Warnings: Twincest. I'll leave it at that, as that should be enough to scare away all those against it. Hopefully.

My most sincere apologies to those who expected an update so very long ago! T'would have been updated sooner if not for all my useless excuses that I will not type out. There's no point, really. It's late, and I'm sorry.

Without further ado, I hope you like it and the twincest within is enough to apease those who've waited so very long for an update.

'Well, that was unexpected...' I mused, eyes wide as Kaorus' tongue tangled around mine with surprising vehemence. It's not that I'd never kissed my twin before, but this was a little extreme, even for us. I mean, all I had wanted to know was what had upset Kaoru so bad that he burst into angry tears and clawed chunks of my arm out. I couldn't help it if his anguish disturbed me. He's my brother for Gods' sake! What do you expect?

"Kaoru…s-stop…" I choked out around his tongue, trying to gently pry him off of me.

"Never..." Kaoru replied huskily, pushing me back until I hit the bathroom wall; I gasped, momentarily stunned by the cold surface against my over-heated skin. He shoved his knee between my legs, effectively pinning me to the wall, as he once again assaulted my mouth with his.

Kaoru broke away and pushed my head up, passionately biting my lower jaw. I barely held back a moan, feebly grasping Kaorus' upper arms. 'This is wrong!' my brain screamed at me, but my body diligently ignored that fact. I turned my head away, embarrassed, my cheeks a bright, burning red.

It was one thing waking up next to your twin brother while sporting an erection; morning wood couldn't be helped, and neither of us were the exception. But this was different. The friction between us and the heated kiss that had continued for several minutes straight had excited me in ways that one twin should never excite the other. And, to be honest, I was surprised at how rapidly aroused I became, considering how little time had elapsed since he first shoved his tongue down my throat.

This was so unlike Kaoru; in the Club, I was dominant, playing the "seme" in our Forbidden/Brotherly Love façade. Here, away from prying eyes, Kaoru had successfully switched our usual roles. I think what bothered me most was that I liked this feeling, being controlled by my twin as he ravished my neck with loving kisses and nips.

"Kaoru…" I groaned, batting his wandering hands away from my nether regions.

Giving me one last lick, Kaoru pulled away and smiled at me. "What's wrong, Hikaru?" He ran his hands down my stomach, heading lower and closer to a very eager part of my anatomy.

I grabbed his hands in mine and halted their descent, breathing heavily with a light blush still adorning my cheeks. "Stop it, Kaoru. This isn't like you."

"So? I know you like it…" he simpered softly with a devilish grin that, in more typical circumstances, would reflect my own. But now…I just couldn't manage to force my lips to quirk in the same way; this was too strange, and I was concerned for my brother.

I frowned, once again stopping his hands from wandering ever closer to my enthusiastic member, that, despite my aversion to the current situation, continued to strain towards my twin and his equally aroused appendage.

"Kaoru, stop it." I repeated more firmly, and his hands hesitantly fell away, hanging limply at his sides. He looked down dejectedly, his shoulders shaking slightly.

"But…why, Hikaru? Don't you love me?" He brokenly asked, glancing up at me through tearful eyes. I've rarely seen such a look in some ones' eyes, especially Kaoru; such pain and misery that I didn't fully understand. But, at this point, I didn't need to understand. It tore at my insides to see him look at me like that, and I'd do anything to take away that pain.

I realized then that not only had we switched roles in dominance, but also seemingly in personality. Normally it was I that had trouble controlling my emotions; it was rare for Kaoru to break down like this.

I opened my mouth in disbelief, reaching out and pulling him into an embrace, disregarding the fact that we were both still tremendously aroused. "Of course I do, Kaoru! How could you ever think otherwise?" Now I knew, for the most part, what was wrong; he thought I didn't love him as much as I always have.

Kaoru wept for the second time that morning while I held him tightly. I told him that it was alright, promised him that I would always love him, that nothing he did would ever change how much I cared about him.

I'm not sure if he believed me, at least about everything being okay, but I meant what I said either way; nothing and no one could or would ever replace Kaoru in my heart, and I would do anything to make sure he would never again doubt that. Even if it meant doing something that would most assuredly make us outcasts for the rest of our lives if anyone found out, shunned by everyone we knew, perhaps even our own friends.

