Hey guys!

I just wanted to wish you all a belated happy holidays. I know I have been lagging on my updates but I wanted everyone to know I have not forgotten about any of these ongoing fics and I fully intend to update sooner than later.

I just wanted to say right after Thanksgiving my cousin of 38 years old died of a spontaneous stroke. He was a relatively healthy guy not overweight just his premature time I guess. He was a cousin on my dad's side and a close friend. He also had been dating my good girlfriend as well for the last 10 years. The loss was a huge blow. When I wasn't working I stayed the night with my widowed (sort of), close friend, being there for her and her family and mourning my friend. 3 weeks later, another friend of mine and his girlfriend, also my good friend attended her company Christmas party. They enjoyed themselves and drank. He ended up having too much to drink passed out in an uber ride home and my girlfriend was unable to wake him. He wasn't breathing and was rushed to the ER. Come to find out. He had put a wad of chew/dip or chewing tobacco in his mouth passed out and actually choked on it. He was revived at the ER but was in a coma and on a ventilator. Much like Luke Perry he was deprived without oxygen to his brain for up to 45 min and was pronounced brain dead about 5 days into his hospitalization. He was a donor, so 68 people received his organs and he was pronounced dead right before Christmas. He was 35 years old. Would have been 36 yesterday. These two guys were in my close knit group of friends. They were close friends themselves the two of them. It's been a devastating loss for me and my close friends that I call family. So that is why I haven't been writing. It's been a very very tough couple of months. It's been awful. Crying and full depression. Shock and disbelief. Especially because after the first one passed away. The second one mourned him with me. All to soon after that happened to him. He and that family and group of friends didn't even make it to my cousins funeral because he was still fighting for his life in the hospital. Thats how close everything was thing wise.

That being said. Thank you all for being patient and wanting more and wanting an update. You guys are literally the best fanfic fans ever! Please know I appreciate you all and I have not forgotten about these stories. Just give me a little more time to get my shit together. Live each day like it may be your last. Life is so short. Tell the people you love how you feel about them and never take a day for granted. I love you BD fans. You make writing fun. You make me want too be better, do better and continue these stories. Stay tuned I have not forgotten you or the precious and best couple ever…Brenda and Dylan.

Love always,

DylanLovesBrenda