh* "Forget it. Let's just go. I'm sick of this place." I grabbed his hand and promptly walked away from the hell that they call highschool.
We walked in silence all the way home with me holding onto Soubi's hand the whole way. Wait. Why am I holding his hand? Its not like he wouldn't just follow me anyway.
*frown* Fuck. No matter how much I will it my hand wont let go of his.
When we got the apartment it was apparent that Soubi had cleaned up the place after packing for the two of us, after all our suitcases were sitting against the wall next to the door and the apartment was spotless. I went and put my messenger bag in my room and grabbed my suitcase while Soubi went out to get the car started. Kio gave us his car too, 'though the thing is a piece of junk. Knowing our luck it'll break down when we get to the cabin.
I managed to bring down both of our suitcases down by the time Soubi managed to bring the car around. He left it running while he went back inside for his art supplies. He sells a lot of his art on top of working so we never end up going anywhere without them. So I loaded up the car and then sat in the passenger seat while I waited for him.
God, this was going to be a long car ride…
*~*~*~*~*
- Hours later -
Crap…I fell asleep…
I looked around groggily not more than a minute after pulling into the driveway for the cabin.
"Morning Ritsuka."
*frown* "Its not morning Soubi."
"Your right." He was unloading the car when I reluctantly got up. "Could you go up and open the door for me, Ritsuka?"
I took the keys from him and did as he asked. This wasn't the first time I'd been up here but its not like I came up here with Soubi every weekend. Usually he went alone. While he unloaded the car I got myself something to drink and wondered through the cabin. It had two bedrooms but Soubi had set up one as his art room, much like the extra room at our apartment. Oh well, I was used to sleeping with Soubi. At first it was a lot like when I used to sleep with Seimei, only Soubi liked to sleep with his arms around me rather than just with me curled up next to him.
"Are you hungry Ritsuka?" I could hear him call from the kitchen. Knowing him he was gonna make something weird, like always but its hard to tell him no so into the kitchen I went.
The moment I walked into the room I got a kiss planted on me. God damn it. Again with the smiling. "Soubi, just what are you planning for this weekend?"
He was looking through the fridge with his back to me now so his answer was rather muffled. "You'll see. I'm sure you'll enjoy it though." He smiled at me over his shoulder as he pulled out eggs, orange juice, sausage and bacon.
"Why are you making breakfast for dinner?"
"Because we have plenty of this stuff and I don't want things to spoil while we're busy."
Busy? What's he talking about? He must have noticed the confused look on my face because he just kissed me again after telling me that I needed to be patient. I don't know why but I suddenly found myself kissing him back. I think it caught him off guard too because when we separated there was a rather pleasantly surprised look on his face. He just smiled at me as I turned bright red and then went back to making us something to eat.
"I…I'm gonna go…I'm gonna go play on the playstation." I stuttered a little as I walked away. Now why the hell did I do that? Its not like we haven't kissed before. Hell, we get all the way to second base more often than I ever thought we would when we met 6 years . Is that what Soubi has planned? That we go further than that while we're here? *blush* Fuck! What do I do?! I don't know if I'm ready for that.
It didn't occur to me that Soubi was right in front of me until he planted yet another kiss on me. Only this one was a little more forceful. Without realizing it I'm laying on the couch, making out with him.
After a few minutes he finally pulls his lips from mine and smiles. "Food's done." He whispers in my ear before getting up off his knees and going to the table where he'd left the food. And I find myself lying on the couch panting a little. Why does he always do this to me? *frown* And he calls me a tease. I reluctantly get up and follow him to the table.