I kissed him soothingly, holding him steady so that it stayed uncomplicated; no tongue, just a soft, chaste pressure between our identical lips. He hummed quietly, taking a deep, shuddering breath and smiling against my lips, finally calm.

Touching his forehead with my own, I opened my eyes slightly, just as he did the same. He mouthed 'I love you', and I smirked.

"Kaoru?" I murmured.

Mirroring my smirk, Kaoru whispered back, "Yes, Hikaru?"

"Are you sure that this is what you want?" I asked seriously. I was sure he knew what could happen if anyone found out. Sure, we'd always been together, and there were those that believed that we were secretly 'doing each other', but most people assumed it was either an innocent brotherly bond, or just a joke, like the act we put on at the Club. But if this continued, if I let Kaoru have his way…well, incest isn't exactly smiled upon in any society nowadays, now is it?

"Hmm…" Kaoru looked skyward as he weighed the pros and cons of this most important decision. The cons were off the charts, while the pros remained a valuable, yet pitiful, few.

'On the one hand, no one will ever talk to us again, if they find out,' I thought, 'and there's always the chance that we might do this again, which would distance us even farther from the rest of the world. The horrible jealousy that will incur, the awkwardness, the embarrassment-'

"Yes, I'm sure," Kaoru stated firmly at last, ginning pleasantly at me.

'…Well, at least I can say that he'll always be mine in ways that no one else can, even if he ever does fall in love with someone else.' Looking at that smile, suddenly so full of life and pleasure, the issues that could, and probably would, arise just didn't seem to matter next to that one, blissful benefit.

Giving neither me nor my twin the chance to reconsider his decision, I kissed Kaoru with reckless abandon, slipping my tongue into his mouth with his ready compliance. His hands began to trail down again, and this time I didn't stop them on their trek, allowing him to grasp my slightly flaccid length.

I groaned his name into his mouth, tangling my fingers in his sodden auburn hair; I jerked his head back suddenly, biting and sucking his throat to leave an angry red mark, and he moaned. His fingers convulsed around my member and caused me to echo his moan.

His neck was so soft and delectable; it was difficult resist the smooth pale flesh, as suddenly difficult as it was to believe that what we were doing was really wrong. I ate at his neck, licking and biting it so harshly that he gasped loudly, squeezing me so tightly I cried out. For one heart-stopping moment, I thought I'd actually hurt him, but, by the way he continued to stroke me pleasurably and by the insistent prodding of his cock against my stomach, I knew that what he was feeling was the opposite of pain.

I pushed Kaoru back, tired of playing nice while he had his way with me. The now bitterly cold water splattered against us, though Kaoru got the brunt of it; he leaned against the other wall of the shower, closing his eyes so that the water didn't get into them, shivering violently. Protected from the worst of the spray, I bent down, kissing his chest, down his stomach, dipping my tongue into his navel.

I peeked through my soaked bangs at my brother; his eyes were still closed, yet his face held an utter delight that I'd not seen for a long time. Lately, his expressions were a little hesitant, sometimes openly forced. It was nice to see him look so relaxed.

The urgent nudging of his member was gone, but I wasn't surprised; it's hard to remain 'hard' in freezing water. I was about to suggest that my brother and I vacate the bathroom for a warmer, cushier bed, when he finally spoke up.

"Hikaru?"

"Yes?" I replied. I glanced up at him, only to get a mouthful of water spat in my face. I blinked rapidly, spluttering while Kaoru laughed at me.

"What was that for?" I grumbled indignantly as I staggered to my feet, shaking my head. Kaoru continued to laugh, turning off the water and opening the door.

"For making me freeze my 'nads off while you got to have all the fun," he said, smirking at me.

I threw a towel at him and dried myself off. I declined to throw on my shorts, because from the way Kaoru was watching me, licking his lips in anticipation and his eyes burning lustfully, I had a feeling they wouldn't fit any more anyway. Kaorus' grin would've been the envy of the Cheshire Cat.

Painfully hard, I raced into our bedroom, Kaoru following close. Just as I reached the bed, he tackled me from behind, landing on top of me, rolling me over, and straddling me.

I chuckled, slightly winded, until he kissed me passionately, cutting off my giggling and making it even harder to catch my breath. I gasped, laughing brokenly as a tried to push him away so I could breathe.

