Isabella Swan took a deep breath, trying to still her shaking hand as she struggled to put the key into the ignition. She scrunched her nose up pinching the bridge with her right hand forcing the tears to stay put. She didn't want to break down in front of him again, not like it wasn't something he'd witnessed thousands of times before.

At first she had wanted to kick and scream. Punch him and spit in his face. Tell him how much he hurt her, how much she despised him. That she didn't care if she ever saw him again. She remembered the shock and hurt on his face when she defeatedly said "ok.", grabbed her bag and walked out of his room. She knew he expected her to fight for him, for them, like she had twice before. Sobbing, pouring her heart out, clinging to him until he broke down too, agreeing to try to make it work between them. He would push back all the doubt and insecurities he had in his mind and not blame her for what others had done before her, if only for the moment. But no, it was really over and she didn't want to still be sitting here when the realization would inevitably sink in.

She jerkily pulled out of the parking spot and sped off looking in the rearview mirror seeing Edward still immobile sitting on the stoop staring off into space finishing his cigarette. She kept her eyes forward as she headed home, out of the city. The silence in the car made her ears ring as she listened hard, waiting for the familiar buzz of her phone and the call she knew deep down would never come. Once on the highway she couldn't keep back the waves of emotion anymore. She couldn't breathe. The hot tears welling up in her eyes blurred her vision. She felt a distinct sheer stabbing almost physical pain in heart and it overwhelmed her. Her whole body shook with the sob that escaped her throat. She didn't notice her loosened grip on the wheel or her car slowly swerving into the right lane. The blaring of a car horn brought her back to reality and she abruptly pulled off to the side of the road. She didn't care what people thought as she sat there, tears stream down her face crying like a baby. She tried her hardest to prevent, but to no avail, the flashes of memories that poured through her mind.

The night she first met him at one of his house parties and how they spent the whole time sitting outside talking and laughing for hours until they were the only ones left. Jumping up and down in excitement as they ran the beer pong table week after week. The day she finally confessed that she had feelings for him, and the way her heart skipped a beat when he told her he felt the same way. The memory of their first kiss. Their first date. The awkward morning after when everyone found out that they were together. The feel of his arms around her waist and the look in his eye at the concert when he confessed that he was falling in love with her as the sound of their song swirled around them. Waking up in his arms and feeling the familiar squeeze he gave her every morning. She never expected this, especially not from him. Her best friend. Her savior. Her person.

As the day turned to dusk and the sun set, she couldn't help but feel as if her whole world had shattered apart. Seconds, minutes, hours went by as she sat there alongside the road. She wished she could take it all back. Back to when they spent almost every day together. Back to when she was the little naïve freshman and when things were less complicated. For once Bella was grateful for the 110.83 miles, two hours and five minutes, between them.

She started the car pulling back onto the highway wincing as she caught a look of her swollen puffy eyes in the mirror. The further she drove the calmer she became. The tears that she felt would never stop falling dried up and she felt empty and numb inside. She fumbled around in her purse pulling out a worn & scratched CD popping it into the player. It felt like years ago when she first listened to it, smiling at the songs that he meticulously picked just for her. She slid out the tattered piece of notebook paper, ripping along the folded creases, from the front of the CD case. She didn't need to read it to know what it said, she knew it by heart.
" Whenever you're feeling down or alone, listen to this and know that you aren't. I will be here, and there will be no tears for fears... EC."
She sighed and instantly felt at ease as the soft melodic guitar riffs swirled around her head, bringing her back to when it all started; to happier times that she wished had never ended…

"I'm missing you so much I'll see you die tonight,

Just so I can get to you before the sun will rise.

I know the signs are on, I feel this too.

None of that ever seems to matter when I'm holding you.

& I'm wasting away, away from you…

You Had Me at Hello - A Day To Remember.