"Kaoru, I…can't…breathe!" I gasped out through my laughter.

"Aw, don't be like that!" Kaoru simpered, straining down to kiss me again. Realizing that I wasn't going to let that happen until I was no longer choking on the air, he settled for nipping my ear playfully.

I tried to focus on catching my breath, but he was surprisingly talented with those teeth and that tongue. My heart beat sped up and I groaned softly when he bit the underside of my jaw, flicking his tongue out to drag it around, down, and then back up to my other ear. He nibbled delicately on it, drawing another eager moan from me when also slipped his hand down, brushing my erect nipples, and fondling my correspondingly erect cock.

This was the first time I'd ever felt this kind of pleasure, from anyone, and I was suddenly very grateful that it was something I'd experience with Kaoru. I fervently hoped that he enjoyed this as much as I did, and the thought that I might be neglecting him while he entertained me made me reach down as well, hesitantly wrapping my fingers around his warm shaft as I drew his tongue back into my mouth.

"Hmm…" Kaoru purred, grinding his hips into my hand as I did the same to his.

I'd always assumed that Kaoru would be more passive than this, especially in bed. But, as it turned out, I was the one desperately trying to stay silent as he stroked me expertly, for the sake of anyone who might have been wandering the halls outside of our bedroom. Unlikely, yes, but better safe than sorry; we terrified the maids enough with our incestuous acting; they probably couldn't handle seeing us so…close, without having a mental break-down.

He pulled back, locking his eyes on mine as he slowly slid down my body. I was almost panting with excitement, shivering as he dragged his nails along my stomach with enough force so that it was just toeing the line between pleasure and pain.

I knew immediately what he was about to do, hovering above my cock and gradually lowering his mouth towards it.

"Kaoru," I murmured and he paused, tongue only centimeters away from touching the head of my member. "You…you don't have to." After all, we'd never even touched each other in such intimate ways; his hand around my shaft was already crossing the line of my comfort zone, but I was holding out pretty well. However, what he was about to do completely destroyed that particular line.

He tilted his head cutely to one side. "Oh, Hikaru," he chided me gently. "Why ever would I not want to?"

"Don't you think this is a little strange?" I asked, blushing nervously.

"Of course it's strange," Kaoru replied, shrugging off my concerns as if we were talking about the weather. Before I could say anything else, he kissed the tip of my cock, flicking his tongue back out to run it gently down and around the head. I writhed, arched my back and clutching the sheets tightly.

"My God, Kaoru!"

He grinned wolfishly, keeping his eyes downcast as he continued to lick and suck me teasingly.

Stars were practically exploding behind my eyes; I gripped the bed as if I would float away if I didn't hold on with all my might. My back ached off the bed, my mouth wide open as I gasped and groaned.

Kaoru kept my hips pinned securely to the bed, his nails digging into me as he did his best to keep me relatively still as I writhed and squirmed. At last, he gave up, scowling good-naturedly at me and letting me flop back onto the bed, eyes unfocused and gasping for air (yet again, I might add).

"…Thank you!" I wheezed, panting heavily still. "I completely forgot to breathe there for a second!"

"I'm not sure if I should be glad about that or not," Kaoru joked, settling himself comfortably between my spread legs.

"What, is that it?" I asked teasingly after I had caught my breath.

"You expected more, I take it?" he replied with a barely concealed smile, turning his head away haughtily.

I levered myself into a sitting position, shaking my head in mock disappointment. "You're such a quitter, Kaoru. Why do I put up with you?" I ruffled his hair affectionately, knowing he'd hate it.

He swatted my hand away from his mussed up auburn hair, baring his teeth in a sly grin. He forced me to lie back down as he crawled up my body, kissing me lovingly here and there as he did so.

I groaned as he rubbed against my burning member that continued to scream for the release it had thus far been denied.

"Ah!" I gasped, wincing and smiling tightly. "So that's why I put up with it."

At last, his face was level with mine; he kissed me once, liquid golden eyes gleaming with exhilaration, whispering against my lips with an arrogant smirk, "I'm such a pain, I know. Please, put me in my place…"

"With pleasure," I murmured back, grasping his shoulders and rolling us over. I delved my tongue into his mouth, reaching down between us for the umpteenth time to grasp his slick length in my hand.

To my great surprise, he stopped me, wrapping his fingers around my hand and pulling it up to his lips, kissing my knuckles tenderly. I gave him a confused look.

"Isn't this what you wanted?" I asked hesitantly, irritation pricking at me. 'We've already gone this far! Don't change you mind now!' I thought.

"Of course it is, don't be silly," he reassured me. "But this isn't working."

I looked down at my throbbing member, which was pressed up gently against Kaoru's similarly aroused shaft. "Seems to be working alright to me," I grinned at him, attempting to pull my hand free, but he held fast.

"Not that. Going back and forth like this; it's not getting us anywhere."

I raised an eyebrow, about to once again draw his attention to our nether regions to point out that this was most definitely getting us somewhere, when he rolled us over yet again. Perplexed, I watched with rapt attention as he turned around, positioning himself above my cock. Suddenly, his intentions dawned on me, and I laughed.

"Ah! I guess you are the smart one after all."

Hovering over me still, he glanced between his legs and glared at me.

"Did you really doubt my intelligence?"

"Don't look at me, you should hear what everyone else thinks. They say I'm the smart one, being the seme and all." I grinned smugly at him.

"Oh, really?" Kaoru mumbled with a disappointed sigh. "'That he's mad, 'tis true, 'tis true 'tis pity, And pity 'tis 'tis true…'"

"Are you calling me crazy?"

"Would I do that?" he asked innocently, licking me leisurely.

I squirmed, unable to answer as he lapped the head and along the shaft. Realizing that I too had a role to play, I raised my head enough to draw him into my mouth hurriedly, making him falter in his own administrations. His moan vibrated around my cock and I couldn't stop myself from trusting up into the warm wetness of his mouth. Despite an inability to think clearly on either of our parts, we both gave as good as we got, if not better. His knees wobbled from the strain of holding himself above me, causing more of him to be stuffed down my throat, but I did my best to swallow his length down, teeth grazing the sensitive flesh.

All the while, he alternated between licking, nipping, and sucking, just barely touching the tip, then suddenly taking as much of me in as he could without choking. Warm pressure built in my lower stomach, burning hotter and hotter. Personally, I was astounded both by his own talent and by my own ability to stay conscious.

Finally, his clever technique, which I vowed to question him about later, became too much for me to handle. I groaned around his cock, my hips raising up off the floor so fast he had to shove me back down to avoid being suffocated.

He gagged momentarily before his throat convulsed and he pulled his head away, breathing heavily. Cum dribbled out the side of his mouth and splattered on my lower stomach, oozing down my thighs.

I only felt sorry about not warning him for a moment, -though I couldn't very well warn him with my mouth so full, now could I? - ; he jerked his head up, cried out, and hot liquid filled my mouth, thick and salty.

He collapsed on my stomach and chest, his rear hanging in the air until I shoved him off with an exhausted chuckle.

"Get off, you great lump! It's hard enough to breathe without that thing in my mouth."

He echoed my laugh, shakily levering himself up and sliding himself around on our sweat drenched bodies until his head was buried in the crook of my neck.

"Not exactly the most romantic thing one could say after a mind-blowing experience like that," he muttered.

"You're the smart one, remember? You can say all the fancy, romantic things you want. I'm too tired." That said I curled myself around my brother, legs tangling around his.

"Too tired to think," he agreed, kissing my shoulder lovingly.

A smile pulled at the corner of my mouth as I listened to him, breathing lightly in my ear. He needn't say anything special to me, nor I to him, for our mutual feelings of unadulterated love and caring to be known. But I did anyway, as I never wanted him to feel so miserable, ever again.

"'Doubt thou the stars are fire. Doubt that the sun doth move. Doubt truth to be a liar. But never doubt my love'…" I murmured, drifting off into peaceful slumber with Kaoru wrapped in my tight embrace, and I in his.

If you don't recognize the two quotes at the end, then I feel for the literary future of the world...

I'm acutally happy with how this came out, but I would dearly appreciate any con-crit you could offer. This is lemon...thing number two, so I'm still new to it. I don't do full on sex, as you noticed. Don't like it that much, especially not with realtives. That's a little beyond my comfort zone.

Much Love to all who read (and also review),

~SS